Authors note: Hey everyone! Welcome to my new story! I hope you will enjoy this because I put a lot of effort into it and I hope it turns out the way I wanted. This will be a multi chapter fic and will contain a lot of heartbreak, yaoi, humor, romance, and twists. This is somewhat considered an AU, but you'll see as you read on.

Anyways, I hope you enjoy and if you like this then please review so I can continue on. Also, there will be warnings for each chapter that will contain lemons and such. Thanks and enjoy!


Darkness surrounded him. It consumed his body as he stood there confused. There was nothing around him, only silence. He panicked and wondered what he was doing in a place like this. He found that he couldn't speak because every time he opened his mouth no words came out.

He figured just standing there wouldn't do him any good, so he began to walk.

There was no direction. He couldn't even see his hand when he lifted it up to his face. It was honestly scared him to the point that he wanted to scream. But when he tried to, no noise came out.

It seemed like it had been hours of him walking aimlessly. He wasn't keeping track of time anyways because he was desperately trying to reach an exit of some sort, but it was no use.

Then when he thought all hope was lost, a light appeared in front of him. He suddenly gasped while stopping short. It had no shape, just a white light. It appeared very bright because of the darkness that surrounded him, so he shielded his eyes with his arms.

"I guess you're wondering why you are doing in a place like this?"

It had a voice. An very familiar one he thought.

But he was still confused. Where was he? Had he died? What was going to happen?

He tried again to speak, but nothing came out. He began to get frustrated and grit his teeth together ready to unleash his anger to the light figure.

The strange light seemed to sense his frustration and let out a laugh.

"This should be very interesting."

"What are you talking about?!"

Oh. His voice. It came back.

"Well that's for you to find out soon enough. But, at another time. For now, I guess I'll go ahead with the experiment. I need a break anyhow and my boss allowed me a vacation for once."

"W-What? What experiment! I'm not you're damn experiment!" He shouted. He was completely confused now. And a vacation? How does a floating piece of light have a vacation?

The figure merely laughed again. "Oh, don't worry. This is for the good of your well being too. Think of this as a payment. We trade with each other for a while and in the end I am refreshed and happy and you get to fix your life problems or whatever. See ya dude!"

Before he could answer to that, the figure started to fade away and it made him more anxious to know what it meant by that.

"What? Payment?! What do you mean by that? Tell me dammit!" He screamed and started to get anxious as he saw the figure start to fade away.

"Wait! You have to tell me! What am I doing here!? What trade is going to happen? Hey! Don't go!"

And just like that the figure vanished.

The alarm clock went off playing a loud obnoxious rock song that sent him flying off his bed with a shout. He groaned as he lay there on the floor in pain and what made it even worse was that the sun was shining on his face causing him to wince.

"Will you shut that fucking machine up? It's too early for this shit." An annoyed voice from the bed called out as he sighed and reached for the alarm and shut it off.

He got up from the floor and lazily plopped himself onto the bed and stared at the ceiling above him. He sighed hating the fact that this was just another day full of work and problems ahead of him.

There was a shift in the bed as the person next to him got up and put on his shirt that was lying on the floor.

"Get up and get ready for work."

He sighed and rolled his eyes. "Yes sir."

He rolled off the bed and rubbed at his eyes. Then he reached for his glasses on the side table and placed them on easily making his vision clear once again. He then scanned the room for his pants and found them lying by the door.

He wondered why they were all the way over there. Then he suddenly realized that he was tired as hell last night after work, and also from the argument, that he just stripped off his clothes and passed the fuck out.

But regardless of his moment of blissful sleep, he had to go make a living. He was the main provider of the house. It was just the two of them and he swore to take care of them both for as long as he should live.

That was his vow after all. Until that one beautiful perfect day came that they would wed, he swore to love him no matter what.

Yes, he still did love Lovino Vargas. No matter how hot tempered and agonizing he may be he still loved the man.

But now the question was, did he still love him back?

They had been through a lot. The first two years of their engagement had been wonderful. When they first met, he fell madly in love and the Italian practically worshipped his existence. Now two years later, they started to argue a lot more and the Italian really started acting like a needy house wife.

Everything had to be perfect. It wasn't like that before. It drove him mad, and no matter how great his morals and values were when it came to love and marriage, he snapped.

