I just had to write this. Set at the time when Alfie leaves Jerome for Sibuna/Jerome starts helping Rufus.
(Jerome's point of view)
I knew he dump me one day. Just like every other person in my life. Just because I was family to some that didn't stop them leaving me.
I'd seen this coming, but I still hung around him for company maybe, to know that I wasn't alone.
But that's just it I was meant to be alone.
I'm Jerome Clark.
All my life I've had people watch me fall.
They haven't helped me, they've all just stood there and watched me fall.
I have a long enough list. Alfie, Mara, my so called family and so the list goes on.
I've been alone all of his life and yet these few small changes manage to make a difference.
I get in to so much trouble now, because I pull pranks on almost everyone, everyone but those who I thought were my friends and those who I thought cared for me. I ask myself so many times why I do it and so many times I haven't found a conclusion, but after Mara abandoned me I found one.
To make the other people around me feel just as bad as I do every day when I'm alone. Every holiday when they all go home. Every day when they all smile.
Every time I'm alone I can see it all so clearly. A repeat of everyone who ever abandoned me doing so.
I see it in my dreams, I see it whenever I think about something for too long, I'm seeing it now.
Why me?
I hate being alone. I'd never admit it to anyone, but it's true being alone kills me.
I suppose I have this Rufus Zeno person, but he's not really a friend, so I guess that that really does leave me alone.
Alife's left me for his new friends and their little Scooby gang, Mara's left me for that meathead Mick and my parents, well they left me for a new life and successful children, not useless failures like me that you feel the need to abandon at the age of five.
It shouldn't matter this shouldn't upset me. I never let anyone see me breaking like this, so maybe it's good that I'm alone, no being alone is sad, breaking and dangerous?
I've always been alone though I should be use to it, but I'm not.
I Jerome Clark cried today.
All because I was alone.
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