Raven's voice rang in his ears, she was yelling.

At him. Again.

This time he deserved it, he deserved every sharp syllable that left his girlfriend's mouth. He deserved all of the heartache her powers were forcing on him unconsciously. His heart broke as tears began to fall from her face uncontrollably, this was almost too much for him. He was having a hard time keeping calm and his whole body shook from emotions. Beast Boy sat down on the bed and put his head between his legs, the animal senses inside of him were screaming at him to get in a safe position to avoid the threat that was Raven.

"Why did you have to do this to me Garfield! Aren't I enough?"

"Of course you are." he replied through his knees, "It was a mistake, a lapse in judgement. You have to believe me."

He had done the unthinkable. He had kissed another girl. Not just any other girl, he had kissed Terra.

About a month ago she had returned to the Titans claiming that she had regained some of her memory, and that she wanted to know the real her. At first Robin was weary of her, unsure how to process her so called miracle. To prove herself, she had to under go various tests, which included a highly advanced lie detector evaluation that was invented by no other than Cyborg.

Surprisingly she had passed with flying covers, it seemed that all she had said was true. She did just want to learn about herself. Reluctantly the Titans agreed to help Terra work through her rehabilitation at the tower. Although not officially a member, she was allowed to stay in her old room and participate in all of their activities.

Beast Boy jumped at the opportunity to have his old friend back, however his girlfriend disagreed. That was when the arguments started. At first they were simple, they argued about weather or not he still had feelings for Terra, which of course he denied. Then the arguments grew more complex than a yes or no answer. Raven began to question how involved he should be with her therapy, and if he should spend alone time with her when she requests. This enraged the changeling, he didn't understand why it was such a big deal, she was his friend and he would do anything for his friends.

It felt like every night they were yelling at each other. All they did was scream until their voices were horse, and cry until there were no tears left. It soon became too much for the empath and she complained about the headaches he caused her. She was having a hard time controlling her powers because of the emotional turmoil the situation was causing her. As a result she decided to go away to calm herself down.

Not for long, mind you, only a week trip with Robin to Gotham. At first Beast Boy didn't want her to go. He literally clung to her leg while she tried to leave and had to be forcibly removed by Cyborg. However once she was gone a new emotion took over him, in a way he was relieved. Relieved that there would be no more fights, relieved that what ever problems he was having had left with her. He was ashamed of this feeling, he didn't want to be relieved that she was gone, he wanted to be sad, depressed even. But he wasn't. That is what made it all worse.

He spent all of his free time with Terra. Even against Raven's wishes he found himself somewhat drawn to the blonde girl without even knowing it. He enjoyed her company at first, she was like a breath of fresh air, someone completely opposite of Raven. He liked having someone who could show emotions without the dishes exploding, he even liked that someone took the time to laugh at his jokes. All the while, deep down he felt ashamed.

Five days in is when it happened. They were in the kitchen after dinner talking about mindless video games when she kissed him. It was a complete surprise, and he was stiff at first, but once the suspense washed away he found himself kissing her back. It was slow at first, but as time passed the kiss grew in intensity and he found her tongue down his throat. Something then felt wrong, like the kiss was off and he was forced realized what was happening. Finally something in his mind clicked.

He pushed Terra off of him and told her how wrong the kiss was. He told her that he was with Raven not her. Terra attempted to tell him that she knew he wasn't happy with her, that she could see it in his eyes. She told him that she could make him happy if he would only let her, that the past five days had been the best she had had in a long time. She wanted to be with him, and couldn't hold back her feelings any longer.

Lies, she tried to feed him lies. Beast Boy wouldn't listen to her, he told Terra that he was happy with Raven, he was the happiest he had been in forever. That although they may argue and bicker that he loved her more than anything and anyone. That included her. He told her the truth. And the truth shattered all hopes of them ever being together.

So Terra thought it best to transfer, she insisted to leave for Titans East the next morning. Robin had no choice but to allow her requests and gave the a-ok through Skype. Just like that Beast Boy was alone. No one knew what had happened between the two now distant friends, and that was for the best. He needed to be the one to tell Raven what had happened, he needed to explain and bag for her forgiveness. He couldn't loose her. Not like this.