Yep. After four fucking years of being together he snapped.

It was a mistake...so he said, and all was to be forgotten right? No, it was harder than it seemed. He really tried to keep his cool and not kill the damn bastard for touching his fiancé. Even so, he was caught and it practically ruined everything.

He was even surprised in himself that he wanted to put it all behind them and fix things. He was a fool to believe that things would work out in the end. If anything he should be upset and devastated about the whole affair. But in the end, Lovino ended up taking it out on him instead and left him as the "whipped boyfriend".

Even if he knew the right thing to do was to call off the marriage, he had stopped himself and said that everything was going to be okay.

Because it was actually his fault anyways. He led this to turn out this way. His own actions and neglect drove the Italian away from him and found another for a quick moment of love that he had been missing.

It was all his fault and he knew it. Yes, it was no excuse for his infidelity and he had every right to leave him.

But no, he was the one who ignored him and it was his fault for the lack of love in their lives.

He made his way into the kitchen and sat down at the table. He could smell the breakfast being made as he sighed and grabbed a cup full of already poured coffee for him and took a sip.

Lovino stood by the stove cooking with his back facing him.

"So, how are you doing on the art project so far?"

Lovino gave a huff of annoyance and spoke. "Yea, like you really care."

"I do." Alfred frowned and went back to sipping his coffee. "I really do. I know you were working hard on it."

"But why do you care now? It's been like..a month since I last told you!"

Alfred felt terrible. Lovino was in his last year of college and was an art major. He created a piece that he had been working on for months now and he knew that he put a lot of effort into it. But he never really paid attention because he had a lot on his mind besides work.

He couldn't think clearly and pay attention especially after what he had done...

"Yea..I know. Sorry. When is the show again?"

Lovino was quiet for a moment and then he spoke. "It's tomorrow night. At seven..." He whisked the eggs around in the bowl quickly clearly showing that he was annoyed.

Alfred tried to ignore his anger. Okay tomorrow night. That doesn't sound too bad. Maybe he could take off early from work if he's wasn't too busy?

"Okay, I'll be there. At the Roman building room 202 right?"

"Hah! Like you'll come. You're always busy with your work." Lovino scoffed.

Alfred took a deep breath to calm himself from arguing with him. The last thing he wanted to do was start his day off negatively.

"I know I have work...but I can leave early and come and see you."

"Psh, yea sure. Keep lying to me since you're so good at it." Lovino was now whisking the eggs faster gritting his teeth trying not to scream and throw the bowl at him.

Alfred let out a huff in fury. "Yea, I know I may not have been the best fiancé, but I promised to make things better between you and me. The least you can do is believe me and hope for the best."

"Hope for the best? Hah! Don't make me laugh!" He stopped whisking the eggs and quickly poured them into the frying pan ignoring how they violently sizzled from the heat. "Tell me Alfred Jones, when was the last time you made love with me?"

Alfred was confused and taken aback from the question. "What are you getting at?"

"It's a simple question. We've been together for four fucking years and the only time you have time for me is when you're fucking drunk on the weekends!"

Now this started to piss him off. How dare he get upset with him about that when he was the one who cheated on him in the first place?!

Alfred slammed his fist on the table and shouted. "I am trying to fix things with you! Give me a damn break Lovi!"

"Yea, sure. I'll give you a damn break. A long fucking break! I'm leaving soon so you won't have to worry too much about my needs."

Alfred felt a pang of hurt in his chest from his words.

"Trust me, you'll be better off!" Lovino shut off the stove and ripped off his apron while tossing it to the ground. He then stormed out of the kitchen in an angry fury.

He started to watch him run off when suddenly he came to his senses and grit his teeth in anger. "Fine, go on then! Leave! Of course I'll be better off because I'm the ONLY ONE WHO IS FUCKING TAKING CARE OF US IN THE FIRST PLACE!" He screamed and stormed out of the kitchen to the front den. He angrily put on his coat and grabbed his keys. He made his way out to his car, opened the door, got in and slammed it.

How dare he say those things when he was the one who did the wrong in the first place?!

He was fuming. He was furious. He was trying everything to keep their relationship together. He loved him so much so why were they falling apart like this?

No matter how angry he was at the moment, he had to show him that he could change his ways. If more love is what he wanted, then he was going to give it.

