Fantasy or Reality

For the first time since I went to forks I never thought that I would or could ever fall in love. Who should have ever thought that Edward Cullen could ever fall for a girl like me?

I use to think that I would end up alone any one will care for me, who would have ever thought that I would end up with the hottest guy on the block. And a VAMPIRE, for a matter of fact. It is so freaky, one minute you are human, normal the next you are married you have a family, a NEW different kind of family and then you have the most beautifully daughter to top it up. Sometimes I can't help but wonder is this Fantasy or Reality? Everything is so surreal. I feel like I'm wake up soon and find my self at home in my room looking out the window, but that is not the case. I am locked up in a world were there is no turning back; I am locked in a body that can't eat or sleep. I am feared by all and I have the power to hurt those who loved me. I have done it before and I can do it again, I did it to Jacob, my parents, Edward and most of all I did it to me. All I had ever wanted was a change to be happy, for a chance to feel like I belonged to a world that is not just me, on my own but with someone, something with me. I never knew what it was until I came to Forks until I found the Cullens until I found Edward. My Edward and no one else mine and mine alone. I realise that maybe my coming to Forks to the Cullens to Edward was fate , I was might to be here with him and them and I was might to be happy, but what about the others. What about my other family and friends, where in my world do they fit in?

Sometime I wonder how they feel not knowing where I am, it's like I have disappeared from the face of the earth, a way I have, haven't I?

If I have a choice to be with all of those I love I would take it, but that is just fantasy, I have to face the reality of what I chose, I don't regret my decisions, it is only the face that I be able to show my face to them but at least I have the Cullen, Charlie, Jacob, Edward and Renesmee.

(This is lame I know, and it a little confusing, even to me.).

If you have a choice which would you chose? Will you chose the fantasy or the reality?

I would chose fantasy, then I wouldn't be so sad.

pls reveiw me.