Vampires are mythological or folkloric beings who subsist by feeding on the life essence (generally in the form of blood) of living creatures, regardless of whether they are undead or living person/being.
There was nothing worth it on Wikipedia as usual.
Mythological. Caroline wanted to laugh at the word. Vampires were very real and right now, they were haunting her peaceful world.
Worst. Caroline was one of them.
Her blue eyes roamed around paragraphs of the webpage as she clicked her laptop mouse to scroll down to the bottom.
Nothing.
But there had to have something here. She was pretty sure of that, because it was almost impossible to not have any real information about her kind on the internet. In what century were they, after all? This was the twenty-first century and vampires could already use computers. Everything was at their fingers and some online page had to talk about them, in a credible and reasonable way.
Wait.
What was she talking about? There was nothing reasonable about this situation.
Jeremy Gilbert was dead. Alaric was dead. Aunt Jenny was dead. Three of the most important people in Elena's life were gone, without mentioning her parents who died almost two years ago. So many souls and 'soldiers' were lost in this battle and for what?
There was no coherent explanation for this and Caroline was aware of it.
But when did everything turned so screwed up?
She sighed slightly, giving up on her search as she slammed her laptop closed. There was a new anger building inside of her chest. It was a small pain that she didn't understand very well. Everything was so new to her.
Only a year ago, she was only Caroline Forbes. Miss Mystic Falls sweetheart, Head Cheerleader and Head of the Event Planning. Those were the three big 'M' ('most') of her greeting list from when she was a child. She was already on the top of her high school pyramid, but Caroline didn't have the most important topic that was missing on that list: love. She always felt like she was in Elena's shadow and to her, her best friend was her only competition when it came to everything in general. Oh God. Caroline Forbes was certainty the most insecure girl in the whole world.
But what really had changed since this human Caroline?
Of course she was a vampire now and she had a different mindset. But was she really that different from the old troubled and fragile Caroline?
You prefer who you are now to the girl you once were.
The corner of her lips twitched up at the memory of those words.
You like being strong, ageless, fearless.
Caroline knew she did. There was nothing to like about seventeen years old Caroline because that girl simply didn't exist anymore, not even in her own imagination. It wasn't a time of pride for her; that was certain. There was no traces of insecurity or doubt in the new Caroline. She knew who her real friends were and how much her family loved her. Her parents. Obviously they made their mistakes with her and she always understood them, somehow. In the end, they both loved her but they only showed that affection in different ways. It was understandable, she figured.
We're the same, Caroline.
The same. She closed her eyes as she repeated those words in her head, over and over again.
Were they really the same? In that day, she recognized the familiarity of those words. But today, Caroline really couldn't feel anything for them.
It was a long day, definitely. Everything just turned upside down and she didn't even have time to think of a solution for all their problems. At least all of them were aware that they had a big trouble in their hands and that was a good start already. But now, where was the solution?
That was actually the wrong question, because they should be asking themselves: where is our 'big trouble' right now?
Suddenly, her phone vibrated with a new message and she quickly took it from her dark denim jacket.
'Elena is with Damon.' It was Stefan.
Great. So their major issue, I-Don't-Feel-I-Don't-Care Elena, was with the vampire gigolo Salvatore. This was exactly what they needed.
Caroline closed her eyes in frustration as she fell down on her bed and covered her eyes with her hands, in frustration.
When was going their nightmare to end?
She had no doubts that Stefan believed that Damon knew what he was doing. Wrong! Damon Salvatore was always wrong and his plans were always the worst. To be honest, she couldn't even remember of any of his plans that actually saved their asses. Not even a single one. Ugh. It was like their fate was in the devil's hands and Caroline didn't even find the strength to believe that they were safe.
Maybe she was just being an insecure, neurotic, control freak...without the crack part.
"Please day, just finish quickly..." She murmured quietly to herself as she flipped on her stomach and hid her face on her pillow.
Maybe if Caroline believed in it a lot, her sleep would eventually come. Go figure. There was always hope.
Once again, her phone vibrated under her pillow. Just this time, she didn't move to who was texting her. Who cared? She was just done with problems for today.
Silence involved her room, but it didn't last long. A few minutes later, Caroline only heard a Ring Ring Ring Ring.
"Seriously?" She grumbled, lifting her head from her pillow as she finally reached for her pillow. Damn it.