Tomorrow night would be his chance to redeem himself. He would surprise him and everything would turn out the way it used to be. There will be no more fights and they could go back to the way they used to be. He was sure of it.


Alfred drove to work and arrived early for once. A whole half hour early. It was mostly because he didn't want to be around Lovino after the fight they just had and to be honest it was for the better. He would let the Italian calm down for a while so when he got home later he would make it up to him and take him out to dinner or something.

The day was beautiful with the sun shining bright and it was starting to get warmer out. He always loved warm weather and summer was his favorite season.

He stepped out of his car and closed the door. He then leaned on his car and closed his eyes taking a deep breath of the fresh air to calm his nerves before he entered the office.

He had a lot of paper work to do and he was honestly not in the mood today.

He was a paralegal and worked as a certified assistant for a lawyer. After graduating from college with a political science bachelor's degree, he took a certification program that allowed him to work at a law firm.

He got his own desk and lawyer to work with which was awesome at first, but then he soon found it tiring. He would work long hours and sometimes over time just to finish up researching things and writing information for the lawyer to present in court.

He wasn't allowed to give legal advice which sucked, but overall the job paid well.

He started to head into the building and said hello to the usual people he passed every day. He waved at them and walked through the lobby before entering the elevator to go to the fourth floor.

Today really sucked for him and he just wanted to go home…well, somewhere other than work. He just wasn't feeling right today and he really needed to eat something.

The elevator bell dinged and opened the doors so it could let him through. The office was always quiet and clean which got boring at times. Sometimes he wanted to listen to music or something when he did paperwork, but he had to be alert at all times which sucked even more.

He made his way over to his desk and placed down his work bag to his side. He sat down and stretched once before turning on his computer and pulling out some papers.

Once he got settled, he began typing on his companies lap top and started on the report of the day. Apparently, the case he was working on was an interesting one about how a teenage girl is suing her parents for half a million dollars for not helping out with her tuition for college.

Yea, like the judge will allow that. He chuckled to himself.

"What's so funny?"

He jumped a little and cleared his throat as he turned around hoping it wasn't his boss.

And it wasn't. It was just Arthur.

"Oh hey man, I was just laughing at one of these ridiculous cases." He smiled.

Arthur smiled back. "Oh really? Care to share?" He leaned his body forward so that his chest barely touched his shoulder.

His breath was so close to his face as he tried to see what the case was about. But this caused Alfred to tremble a little and blush as he tried to gather the papers to show him.

"U-Um, yea let me show you." He stuttered a little feeling strange and uncomfortable with the closeness of their bodies.

Arthur Kirkland has been working with him for the past two years now. He was just a little shorter than him with messy blonde hair and the greenest eyes he has ever seen. When they first met he completely hated him for some reason and he guessed that maybe he was new to everything and he had to train him in office.

He never had anything against Arthur so he had no idea why he was so mad all the time. But that all changed once he was doing well and bought him a box of earl grey tea for Christmas. That seemed to lighten his mood with him. Then ever since then, Arthur slowly started to talk to him and then they became good friends.

But sometimes it was weird because they acted a little more than friends. For instance, Arthur would clearly flirt with him and he would flirt back. But it was innocent because Arthur knew he was engaged and that they would never go farther than that. But Alfred couldn't help but feel that if under certain circumstances, he would date him in a heartbeat.

He was a great guy. Smart, collected, and…hot. Yea Arthur was hot. Especially with his English accent which sometimes in all honesty turned him on. But he always shook that feeling away because he was already taken.

But then he guessed that it couldn't hurt to just flirt around with his friend. No harm done there.

Arthur grabbed the papers from his hand and started to read the case.

"Hm, interesting. I'm guessing that she isn't going to get too far with this."

"Haha, no. You probably are guessing right. I wonder what Francis will say when he sees this case." He smirked in a devious way up at Arthur.

Arthur smirked back. "Well, I guess you better go tell him then. I want to see the look on his face when he is presented with yet another pointless case." He laughed.

Alfred felt a shiver of excitement. He really wanted to bother Francis. He was sort of his boss. Well actually, he was the lawyer he was assigned to. He was a good guy, but it was fun to watch him get upset because he would sigh and complain in French which was hilarious to watch.

