Ok, so I took a nap today and this is what I dreamt of.

"Samantha, wake up! You're gonna be late for school" I hear my mom scream from downstairs, but I just roll in the bed and try to resume my sleeping, I can't though.

"Sam! Didn't you hear me before? It's late kid! Come on, I'll give you a ride" my mom is now in my room, but I think I can still manage to ignore her…

"Don't even think of trying to ignore me kid! Ha ha come on sleepyhead! What? Do I have to call the tickle monster just like I did when you were five? Cause you know I will" Yeah I do know she will, so I guess my only option here is to get up. Man, and just when I was having such a great dream! No, it wasn't about ribs, it was about something I love even more and I don't mean ham.

I had been dreaming of Freddie, and not just that but of being with him again. It has been almost eight months since our 'mutual' breakup thing, and I miss him like hell…

"Sammy is there something wrong?" just then I realize a tear is rolling down my cheek and I quickly wipe it away. Great! Now my mom saw me cry and I bet ten fat-cakes she's not gonna pretend she didn't, no no, she's gonna do the exact opposite and 'worry', that's what she'll do.

"Oh Gosh! Honey, does it hurt somewhere? You need to go to the hospital?" Told you "See, this is why you shouldn't eat all that ham and beacon, it's bad for you!"

"Hey! Ham and beacon got nothing to do with this, they're innocent!" got to let that clear.

"Oh, so I guess it's about Mr. Fried Chicken then. It's been eight months Sammy, don't you think-"

"Oh, look it's so late! Mom, go get your stuff and wait in the car, I'll be ready in a minute" can't risk and go 'there' right now, the woman already saw me cry once this morning and, unless she's deaf (which wouldn't surprise me that much really) I'm pretty sure she's heard me cry myself to sleep for the past almost-eight months so, no. I won't go there right now.

"Hey Carls, Frednerd" I didn't arrive to school so late thanks to my mom's great habit of driving fast, and I mean fast. I go get my stuff outta my locker.

"Hi"

"Nice to see you too, Sam. Isn't it a wonderful day?" sarcastic Freddie, I think I like it.

"It was 'til I walked in and saw your huge nerd head" I can't help but smile at him while I say this, but what did you expect? I love the guy!

"Haha" he smiles too, and I would've drowned on my own drool if it weren't for the bell that chose just the best moment to ring. Saved by the bell, haha.

"Don't start fighting so early in the morning! Come on Sam, we gotta go to class and you can't be late again"

"Ok. Later dork"

"Later… you"

"Why don't you let mama the nicknames and you go take care of your nerdy stuff? That way you'll lose in a less embarrassing way" I pat his cheek and quickly turn around and follow Carly to the classroom. My finger tingle from touching his skin, it has been so long since I touched him for the last time, and still my whole body remembers how it felt to both, touch him and be touched by him. But I can't risk and think about it, not now nor ever. It was a one time thing, I'd known that from the beginning. Because the beginning was the end, and our first time was also our last time.

~Flashback~

"So did we just break up?"

"Feels like it" it sure feels like it; like been punched in the gut and stabbed in the heart at exactly the same time.

"But… it was…mutual, right?" yes, it was 'mutual' because we are both really stupid.

"Yeah! But I'm still gonna tell people I dumped your butt and broke your nerd little heart" just so they don't realize that my 'tough' little heart broke too.

"Fair enough" Fair? In which way is this 'fair'? it hurts, so much that it can't possibly be fair.

"Oh well" life is that way, never fair. First it gives you something good, something you love, then takes it away leaving you feeling worse than you did in the start, when you didn't even know the thing you love existed.

I start walking and I just can think of running, getting away from this boy, this elevator, this lobby, this building, this pain…

"I love you" three words, eight letters, and a whole lot bunch of feelings. That's when I realize that's what I feel for him. I hadn't been able to put a name to the mixed mass of feeling that flowed through me with just looking at him, but now he provided one; love.

"I love you too" realization makes the words come a little choked, cause I feel like singing right now, and talking seems a bit unnatural in the moment. So I go and kiss him, but when our lips met I remember the situation we're at. We just broke up, and I just now found out I love him. There's gotta be a way to show him how much I mean the words I said.

"It's only 10:30" and again he gives me the answer.

"Wanna break up at midnight?" just like that Cinderella story dad used to read to Melanie and me. Magic's gone at midnight, but it still has concequences; the missing shoe is found, love is born and there's a happily ever after. Ok so, maybe happily ever afters don't exist in real life, maybe they do, but I'm still willing to try.

