It was the Christmas office party for the shinigami. There were two reasons that Will went: To control Grell, Ronald and Eric (Alan was innocent) and because he was lonely and had nothing else to do. He reluctantly wore a Christmas hat and his usual uniform as he watched Alan and Eric making out in the corner. Alan was never one for PDA unless he was drunk. That must've been the case. When they started moaning and groping each other, William knew he had to put a stop to it. He walked over to the two, setting a hand on Eric's shoulder, making Eric immediately pull away, glaring at William.
"Please take this back to your home and out of the office," William said, trying to be monotone.
Alan nodded, very embarrassed. Eric harshly glared at William yet again, before drunkenly slinging Alan over his shoulder and carrying him out of the office building. When William turned around, Grell was behind him, wearing a very skimpy "Mrs. Claus" dress. He didn't even really seem to notice the dress, but he did notice the "sex-eye" she gave him.
"Ah, Grell."
"Will~!" She exclaimed. It was clear that she was tipsy as she put her hands on his shoulders. "Wanna have sex in my office? We'll have to be quiet... Unless you want to have everybody at the party hear us~..."
"Uh...no."
"Well, why not? Aren't you at least tipsy like the rest of us?"
"I had a drink," he responded, trying to sound blank.
"Well, why don't you have another? Maybe your standards can be lowered?"
"I apologize, Grell, but I would never have sex with you." There. He finally said it. He felt like crying with guilt, but he finally said it.
"Why? Because I'm trans?" she said, tears welling up in her eyes. Yes, definitely more than tipsy. "I'm still a woman, you know."
"Grell, it's not that. I honestly don't care."
"Then what is it, Will? Won't you tell me?"
"Please follow me into my office, Grell. I need to have a discussion with you."
She nodded sadly, thinking she would be in trouble. I mean, why wouldn't she be in trouble?
They stood in his office, and he closed and locked the door. She looked at him with confusion. When he turned back around, he was shaking.
"Will...? What's wrong?"
"Grell, I... I don't know who else to tell, but I'm afraid and confused."
She had never seen this kind of vulnerability from him. She put a hand on his arm. "Will... You can tell me."
"I... It's not just you I don't want to have sex with."
"You're gay? Will, you know that nobody here cares about that-"
He cut her off. "No. I'm not gay," he paused, sighing shakily. "You know how all shinigami... They're overly sexual, very high libido?"
"Of course. All of us are like that."
"Well, not all of us are like that, Grell. I... I'm not physically attracted to anybody. I don't understand what people mean when they talk about sexual frustration. I can't even... I can't..."
"Orgasm?"
"I can't even get erect, let alone orgasm. And... And I'm scared. Is that healthy? Is that normal? I doubt it... I don't think it's healthy or normal. Maybe I should go to one of the shinigami doctors about it. It's really unnerving."
"Have you always been like this?"
"Yes."
Grell began giggling a bit.
"Don't laugh at me!" He suddenly lashed out. "I'm really, really scared."
"Ah, I apologize for laughing. Will, you're fine!"
"What...?"
"You don't need to go to a doctor. Don't you know what asexuality is?"
"Asexuality?"
"Yes. You're asexual, Will. I mean, if you really want to go to a doctor, you can. If you're really that worried, go ahead. But you're not a freak, Will. You're just asexual. See, asexuals can masturbate or fantasize about sex, or sometimes they even have sex. But a lot of them don't have sex or masturbate or fantasize or anything."
"You really think I'm asexual?"
"I think you're worrying too much," she said, moving her hand up to his shoulder and looking him dead in the eye.
"But... But I want to date girls, and I have dated girls. Doesn't that make me heterosexual?"
"It makes you heteroromantic, hun."
"I'm so confused..."
"Do some research, Will. It will probably give you some answers."
"Can... Can I hug you?" His large green eyes were huge.
"I don't see why not, hun."
He hugged her, seeming very out of character and vulnerable. When they both pulled away, he was crying.
"Will... Don't cry, sweetie. You're not alone."
Suddenly, they were kissing. Neither of them knew who initiated the kiss, but Grell guessed that it was William. When they pulled away, William looked mortified.
"I am so sorry."
"Why?"
"Because... I kissed you."
"But I liked it," she whispered. "Did you?"
"Yeah..."
She smiled, wiping the tears from his cheeks. "You're okay, Will. You're not alone, Will."