"Okay, watch this." Alfred got up from his seat and Arthur moved out of his way to let him walk by. All the while he watched Alfred and couldn't help but stare at his ass as he strutted through the office.

'Oh I'm watching alright.' Arthur thought to himself as he secretly watched Alfred as he walked to Francis's office.

Arthur always enjoyed looking at Alfred. He knew he was taken, but it didn't stop him from flirting with the git. He was gorgeous and young. How could he not stare and flirt when he had this fine man alone most of the time in the office with him.

Today was different though. Today he wanted to try something and see if it worked. Lately for the past couple of months, he noticed that Alfred's been down and having trouble in his relationship. It wasn't like him to be a home wrecker or anything, but he finally felt as if their relationship was in a downfall and that maybe he had a chance at dating him.

He was going to ask him out to dinner tomorrow night and hopefully he didn't have plans. Of course he'll ask as a friend and get a couple of drinks after, but nothing more. He didn't want to get in the middle of his relationship, but he felt that maybe he could give enough signs to show Alfred that he was available and interested if at any point they broke up.

But that was just wishful thinking. Actually, he hoped that things would just go naturally and if fate leads them together, then he would accept it with open arms.

Arthur had to snap out of his stare though before Alfred came back and noticed. He saw Alfred leave his office after a couple of minutes and then started to run towards him laughing.

"Hahaha you should have seen his face! It was so priceless dude!" Alfred cracked up and made his way to his seat again.

"Hah, what did the frog say this time?" Arthur laughed with him.

"Pssh he was all like 'Oh mon deu, why me?!' Hahaha!" Alfred slammed his fist on the table in a fit of laughs.

Arthur chuckled back and then smiled at the younger. "Yea that seems like the usual of what he would say. Hey, um, Alfred?"

It was now or never.

"Yea what's up?" Alfred answered while typing away at his computer.

"Ah..well I was wondering, what, um." He had to clear his throat to hide his nervousness. "What are you doing this Saturday night?"

"Nothing why?" He kept typing.

Arthur suddenly felt butterflies in his stomach. He was free then, that was a good thing.

"Oh well, you know, I was wondering if you and I would go out to dinner?" Arthur asked and mentally crossed his fingers if he'll say yes.

"Yea sure Artie. It also depends what time I get out of work."

"Oh don't worry, I'll wait for you."

Alfred stopped typing now and turned around with a worried look on his face. "Man that could be like, hours. Are you sure?"

Arthur smiled and patted his shoulder with his hand. "Yes, it's fine."

Alfred's expression eased into a friendly smile as he moved his hand to pat his on his shoulder. "Sure, okay then. Saturday night it is."

Arthur tried to hide his excitement as he started to walk away to get his own work done when suddenly Alfred shouted.

"Oh fuck!"

Arthur stopped in his tracks and turned around. "What's wrong?"

"Ahh shit." Alfred sighed and rubbed at his temples. "Arthur man, I can't go out with you tomorrow."

Arthur couldn't help but frown as his heart dropped a little in his response. "Why not?"

"I totally forgot that I have to go to Lovino's art event tomorrow night. I know I said I would go out with you, but damn man can you forgive me?"

Arthur was upset, yes, but he knew his fiancé came first so he understood.

At least he tried.

Arthur forced a smile and nodded. "It's no problem. I wouldn't want to get in the way of your future husband."

Alfred smirked and turned away. Then he frowned.

'Man he looks hurt. I shouldn't have got his hopes up like that. But it's not like he likes me or anything. He's my friend.' He thought.

"Thanks Art." He began typing again and all Arthur could do was smile sadly and walk away.

All the while that he was typing; he couldn't help but feel wrong about all of this. For some reason, deep inside he felt a lot more excited to hang out with Arthur than to go to Lovino's event.


Saturday night came as he finished the last of his work and shut down his computer.

As he was packing up his things, a couple of people said goodbye as they left the office. All Saturday afternoon, he hasn't seen his friend around and wondered if he was really bothered when he turned him down.

He would glance over at his desk from afar every once in a while and smile at him only receiving a slight smile back.

It bothered him somewhat but then he realized that he shouldn't feel this way. Arthur was just a friend, nothing more. He was with Lovino and he shouldn't be this upset and understand that he came first before others.

