WARNING: This story contains shounen ai. If this doesn't interest you, don't read!
Disclaimer: Don't own :(
Pairing: LightxL
---Worry---
Light often found himself with a strange feeling in the pit of his stomach, as if he was sick. He felt it every time he heard L's name. He felt it whenever the raven-haired boy stared at him with his dark, emotionless eyes. He felt it in the silence when he was alone with L.
He constantly sought the reason for the feeling. He knew he was not worried, but that was the only explanation that made any sense. But at the same time, it didn't.
He also felt it when he thought about it like this.
He looked over at L and the feeling sunk even harder. It was as if he were afraid of L. Was he? He wasn't sure any more.
No. He wasn't afraid of getting caught as Kira. He knew that much. He knew he had not slipped up, and would not. He was smarter than that.
So what was it?
He watched L drop eight sugar cubes into his coffee.
He was so peculiar. The way he curled up in his chair, the way he played with his toes, his constant sweet tooth... they bothered Light. But he wasn't irritated or disgusted by them - he found them amusing, and actually took pleasure in watching the older boy's strange habits.
Why? Why did those faux pas amuse him?!
L picked up his coffee cup delicately and pressed it to lips. He glanced down at it, dissatisfied. He put it back down and added five more sugar cubes.
Do you like coffee with your sugar, L?
Light smirked, but the feeling strengthened, and he felt - what was this one again - desire.
Desire for what, exactly?
Light hated L. Hated L for always trying to psyche him out, for being so emotionally stoic, and for believing that he was Kira...
But he liked him, too. He liked him for being capable of thought processes so complex as to correctly identify Light's own thoughts and actions - a feat formerly thought to be impossible.
And then he realized -
I'm not gay... but for some reason, I love L.
will yaoi for CONCRIT ;)
(but not here. this stays a oneshot)