With a deep breath, the blond young woman picked up the phone before the fourth 'ring' and answered with a sleepy voice. "Yes?"
"Hey. It's me." A manly voice said from the other side.
Matt? She looked confused at the phone for a second before the realization hit her like a stake.
"Oh Matt. I'm so so sorry." She quickly apologize as her eyes quickly looked around her room. Her suitcase was on the floor closer to the door and she didn't even have time to talk with her mother about moving in with Matt to the Lockwood's estate.
"It's okay." He chuckled lightly, but the sadness was obvious in his voice. "You had a long day."
Caroline nodded at her. She certainty had. "I will talk with mom tomorrow."
She could almost imagine the small smile on his face when he asked her. "I will pick you up in the morning?"
"Oh no. Afternoon?" She tried, biting down on her bottom lip as she remembered she promised Stefan that she was going to help him to clean up his house; it was still a big mess because of Elena's party but any of them had patience to clean it after. Some sleep was more appealing, for sure.
"Sure." Matt agreed. "I will see you tomorrow then. Text me in the morning to let me know what your mother said."
Caroline smiled lightly at his words and nodded. "Okay. I'll see you tomorrow. Bye."
"Bye." He quietly said before he hung up.
Everything was coming to her again. Sleep was a need but her eyes were refusing to close now that she really couldn't take Tyler out her head. Just for a second in that night, she realized that she didn't think of him. She was so determined to find something to help Elena with her 'no humanity' problem, that she didn't even bring her thoughts to her boyfriend.
Or should she say...ex-boyfriend? Her heart clenched in her chest slightly and Caroline could almost feel her air leaving her lungs.
Your mind is playing tricks. She told to herself. Vampires couldn't breath so she could feel breathless. It wasn't possible.
Hot tears prickled her eyes and they quickly fell down her cheeks. It was coming. That feeling of abandonment was coming back and she really couldn't focus in anything else right now; not even Elena.
She was humiliated in front of everyone in their cheerleading competition because Elena was feeling bittersweet.
Her own mother almost died in that night because of her 'golden star' best friend. And then she almost killed Caroline to prove that she was stronger than her. Who cares that Alaric trained her? It wasn't like their old history teacher taught her all of this, for her to try to kill her friends.
Her senior year was basically drowning in disasters and everything was Elena's fault.
Right, she lost the last member of her family. It's a good motive but it's not reason enough to try to kill whoever really loves her.
Damn to that switch. It was only causing them troubles. It seemed unfair to why did they have to feel when Elena was just being reckless. Where was the switch for them too?
"Don't even go there, Caroline." She whispered, shaking her head slightly as she tried to calm down her rage.
Tyler's letter didn't help in nothing.
Where is the 'until we find a way' that he promised? He promised, didn't he? Tyler didn't even speak but he nodded and that counts, right?
Her tears started to fall down more freely as a tight knot formed in her throat. He didn't promise. Caroline finally realized, reaching for her teddy bear as she held it closer to her chest.
"Klaus...it's your fault." She choked out with her words, sobbing quietly into her pillow. Not even hearing her mother's heart beating from somewhere in her house, was enough to stop her tears from falling. Her mother was alive, yes. But it wasn't enough...Tyler wasn't with her.
She was completely alone. Just like the human Caroline that she once was. She was stronger, yes. Ageless, yes. But fearless? No, she wasn't. In that moment, she felt like little Caroline that no one liked or cared about. There was no braveness in her soul and she didn't want to be courage right now either because there was no one in her room to watch her crying. There was no reason to hide her depression from the world around her.
Let's just be honest. Caroline Forbes was always second choice. There was no doubt that Bonnie and Damon would do everything for Elena. And Stefan was her one of her best friend right now, but she couldn't forget that Elena was the love of his life. Who would he choose? She wasn't sure. There was Matt too but would he have enough strength to choose between her and Elena? She wasn't even trying to be bitch but everything was about her best friend.
Even Tyler. His situation had nothing to do with Elena but if it wasn't for her doppelganger bloodline, Tyler wouldn't be a hybrid and Klaus wouldn't be after him.
"It was her fault." She gritted her teeth in anger when she spoke.
Everything terrible that happened in that town was because of Elena Gilbert.