Alfred put away the last of his papers and zipped up his bag. Just as he was walking out someone bumped into him.

"Oh sorry. I didn't see where I was- oh hey." Alfred looked down to the floor in embarrassment.

It was Arthur, and he looked embarrassed too.

"It's okay. I was just, um, leaving now."

"Yea me too."

"Oh…well okay, see you Monday then."

Arthur started to walk past him but then Alfred grabbed his wrist to stop him.

"Hey wait."

Arthur turned around and hesitantly met his eyes.

Alfred had to look away because at that moment his eyes shined such a beautiful green that he had almost gasped.

Man could he stare at those eyes all day.

"yes?"

"Are you…like mad at me?"

"No why?" He frowned.

"Oh nothing. I just ah, never mind. Bye Arthur." Alfred started walking off but then stopped again. There was something he needed to get off his chest that's been bothering him.

"Arthur."

"Hm?"

"You know, if anything comes up and I'm free, I'll let you know."

Arthur blushed at his words and nodded. "Okay Alfred."

"Okay." He smiled and went into the elevator waving him goodbye before the doors closed in front of him.

Now that he got one thing off his shoulders by making Arthur smile, he now had to deal with more of an important situation.


The weather was perfect out. Not too cold and not windy at all. Tonight would be the night that he would apologize and make things right. Even if he needed an apology for the most part, he would sacrifice anything for his love.

He watched himself in the mirror as he tightened his tie and fixed his hair. He wanted to look his best when he surprised him. He had no idea that he had gone out of his way and left work earlier than usual.

He felt nervous, actually anxious. He practically had butterflies in his stomach. He wanted to see his face so bad when he surprised him. Maybe it would finally make him happy and would show that he loved him.

Over the past couple of years, he never really cared too much of his fiancé's interests. He was so focused on his work at the office and making them money when the one important thing in his life was right in front of him this whole time. And he never knew he was fading away.

So he had to do something fast. A quick fix he thought as he smirked at himself in the mirror and adjusted his glasses.

So, he got on his suit and tie. Check. Combed hair and put on cologne. Check. Roses in hand. Check.

Okay, he was prepared.

Prepared to either be accepted or denied by his lover. Tonight would be the night that he hoped to renew their romance and relationship. He would be the same Alfred that he was four years ago, and he'll prove it.

Alfred made his way out of the house feeling more confident than he ever felt before. Maybe this would be the turn in his life. Maybe this new attitude would change everything and they would fall in love all over again.

He had read many books on love and relationships before. From the information he inquired should be enough to get him through the tough times together.

With the keys in the ignition, he began to drive. He drove down the road and passed a couple of buildings on his way all the while thinking Lovino.

He loved him so much. He would do anything to fix their relationship and he knew that this was it. He would show him who he really was and open his eyes that he loved him all this time.

Eventually he got to the campus and parked outside of the Roman building. The show was to start in the next twenty minutes. But he was more than ready.

He dressed his best. He hasn't looked this good since they first met. He thought that maybe this would kindle some feelings that were once lost.

Slowly he got out of his car and straightened his suit out. He fixed his tie once more and smoothed out his hair.

This was it. He was going to prove to his soul mate that he was the one for him. That he could never find anyone else better.

Because he knew he was more than worth it. He knew what they've been through and it was all worth it to start it all over again.

But the question that remained was would he accept him? Accept his renewal of love and believe that he could be better?

He took a deep breath and started to walk towards the doors. When he got there, he pushed it open and was welcomed by a man who took his coat, then took his ticket and showed him to the main showroom.

The room was large. He couldn't deny that he felt kind of excited to see what his husband had to show. He passed by many artists pieces but they half phased him. He wanted to see what his fiancé had to show because that was the main reason why he was there.

It seemed like forever when he finally got to where a familiar name appeared on the wall.

'Lovino V'. He smirked. It was a painting of a dark sky and what seemed like children figures playing around outside during a storm. It was fascinating and he couldn't take his eyes off of it. He never thought that his own fiancé could paint something so real looking and amazing.

He wondered then what else this talented man had in store for him.

Just as he started to scan for more paintings, he turned to his right and saw him.

Lovino stood there standing by a small crowd of people having a conversation. From the way he looked he seemed to be having a good time. With his champagne in hand taking sips and smiling at the women who adored his work.

