Lapis finds herself on a barren planet. A cold isolated terrain with only the barn to keep her company. She couldn't even watch any TV. The whole place was grey and lifeless.
Like an empty dark moon. Lapis sat, knees in her chest starring silently into space. Her blue hair ruffled and wavy. No wind to help it Dance gracefully, just tilted in front of her face.
Even the ocean of the planet was still and lifeless. Nothing inside except empty space.
With her eyes squeezed tight feeling watery at the back of her eyelids.
She sighed deeply. It got too quiet. She missed the occasional grumbling, barking and "nyehe heh heh" laugh from her barnmate. Peridot wasn't happy about going with her.
Lapis was devistated. The last thing she saw was Peridot's face starring at her in disbelief.
She couldn't handle seeing her once Go-lucky roommate so emotional.
Not even Pumpkin wanted to leave. She was so distraught about the diamonds finding her. She didn't want to get trapped again.
She started feeling her eyes well up, remembering Steven's reaction as she was about to leave. Steven was going to put her on the verge of tears.
All the progress and all the joy she felt being in the barn with someone was only a memory. She then realized how broken she really was.
The barn mean't nothing right now.
All the meepmorps and objects scattered around the barn were still and grey. Everything was lifeless.
The blue gem walked into the barn and saw a pile of Peridot's meepmorps scattered around. She saw Peridot's alien plush lying in a pool of water.
She gently picked up the soaking doll and looked at it's large black eyes. She looked down and found the red bow tie Peridot would wear on occasional meet ups with gems. She held the bow tie close to her chest.
Lapis took both the doll and the bow tie to the ground of the terrain and placed them on the surface.
She frowned deeply looking away from the objects before she got emotional.
Lapis inhaled and felt the ground shake. A large pool of water came up from the ground. With her eyes kept closed, she waved the water around gently and made some kind of pattern.
She flew up into the planet's atmosphere and saw what she had generated.
The water was shaped into illustrations of Peridot and Steven smiling at her.
Lapis's lips trembled, she felt her cheeks becoming wet.
Tears rolled down her eyes.
But she couldn't return. She just couldn't.
She held her hands across her mouth in hopeless shock. She was a prisoner again. A prisoner of her own emotions.
She wasn't escaping anything, she was right back to square one. History had indeed repeated itself.
Alone. Afraid. Unable to communicate.
She cupped her water wings around herself cocooning in sorrow inside the barn.
What has she done?...
How could she just betray them like that?!
Jasper was right... she was a monster.
Now she was a monster alone. Left for nothing, no one. No company, no friends, no plants, animals or life anywhere. The planet was but a barren empty cold wasteland, lifeless cold water and no living things.
A perfect mockery of herself. The only difference was there was now evidence displayed everywhere on the planet's surface about how lonely and miserable she really was.
She wasn't healing, she wasn't helping herself or anyone.
She was hiding. Fleeing. Abandoning her life because of her fear.
A few hours of sitting in silence, Lapis began terraforming more of the planet's surface. She molded rocks with her water into giant statues of Steven. She shaped rocks into pumpkins and she created a water Peridot as a substitute. The only kind she could ever get.
She forced a smile and spoke through the water dot.
"Lapis, we must watch some more of Camp Pining hearts: I must know that Percy and Pierre get together even though I have terrible opinions on the characters" Lapis chuckled softly mocking her EX roommate sadly.
Lapis then formed a water version of Pumpkin.
"Peridot, let's try and slow it down" Lapis mumbled.
Lapis attempted making Pumpkin's barking noise as the water pumpkin jumped up joyfully.
"Lapis! Can we go for another flight?" Lapis said through a water Steven.
"Sure thing Steven!" She replied back to the water figure.
"Not before we watch our rerun of Camp Pining hearts season 3!" Water Peridot replied.
Lapis chuckled. "Of course Peridot!"
Lapis sighed becoming strained and tired of pretending to see her friends again. The water melted and formed lifeless puddles.
"There's no need to get so emotional!" Lapis's own words echoed in her mind. She frowned sharply. She was getting emotional. She told Peridot NOT to get emotional... but she was already getting emotional.
"I'm not getting caught in the middle of another war..." Lapis's last words to Peridot echoed through her mind. She held her head pained.
She still can't believe the last thing she said was so... cowardly.
She chuckled angrily at herself. "You said you wouldn't get caught in another war... but look at you now" she said.
"You've been in a war all this time." She said darkly to herself.
"They don't deserve you" Lapis said darkly as she summoned more water around her.
She yelled out and drew the many waves of water out into the air and pounded them into the planet's surface creating a distrucitve quake and spreading water and rock everywhere until everything was in ruin.
She just destroyed her terraforming of her friend's back on earth, but like she destroyed their trust in her before.
All the water on the planet soon flood everywhere from her destructive outburst. Lapis saw the destruction before her and collapsed on her knees into a pool beneath her feet in devistation. Sobbing loudly while constant flooding of tears dripping down to her chin and into the water.
She held her face only tears seeping through.
All the emotional trauma, all the tears and all the sadness that had been bottling up inside her were released with a massive force of earth's ocean flooding the entire moon-like planet instantly.
She couldn't move. She couldn't think. She just lay there. Crying.
