Maya POV

I sighed as another morning in the Cullen home began. My name is Maya and I'm forever 19. I was changed by Carlisle when he rescued me from a fire and let me remain alive. He taught me everything I need to know about being a vampire and now I'm watching my eternal life go by. Renesmee is my adoptive niece and I'm always glad to be a part of her life. But I also love when it's just me and my siblings. We goof off and tease each other. But the biggest thing about vampires I've learned, is that they have a sexual desire that can't be sated. Almost every night I have to listen to all the couples do their thing. Minus Carlisle and Esme of course and most nights Bella. It makes me desire my mate so badly.

As the sun rose, I closed my eyes and looked away from the windows and heard the door open. It was Jasper. "Hey Jasper," I greeted and he smiled sadly at me. "What's up?"

"I felt your emotions last night. I managed to not project them but still. Is that how you feel every night? Alone?" I nodded and he smiled before hugging me. "One day you'll get lucky," he sighed and I heard it. A hint of hope.

"You're hopeful," I noted. He nodded and then I saw Alice smile. "Can I have a Maya moment?" He nodded and let me up so I could go speak to Alice. "What's up pixie?"

"Your mate is in there. Jasper and I thought we needed each other but we don't. You remember Alec right?" I nodded and remembered how I wanted to rip Alec apart and burn it all to pieces. Starting with his manhood of course. You can't kill a man without starting with the manhood. "Well he's my mate. We learned this a few weeks ago," she began before hugging me. "We're always nearby. Don't forget that," she whispered.

I walked into my room again and hugged Jasper knowing why he seemed hopeful now. He was alone. His girlfriend left him. "It'll get better," I promised him. It has to. For the both of us. He nodded though and hugged me tightly.

"You've always had that positive feeling," he mused before kissing my cheek. I nodded at that and he looked down at me confused. "How do you do it?"

"Do what?"

"Stay positive. How do you manage to always say your mate is there and you can't be sure about it," he answered. I smiled at him and shrugged. "You have to have a way that you manage to stay positive."

"Carlisle, when he turned me. He told me something I never let go of. He told me this life is a battle. You never win the one part, the monstrosity. You can weaken how much of a monster you are, but it's true. Any supernatural is a monster. So I think about that too in the sense of love. I mean everyone is bound to fall in love. It's how positive you are that determines how soon it will be," I sighed.

"That it does," he sighed. I then realized it. Alice told me the truth. My mate was right there in front of me. Jasper Whitlock Hale was my mate. I felt better around him and I felt complete. As much as we vampires have a sexual drive, we also have the intense need to feel loved and securely snuggled sometimes. That's what it means to me and Jasper's giving it to me.