There was the true Lovino he knew. Always flirting with the women, but he knew damn well that he was no where interested in them. He just had a flirtatious side to him when he wasn't angry about something and it was rare to see.

The sight brought warmness to his heart. It was so long since the last time he had smiled at him like that...

Flashback

"Come on let me see!"

Alfred squirmed and tried to push Lovino away so that he could see his painting.

"No not yet! I'm not done!" Lovino shouted back as he tried his best to keep him from looking. The piece was far from done and he wanted to surprise him with it. What use of a surprise is it if he sees it?

"Ahh I wanna see it!" Alfred whined and made a pouty face at him.

Lovino just laughed and held him in a tight hug to distract him.

Alfred's face turned red as he stopped his pleading and looked down into Lovino's hazel eyes.

There was a smile on the man's face and it made him blush. That always did it for him. It was a rare thing and when he saw it he couldn't help but react differently.

Lovino is a handsome man and just that one smile that he got every so often reminded him just why he engaged the guy.

Lovino panted obviously tired from struggling with him and laughed. "You'll see it when it's done! Now stop being so stupid and go make dinner!" He smirked.

Alfred was kept in a tight hold and their bodies were still pressed together as he nodded. There was a dumb founded look on his face and he wouldn't let go.

He enjoyed the warmth and closeness of him. It was an intimate moment and Lovino for once didn't attack him and held him like a real lover would.

No, he wouldn't move. Not yet at least. He wanted to enjoy every second of this.

Lovino raised an eyebrow and his smile turned to a confused frown. "What's wrong?"

Alfred breathed out a laugh and smiled as he lifted his hand to run it through the shorter man's chestnut colored hair. It was so soft and he loved how it felt between his fingers. That's another thing he loved about him; he was so well kept with his looks.

"I just...like it when you smile." Alfred wanted to laugh again when he saw that it was his fiancé's turn to blush now.

"O-Oh yea? Well don't get used to it! You just caught me off guard..." Lovino looked away embarrassed, but this made Alfred laugh again.

"Haha..okay I promise I won't get used to it. But..for now I'll just enjoy the moment." He smiled sweetly and turned Lovino's chin so that he could face him once more.

Lovino looked into his eyes and with a blush present on his face that could be seen on his nicely tanned skin. Alfred scanned his handsome features once more before he leaned in and kissed him. Their lips touched and he could feel sparks flying all over again. Just like when they first met and shared their first kiss together.

This felt like the same time, and he would never forget these amazing moments with Lovino.

A waitress with a short black skirt and white button up top interrupted him presenting a drink to his face. He startled out of his reminiscence and stared at her surprised.

"Drink sir?" She smiled and he smiled back feeling somewhat dumb just standing there staring into space.

"Yea, sure. Sorry I was spacing out." He laughed nervously and she giggled.

"Haha, you're cute. Do you like Mr. Vargas's work? I've been a fan for a long time." The waitress started up a conversation with him that he didn't mean to get into. He kept trying to look over her shoulder to Lovino without being too impolite about it.

"Oh..yea! It's great. Actually, it's my first time seeing it." He kept glancing over her shoulder at him and noticed that for that one moment he looked away, he was gone.

He started to get anxious now because here he was talking it off with this waitress that he obviously didn't care about and roses hidden behind his back. How the hell was he going to find Lovino and make things right when obstacles like this were in his way?!

"Is that so?" She replied in a saucy way. "Well why don't I show you around then? I get off on break in five minutes." She winked.

Alfred was in trouble now.

He had to think. He was way too much of a gentleman to shove her away and tell her that he was gay right off the bat. But she was such a nice girl and one simple tour wouldn't hurt right?

"Y-Yea. Okay, sure I'll meet you here?"

"Alrighty. Be right back~" She smirked and walked away swaying her hips in a sexual way.

'Oh great.' He thought. 'Now where did Lovi go?'

He looked around in a panic and when he went to the next room he spotted him.

Lovino was standing there looking at another person's painting while sipping his champagne idly. His back was facing him and he was only just a few feet away.

Now was his chance. He would surprise him with the roses and his presence. It would totally catch him off guard because he probably thought he was at work and that he knew for sure he wouldn't show up.