It was because of her that Caroline remained the second choice for everyone, even Tyler's second choice without being directly her fault. Her boyfriend had to choose his survive instead of her and that hurt too much.
Caroline swallowed her sorrows, trying to control her emotions as she battled with her painful conclusions. Her throat immediately felt scratchy and dry when she realized that she couldn't control herself anymore.
It was just too much. She felt like her limbs were ripped apart and that she was going to explode.
"Oh God. Make it stop..." She half-begged, closing her eyes tight. Please. Please. Please.
Her phone suddenly started to ring again and Caroline found in it a reason to control her state of distress.
Maybe it was Stefan. She hoped.
Unlike the other times, she quickly reached for her phone and actually checked who was calling her.
It was unknown. She frowned in confusion.
Who could it be? It was already late and-
Her eyes widened in anxiety when a thought crossed her mind.
It had to be him. It was Tyler. A slightly bright smile crossed her features, realizing that maybe someone actually heard her prayers. That he was coming back to Mystic Falls and to her.
Hopefully, she would even convince him to leave town with her mother or something like that. A new start for them. It was just perfect right now. Who cared about Elena or Silas? They could be happy and away from this mess.
This was like breathing fresh air. Thanks God.
Caroline quickly pressed the green button and answered the call. "Ty?"
"Sorry to disappoint. Do you want to take another guess? I will give you a hint...it's a wolf too."
Her blood froze in her veins as soon as she heard the familiar voice.
It wasn't Tyler.
But it was an old friend of him.
It was Hayley. The were-slut.
"Seriously?! Don't you have anyone else to torment?" Caroline asked coldly.
The wolf let out a small laugh as she stayed quiet for a moment. In the background, Caroline could hear the noise of something. What was it? A plane or a...oh it was a train.
"You're my new favorite target." Hayley said before she asked. "Do you want to know where am I going?"
She swallowed, but this time she didn't answer. A disgusting feeling in her stomach was telling her that she wasn't going to like to hear it.
"Meet with Ty." The wolf used the nickname of Caroline's boyfriend on purpose.
Caroline growled lowly, murmuring. "Stay away from him! You've done enough to him. Tyler is running away because of your selfish plan. His mother is dead because of you too." She snapped.
This time, she heard Hayley laughing out loud. Her blood started to boil in rage for the other woman. If she was in front of her right now, she would have no doubts that she would snap her neck without a second thought. It wouldn't be a great loss, anyway. Just one less forsaken dog in the world.
"No." Hayley paused and Caroline could almost feel her smirk on her voice when she said. "That was Klaus."
The blond rolled her eyes. She was losing her patience with her already. "The plan was yours."
"But I didn't suffer the consequences. Klaus was kind with me."
Her answer actually caught Caroline's attention and she frowned slightly.
"It was nice to talk to you, Caroline. I have a train to catch but I'll send your 'hello' to your boyfriend." There was some sarcasm in her voice when she said that. "And oh, since Tyler is away, you could always try to do your move on Klaus."
Caroline paused in confusion, waiting for Hayley to finish. Something was telling her that she-wolf wasn't done with her speech.
"Just stay with my leftovers." She said nonchalantly. "You are used of them, aren't you? And oh Klaus likes to be in control but you should change his covers first because they must 'reek' of wolf sex." As soon as she said the last word, Hayley hung up without give time for Caroline to speak.
But what could she say? The words weren't getting out of her mouth as she looked down at the phone.
Everything around her seemed to stop, her breath was caught in her throat as she heard a small sob escaping her lips. Caroline fought to keep still but there were so many questions in her head right now.
Why did he sleep with the were-slut? He claimed to fancy her but he didn't even think twice in sleeping with her.
If it was someone else, she probably would care less. Wouldn't she? Maybe but it wasn't someone else. It was Hayley, the she-wolf. She was the real reason of why Klaus lost his beloved hybrids. She tricked everyone and snapped her neck for a pathetic reason. Tyler lost his mother and some of his dignity in that day. But Klaus lost a lot too. Caroline always thought that his hybrids meant a lot to him. Wasn't that the point of making them? Just to not be the last of his kind. Loneliness was something that Niklaus Mikaelson never wanted and Caroline always assumed that was the mainly reason why he was so determined in building his army of hybrids.