"That works" seems like he's too.

"Ok" as the door of the elevator closes again, I can only think of how much I love him and how little time we got left. So I deepen our kiss and everything goes up from there…

I left the shoe, now's up to him to find it.

~End flashback~

So good for 'not gonna think about it'! now I feel the need to cry, because after almost-eight months he still hasn't found it; and he most probably won't.

"Sam, is everything ok? You seem a little lost" carly's got her 'concerned friend' face on and I suddenly feel the need to tell her everything that has happened since that night. But we're in school right now, and I can't risk it; mama's got a reputation to care for.

"You joking carls? This is math in here! Of course I'm lost"

"It's history Sam, not math!"

"Oh… well that just proves my point further" she just shakes her head and I promise myself I'll tell her everything as soon as we get to her place.

"You and Freddie what?" Carly's yell is so loud! I bet everyone in this side of Seattle was able to hear her.

"Geez! Carly calm down!"

"CALM DOWN! HOW CAN I 'CALM DOWN'? I MEAN, YOU JUST TOLD ME FREDDIE AND YOU HAD SE-" and I thought she'd been loud before! Note to self: NEVER tell Carly Shay to calm down.

"Yeah but it was almost eight months ago and-"

"And your just telling me NOW? So good for 'telling each other everything'!" chiz, I forgot that. Great, to top my other problems, now Carly's mad at me!

"I didn't tell you cause… well… I'm pretty sure it meant nothing so…" and I start sobbing, cause that is the thing that keeps me up at night. He told me he loved me then, once in the elevator and again in his room, and I believed him. I thought we were making love, but maybe it was just sex for him, just maybe…

And that possibility is what made me cry the most. Even right now, I didn't care one bit if carly saw me cry now. I needed this, needed to let go of all the feelings I had inside, and carly was my best friend and (according to the best friend manual) she had to deal with this things.

"Oh God, Sam. Come here" carly hugs me so tight I can hardly breath, but right now that's what it takes to keep me from falling apart in little pices.

"I'm sure your wrong Sam, I'm sure it meant something, no, I'm sure it meant everything to him, just because it was with you and he loves you-"

"But he doesn't! He said he did, but now I'm sure he doesn't…"

"He does." She looks so serious and confident with what she's saying. I want so much to believe her, but I gotta be sure first.

"How can you be so sure?"

"He told me himself. You remember when… when.. well"

"When what?"

"When that smart guy found out about me not being intelligent. Well, in the night after you fell asleep in the couch, Freddie and I went up to the studio and I started crying and… well, I asked him why any guy loved me. And you know what he said?" carly looks at me and I shake my head "He said, 'you'll find someone who loves you for who you are, just like I love Sam for who she is.' He said you didn't have to pretend to be someone else because he's 'crazy for the crazy you'. Sam, he really loves you, and I'm pretty sure that the only reason he's not beging you to go back to him is because he's as scared as you are. And we both know Freddie tends to overthink things a little, so if you want him back YOU are the one who's gotta make the first move. That or you can wait for another year 'til he mans up and decides to ask you himself" carly smiles and I have to smile back at her cause everything she said makes sense, and that can totally be the truth.

"So now quit crying and go get yourself your boyfriend! I'll be here waiting for the deets"

"K, you're the best carly, you knew that?"

"I'd heard it before" she smiles and motions for me to get to busyness, and that's exactly what I do.

"Hey carly, guess who got her boyfriend back!"

"Oh my God, Sam! That's so good news! But wait, why did you take so much?"

"Oh well… we had some 'things' to catch up with" I tell her with a smirk.

"Things to- OH GOSH! DON'T TELL ME YOU… did you do it again?"

"Again and again, and again and again…"

"I GET IT!"

"Hahaha, Carly I'm so happy now!"

"Who wouldn't after all that 'love'?" I look at carly and she's got this little smile in her face that tells me she knows what she's talking about. Guess I wasn't the only one keeping secrets.

"Wakey wakey kiddos!" Spencer is jumping up and down on the bed right between carly's and my feet. What a way to wake us up! At least is not my mom's tickle monster; I can't hit my mom to make her stop, spencer is other matter though.

"OUCH!" he yells as he falls of the bed after having me quick his ankle.

"See Spence, that's why you shouldn't jump on the bed" I tell him while carly glares at me for kicking her little (28 year old) baby brother.