'Wrong. So wrong Lovi because here I am!' He smiled to himself as he now exposed the roses from his back and took a deep breath.

'I can do this.'

He started to advance forward. One step after the other. He was so excited to surprise him. He planned this out all day. All the while he was wondering how he would react.

Almost there. Soon he would be in his arms apologizing and wanting to make things better. He would so do it. He just needed to make the first step.

He was right behind him now. Roses erect in fist, a smile on his face, then when he was about to reach him, suddenly a man about his height with short brown wavy hair walked in front of him and hugged Lovino from behind.

What the-? A rush of rage flowed through him as he froze in his spot.

Lovino yelped and almost spilled his champagne. He turned around fast and when he realized who it was he smiled.

"Antonio what the hell!?" It was more of a joking around annoyance as he hugged the man in front of him.

Alfred's world froze over.

He couldn't believe his eyes as he watched the love of his life share his love with another.

How could he!?

Was this the man he cheated on him with? It had to be otherwise why would he be hugging him like that?

The guy was handsome too. Tan skin, tall and toned, bright green eyes...

He thought Lovino only loved blue eyes...he always told him that.

It wasn't fair. All of this wasn't fair. Why did life have to lead him to this? The only one he loved and cared for gone in a flash right before his eyes. It was too much for him to handle. He couldn't do this...

A tear escaped from his eyes as he watched Lovino laugh and flirt with the man. He had an accent too...great. He guessed that added more points to his attraction for him.

Alfred felt like an idiot. He felt like he was just a pathetic loser watching his own fiancé disappear before his eyes.

He wasn't even angry. He was just depressed and upset to the point that he didn't know what to do but to stare at them in shock and confusion.

His Lovino...Lovi, was seeing someone else. It was all his fault. It had to be.

He shouldn't have ignored him all those nights and focused less on his work and give his all to the one that mattered most.

Lovino slowed down with his laughter and looked away from the man in front of him for a second…

…and caught eyes with Alfred.

Lovino stood there in shock and horror as he stared at him. He looked like he saw a ghost. Alfred was all dressed up, had a bouquet of roses and tears in his eyes.

"A-Alfred?" Lovino called out in confusion. Was this real? Was Alfred really just standing there looking amazing but sad at the same time?

Alfred just stood there and started to tremble and shake. This was too much, he needed to leave. Like, right now.

But no. He had to be an idiot and open his mouth.

"So this is him?" Alfred grit his teeth together while trying to keep his eyes on Lovino's only.

Lovino swallowed hard and hesitantly nodded. He looked to the ground feeling guilty and embarrassed. He really ruined things now with the two of them. There was no going back now, so why lie to him?

"...yes."

"How long?"

Alfred tried his best not to cry. He was a man dammit and he wasn't about to lose himself in front of these two grown men.

"Five...months."

Alfred gasped in a breath with the pain it struck through him. Five months? All that time and he had no idea?

"A-Al..listen please. I-"

"I don't want to hear it!"

Alfred shouted and Lovino flinched back. His shout caught the attention of others but he didn't care right now. His eyes started to tear up as he stared at his guilty fiancé.

"Just...don't say anymore. I need to go.." Alfred dropped the roses to the floor and turned to leave.

"Wait Al!" Lovino called out but he was already gone.

Lovino was in tears now as he stared after the only man he loved walking away. His eyes lowered to the roses on the floor as he walked up to them and picked them up.

He examined their beauty and realized what a big mistake he had just made. Alfred didn't deserve this. He deserved someone better. Someone to love and treat him right. Not him. He was a ruthless idiot who just destroyed their relationship.

He let out a sob and held the roses close to his chest. "I'm so sorry Alfred..."


Alfred got home and slammed the door behind him. He wiped his face with his hand of his tears and took in a deep breath to calm himself down. When he was driving home he had been sobbing like an idiot and wanted nothing more than to have a car to ram into him ending his life quickly.

But the suicidal feeling quickly passed and he now wanted nothing more than to start over so bad. He wanted to make this all better and pretend it never happened.

But it did. As fucked up as reality is, it did. But, he still wasn't going to give up. He loved Lovino too much to just give up now. He wasn't going down without a fight and that's what he was going to do.

