Whatif (The PhD Student Version)

Last night, while I lay thinking here,
some Whatifs crawled inside my ear
and pranced and partied all night long
and sang their same old Whatif song:

Whatif I fail at school?

Whatif I don't know what to do?

Whatif I forget what to say?

Whatif I lose the courage to stay?

Whatif my homework is late?

Whatif "doctor" isn't my fate?

Whatif my research flops?

Whatif my GPA drops?

Whatif I can't register for a course?

Whatif I quote an unreliable source?

Whatif I forget to cite?

Whatif I don't get it right?

Whatif I don't finish in time?

Whatif I'm past my prime?

Whatif my hard drive fails?

Whatif someone hacks my email?

Whatif I don't find a job?

Whatif I always have to hob-knob?

Whatif I can't pay my loans?

Whatif I can't keep up with the Jones'?

Everything seems well, and then

the nighttime Whatifs strike again!