"That's mean Sam! He just wanted to wake us up in a funny way"

"Yeah well, he could've made some bacon I wouldn't hit him for that"

"I did make bacon! I was just gonna tell you that" oops

"Oh well, you should've started with that part! Anyway, sorry Spence. Now let's go get bacon!" I get up from the bed just to fall on it again when I feel a sharp pain cross my lower belly, but it goes so quickly that I wonder I imagined it.

"Sam, you ok?" Carly's 'concerned friend' mode is on, but I'm ok so I just shake my hand and rush downstairs to meet with my bacon.

"Hey baby" I hear Freddie call from the door. It had been so long since I heard that! It's been two weeks since I walked into his room and kiss him; and so it's been two weeks since we got back together, but this is the first time he calls me that again! I'm not gonna lie, just hearing that word come out of his lips makes me happier than all the world's bacon.

"Hey" I get up from the couch (where I had been eating my bacon) and walk to him, standing in my toes to kiss him as soon as I reach him.

"Ow!" I pull out of the kiss when another sharp pain hits me, this time it feels stronger, but it's gone as suddenly as it comes.

"Sam? What is it?" I look up at his worried face and stretch to kiss him again.

"Nothing, it's gone now"

"You sure, it looked like you were in pain"

"I was, maybe it's just cramps or something" Hahaha, his face is priceless when he registers my words. Men!

We are currently in Spencer's car on our way to school, but I could as well be riding a unicorn on my way to wonderland and I wouldn't even notice as I am currently kissing Freddie, and I tend to not pay attention (to say the least) to the world when I'm kissing him. Nothing can take me outta the bliss his lips produce; nothing but the sharp pain that makes a reappearance.

"OW!" this time it's so strong it makes yell and, of course, I scare the life out off all my friends.

"Sam? Sam? You ok? What's wrong? Sam?" again, the pain is gone really quick but I'm starting to get a little worried and it's obvious that carly, spencer and Freddie are too. It takes a lot of convincing to get them to let me go to school (never thought I'd say that sentence) but finally I do and so now, that brings me to the current situation.

We're in English class and it's almost time to go home. That's all I think as another pain makes me break my pencil as I grab it too strong in an attempt to keep from screaming. First I thought the pain will start to go away, but it hasn't. It has gotten worse, much much worse.

Another one hits me and this time I can't stop the little whimper that escapes my lips. Thank god, though, no one heard; but if this keeps going on I don't think I'll be able to restrain myself.

The bell rings just as another pain comes, this time it lasts a little longer but it's still no more than a few seconds. Still it hurts so much it draws tears to my eyes, they stay there though.

"Hey carls" I say as I open my locker and quickly shove my stuff inside.

"Hey Sam. Hey did you hear profeso- Oh my god!" she turns to look at me just when another pain hits me and this one is so strong I have to grab my locker for support.

"Ooow! ow,ow…" All I can do is gasp in pain for the few seconds it lasts, then I raise my head again and see a very concerned looking Carly watching me.

"Sam? What-"

"I'm having horrible cramps carly. I really just wanna go home, your home I mean, and lie in the couch with a warm blanket and some chocolate chip cookies, then I'll be better" Carly's face immediately relaxes and she smiles and calls spencer so we won't have to walk the whole way.

Just minutes after I fell asleep in carly's couch, I'm awoken by a particularly intense pain. It makes me scream, and this time it lasts a whole lot longer.

"Sam? Sam!" Freddie comes in and rushes to my side. "I was in my room and I heard you scream, Sam what wrong?"

"I don't know. It hurts and Carly and Spencer went to the drugstore to get some painkillers but - OOWWW!" the pain makes me bend over my stomach with it's intensity. It's worse than any other and I scream so loud that Mrs. Benson comes rushing to the apartment.

"Samantha? Oh God! Freddie go bring my first aid kit, now!"

"Yeah" Freddie starts to get up, but then other pain even more intense hits me and I scream even more while squeezing his hand.

"No, no, Freddie, don't leave me please. OW ow, ow, ow!"

"I'll be right back I just-"

"No ple- AAAAA!"

"Mom! What do I do?"

"Hold her hand, I'll go get my kit and I'll call an ambulance, I think it can be her kidneys…" I don't get to hear anything else because another pain arrives even before the other one totally wears off, and then everything goes black.

I'll give a huge clap to the person who guesses what is wrong with sam. Also I'll write a story/oneshot of what they want :) If it's more than one person who guesses right... mmm... guess I'll have a lot to write, right? Yeah I'll take requests on whoever guesses right so, go and review!