So then why he do that? To him. To her. She thought he loved her but he was just like Damon Salvatore. A vampire gigolo bit with thousand years.
Without even realizing it, Caroline's heart was broken for the second time in that night. She couldn't even explain what she was feeling in that moment, because she didn't want to admit out loud that she cared for Klaus in some twisted way.
We're the same, Caroline. Yes, they were and that's why she cared.
He was the only one who made her feel like she was a first choice and she couldn't deny that she liked that feeling.
Even with Tyler was a little different because they didn't grow up loving each other.
Klaus was a monster and there was no way that Caroline could forget what he did to her friends. Aunt Jenna was dead because of him and so many other misfortunes, that happened in Mystic Falls, were his fault. Just right now, she couldn't even find the will to care about him.
It was Hayley.
Klaus slept with Hayley. The idea hit her hard and her blue eyes widened in anguish again.
Caroline Forbes was second again.
Her eyes immediately watered at the painfully reality. Tyler was gone forever. Klaus didn't care enough. Elena tried to kill her. Damon and Stefan were too busy with Elena to care for her. Bonnie was going crazy with her magic to save Jeremy or whatever. Matt had a new house to take care of now. And she had nothing. There was no one who actually really cared about Caroline; she was completely alone.
An expression of pain crossed her face and she leaned back against the pillow. Her old teddy bear was still on her lap when she reached for it and tried to find some comfort in it.
Her tears kept falling from her lips as Caroline leaned her head back to stare at the ceiling before she closed her eyes.
"Make it stop." She found herself murmuring to herself. This was enough.
There was a small pain in her chest when she felt her heart constrict in a tight knot. The voices of her friends started to fade away from her mind and Caroline took a stifling sigh as her tears slowly stopped falling from her eyes.
Everything was burning inside of her. What was going on?
Maybe you should try to turn it all off. Elena had told her.
No, she couldn't do that. Who happened to the girl who was trying to fix everything? It was like Strong Caroline was gone with the wind in only in a few minutes and now there was only a rags-doll with no life. Caroline was just tired of fighting for everything when no one wanted her help.
If they didn't care; why should she care, right?
The air seemed to leave her lungs once again and she panted slightly, running her hands through a hair.
Maybe Elena was right but where was that damn switch? She was suppose to wish for it a lot or what? Maybe it would just happen suddenly but she could always turn it back on again, right? There were so many questions and Caroline couldn't answer any of them.
Where was Tyler?
She shook her head slightly at that. It wasn't the right question.
Why did Klaus do this to her?
"Why do I..." She choked a little, taking a deeply breath. "...care?" Caroline asked as a whisper, closing her eyes tightly.
Suddenly, everything stopped.
Her quiet sobs vanished in the air and her body stopped to tremble. There was no feeling of anguish in her chest and her poor heart wasn't clenching in desperation anymore. It was like all her problems just faded away from her mind and all her friends were only mere faces to her. No emotion or feelings related to them.
Who cares that Jeremy died? Elena was just being a bitch about everything. Damon and Stefan were pathetic from pining over someone who was just playing with them. And the other problems? They didn't even seem to matter to Caroline anymore.
Tyler was a loser for leaving her. Truth.
Klaus was going to get a tick fever because of the were-slut's wild tick. Truth too.
And Caroline? Well, she didn't care about that bullshit anymore.
It was time to live her life and that day was going to be tomorrow.
Finally, her humanity switch had turned off.
And she was loving every second of it.
A/N: Hello :D So first of all, I wanted to thank you for reading my story. It would mean a lot to me if you could review too. Pretty please? I'm always so insecure about my work and I really wanted you to love this story as much as I do. :D
Are you a fan of Hayley? I'm terrible sorry but she is going to be a bitch in this story. I can't even hear her name right now because of klaley's sex in the last episode. It was very WTF actually. I respected everyone's opinion but I'm just sharing mine. Anyway, my name is Bianca. :D I want to apologize for the misspellings in my writing but I'm brazillian. Actually I'm looking for a BETA READER! Is someone interested? Just message me and I will love you loads. :D If not, I will continue to write this story anyway...
I hope to see you in the next chapter and two questions for you:
1) Should I change this to M? I'm comfortable with both but what do you prefer?
2) The length of the chapter is okay? I'm not exactly sure...
Note: Klaus is going to be in the next chapter. :D
