Disclaimer: I do not own any of the charachters you recognize and I don not own the song I only changed a few of the lyrics to suit the story the song belongs to Akon but please Rand R and tell me whether or not you think I should continue it or not.

Buffy stepped up on stage an indifferent expression on her face she was dressed scantily and looked completely at home on stage even when there was a huge crowd in the popular L.A club she was only in town for a few days but she was going to use that time to let loose like she always did when she was there visiting her father and Aunt Carol she started to sing letting go ignoring her senses that she should be patrolling or that this was his town she knew she'd see the green skinned red horned demon watching her listening to her song his name was Lorne and he should've avoided letting him see her but he did let him he didn't like what she was keeping secret from his friend and so he made no move to let her see that Angel was there Angel though stunned that she could sing stuck around and listened ''This is a song I wrote recently while watching over my family'' she said sadly but well hidden a bit of anger and she started to sing

As life goes on I'm starting to learn more and more about responsibility
And I realize that everything I do is affecting the people around me
So I want to take this time out to apologize for things that
I'm doing things that you'll be the one to suffer for
and things that I really don't want to take responsibility for

I'm sorry for the times that I left you alone in L.A
I was on the job and you were alone
I'm sorry for the times that I had to leave
I'm sorry for the fact that I did not know

That you were sitting home just wishing

I would stay this time
I'm sorry for the times I would neglect
I'm sorry for the times I'd disregard you

I'm sorry for the wrong things that I've done
I'm sorry I'm not always there for you my son
I'm sorry for the fact that I'm not aware
That you can't sleep at night when I am not there

Angel was shocked she couldn't possibly be saying she had a son Buffy didn't have a son not that he knew of anyway Lorne gave him a guilty look and suddenly Angel knew that there was no demons at the club Doyle and Lorne just thought Angel should know...

Because I'm in the streets like everyday
I'm sorry for the things that I did not say
Like how you are the best thing in my world
And how I'm so proud to call you my boy

Buffy shed a few stray tears as she thought about how much she hadn't said that she should've and how that her son would grow up and begin to wonder why his aunt would look after him while everyone elses mummy looked after them what would she tell him when he asked her why she was never there with them why she lived in Sunnydale while he lived in L.A it was daunting but pushing away those thoughts she concentrated on her song..

I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you can't show

If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry for the things that I'll put you through
And all the times you won't know what is going on
I'm sorry that you had to live with Auntie
Just trying to stay safe until you heard from mummy again

When you would rather be home with your mummy
As one big family with love and bliss
And even though people treat me like a weapon to use and abuse
I got a destiny even though you don't know

I got up and left you there all alone
I'm sorry that I missed your first steps
I'm sorry that I went and added to your grief
I'm sorry that your learning words on your own

I'm sorry that I grew up way to fast
I wish I would of listened and not be so mad
I'm sorry that your life is turning out this way
I'm sorry that the world takes my first priority it should be you.

I understand that there's some problems
And I'm not too blind to know
All the pain you kept inside you
Even though you can't show

If I can't apologize for being wrong
Then it's just a shame on me
I'll be the reason for your pain
And you can put the blame on me

You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
Said you can put the blame on me
You can put the blame on me

I'm sorry that it took so long to see
But they were dead wrong trying to put it on me
I'm sorry that it took so long to visit
But I was in trouble with the authorities

They all say their sorry for the hand that she was dealt
And for the pain that she felt
She's just a little young girl trying to have fun
But daddy should of never let her out that young

I'm sorry for the deaths I should've prevented

How was I to know they'd be out so late on a darkened streetWhy doesn't anybody want to take blame
they back out blaming me
I'm just a girl trying to live my life normally
Because I love my friends I'll take that blame

Even though the blame's on them
Even though the blame's on them
Even though the blame's on them
I'll take that blame from them

And you can put that blame on me
And you can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me
You can put that blame on me

And you can put that blame on me

A/N: Well I hope you liked it and again if you think I should continue ti please tell me because I'm not too sure whether I should or not or if you just have a few sudjestions than I'd appreciate them too!

And you can put that blame on me

Angel felt shocked there was no way Buffy could've had a kid at her age without him knowing he would've been able to tell even if he could not see the changes he would've heard them or atleast smelt them he was at the bar when she took a break promising to be back to the crowd who were yelling for an encore Buffy still hadn't seen him but she was heading for the bar her expression again indifferent until...

'' I didn't know you could sing'' he drawled to her as she moved into ear shot instantly he saw her stiffen her muscles tensing and er breathe caught in her throat

'' what are you doing here?'' she asked shocked and she looked nervous and he knew why he knew what she was wondering had he heard her song did he guess that it was about her son did he guess that she had a son?

'' I came here because Doyle and the owner of this club Lorne said there was a dangerous big league demon here it appears that was a lie to get me here'' he said off handedly pushing off the bar he was leaning on stalking closer to her and she knew he was angry that he was out to get the truth out of her one way or the other

'' oh I didn't know you knew Lorne'' she said trying to keep the shake out of her voice '' that doesn't matter since when do you have a son?'' he asked he was barely ten centimeters away from her she was backed up against a wall

'' I I umm I have to go Aunt Carol will get worried if I'm not home soon'' she said ducking under Angels arm and pratically running towards the exit

'' good I'll walk you home and we can talk on the way'' he growled, Buffy knew there was no way of getting out of it so with a sigh and a nod she picked up her jacket and lead the way out of the club and into the cool city air...