But for now...he was exhausted. All of that pent up emotion of happiness, hope, and despair had stressed him out to the limit. He needed sleep and he was sure that he would wake up tomorrow as a new man. A man who would prove his love to his fiance and show that he was the only one who would ever love him the best and treat him right.

He headed upstairs to their room and started to remove his clothes. He undid his tie, then took off his shoes and then peeled off his pants. When he was left in just his boxers, he walked towards the bed and crawled in under the covers.

The bed was cold...just like how he felt. Cold and lonely. Without the warmth next to him like it was supposed to be...made him feel worse than he did.

He wondered what Lovino was doing at this moment. How he was feeling after that whole act. Did he even feel bad? Did he feel any remorse at all for what he did to him?

Well it didn't matter now...

Because...he would forgive him in a second. If he just came through that bedroom door and lay beside him, he would just forgive him. Tell him that everything is okay and that he's sorry too. He wanted so bad to feel Lovino hold him. His warmth, his breath against his skin.

He missed it way too much.

He grabbed one of the pillows and held it close to his body as he let out a pathetic sob.

That's what he was. Pathetic. A fool that was played and had another man take away all the happiness he had.

He could have punched his lights out. He could have done that and then took Lovino into his arms and promised him the world.

But no, he was a coward. He just left just like that.

And now he wanted him right next to him so badly. Why did he go off and find someone new when they've been together for so long? It hurt, it really hurt and he wanted nothing more than to just die at this moment. He didn't want to live on.

Just as he thought he couldn't sleep and go through with this night alone, he heard the front door to the house close.

A jolt of surprise struck through him and his eyes widened. He sniffed and held the pillow closer to his body.

'I'm just dreaming now. Yea...I'm sleeping and I'm just hearing things that's it.' Alfred thought to himself as he closed his eyes once more and tried to believe it.

Then suddenly a set of footsteps came up the stairs slowly. His heart started to beat fast and he started to feel anxious. He was sleeping right? Why would Lovino come back home after what happened? Wouldn't he just want to be with that man and have nothing to do with him?

Well he was wrong because the next thing he heard was the bedroom door opening slowly. The creaking sound sent chills through his body as he waited to see if he was just hearing things or not. That maybe this was a dream of his and he would only wake up the next morning alone.

He heard some shuffling and what sounded like clothes hitting the floor and then started walking to the bed.

He had to admit that he was nervous now as he approached the bed and started to get in.

His heart was beating full force as he squinted his eyes shut feeling like this wasn't a dream after all.

Then he lost all thought of everything as an arm came around his waist and pulled him in close.

His heart fluttered as he felt his arm tighten around his torso. It was unbelievable. He couldn't believe it was true, but it was. Lovino was in their bed holding him close. He didn't understand why or how, but it was happening at this moment.

He sighed sadly as he closed his eyes once more trying to fight back more tears. His arm reached over Lovino's and held him closer feeling his warm radiate on his back. Lovino breathed against his neck and it caused him to shiver.

He was here. His Lovino. He never wanted to let him go...

"I'm sorry." Lovino breathed out and it caused Alfred to let out a shaky breath. He'd been crying all night and now just this simple apology made everything he did today worth it.

It was just what he wished for. Lovino wanted to make things better between them and like he stated before, he would accept it with no doubts.

"I love you." Alfred breathed out shakily trying his best not to sob out like a fool.

Lovino sniffed and held him closer to his body. "I love you, and only you Alfred...please don't leave me, I'm so sorry." Lovino held back from crying as he nuzzled into Alfred's neck.

Alfred felt a hundred times better at this point. He would accept him and forgive him for any wrong he had done. Because it wasn't just his fault, it was his own as well.

"I love you too Lovino. I promise.." He tightened his grip on his arm. "...I promise I'll make things better." He breathed and he could feel him nod from behind.

They stayed like that for a while before they gradually fell asleep in each other's arms.

Maybe things would get better from now on. Maybe this is what they needed to bring them closer than they were before.

That's what Alfred strongly believed. There was nothing that would go wrong and tear them apart now...

Not nothing, not anything.


So, here is the first chapter out of many to come. Please let me know how I'm doing with this. I have good intentions with this story and I hope it turns out as good as I want it to. So if you enjoyed this so far and want this to continue, then please review. I would really appreciate it, thanks!