"I don't have to believe anything that you say, you are the cheater not me!" Raven hissed, he filched slightly at her words but kept his head buried in his knees. Every nerve ending in his body was on fire, he felt so guilty for what he did that he just wanted to vanish, he wanted to disappear and come back when this was all over. When Raven was happy, when they were happy.

"It was only a kiss I swear Rae."

There was a crash as the vanity in her room cracked. Beast Boy looked up and watched as her teeth began to grind with frustration. "Don't call me Rae. You don't get to do that anymore!"

He stood up and proceeded to take a few steps towards her, tears were running down her face as she paced the room. "Please Raven. I'm so-"

"Stop saying your sorry! Sorry doesn't fix this Garfield! Sorry doesn't make things go back to what they were!" She had stopped pacing and was pointing her finger at him like it was a dagger.

"I know." he whispered, "I know that it doesn't change anything, but I honestly don't know what else to say."

"Did you like it?"

"What?"

"Did you like the kiss? Did you enjoy the way she felt? The way she tasted." His eyes widened at her questions, his mouth became dry and he was unable to speak. Some time passed as the unthinkable question lingered in the air. "Well?" she hissed as she crossed her arms and tapped her foot impatiently.

"No." He lied. He did like it, only because it was different. It wasn't the person it was the act itself that he liked, in some sick way he knew that he had enjoyed it. That only caused him to hate himself even more.

"Liar." she hissed, there was a crash as a vase shattered behind him.

He shook his head, "That doesn't matter, none of that does. What matters is that I want to be with you, that I love you Raven. Just tell me what I need to do, tell me what I need to say to make this better. I don't want to loose you." His heart was racing uncontrollably, his hands shook as he made an attempt to grab her arm.

She pulled away instantly, "Don't touch me." she hissed. The act made his heart drop to his knees. This can't be happening, he can't loose her. She was the best thing that had ever happened to him, the past year had been the happiest time of his life.

Raven walked to the closet and began rummage through the contents, he threw his hands in the air and asked, "What are you doing now?"

As to answer his questions she pulled out a large suitcase and brought it to the bed. She opened it and went back to her closet and began to pull clothes from it forcefully. "No. No no no no no. You aren't leaving Rae." he tried to stand in front of her in order to block her way from the closet.

Raven scoffed as she moved around him and pulled out shoes to add to her pile. "Yes I am." she muttered as she continued to pack.

"You can't just leave, please. Come one we can work this out." He started to unpack her suitcase in attempted to slow down her process. She stopped mid stride and stared at him, her eyes piercing in to the back of his head and he felt the sudden need to stop and face her. He needed to face his girlfriend.

He turned and noticed that she had stopped, tears were still falling from her eyes as she spoke just above a whisper, "You need to get out Garfield."

"No I'm not just going to stand by and let you leave Raven. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me, I-I can't loose you! Not like this! Please I love you." He dropped to his knees and began to beg. He knew that this was disgraceful, but it didn't matter. He would do anything just to keep her from leaving, he would do anything to keep her in his life.

"It doesn't work like that Garfield." she said in a hushed voice, "You can't do what you did and expect to call the shots. I need time to think things through, to clear my head."

"Then do it here, I will leave you alone and-"

"No." his ears dropped "I need time away from you. You can't influence my decision in any way, and I know you would do just that if I stayed."

"What decision?" He simple quesiton lingered in the room like venom. His heat raced at her silence as more tears fell from his loved ones eyes.

She took in a large breath before saying "The decision of weather or not to stay with you."

It was at that moment that be broke down, tears began to fall from his face and stain her floor. "No. Please" he whispered. His while body shook from his sobs and he couldn't help but whine like the pathetic man he was.

She shook her head and went to her suitcase, after shoving what he had tossed out back in she zipped it and let out a large sigh. Beast Boy hadn't moved form his position, he was still not able to control the tears that were falling from his face. "I'll come back when I can." she muttered as she made he way to the door with he luggage.

He reacted instantly and jumped up to pull her into a hug. She fought it at first, but allowed his arms to embrace her in full. His body trembled uncontrollably ans he cried into her shoulder, he felt so weak, like his world was crashing around him.

She pulled away from him and looked into his eyes, for a moment it felt like all was well, like everything was going to be alright. For a moment all sense of self returned to him and he allowed himself to feel actual hope.

But and then she whispered, "Don't follow me."

And just like that she was gone. Just like that she left him to sulk in his self inflicted pain and suffering.

He could only wish she would come back to him.