Six days….It had been six days since he'd disappeared from both my side and my sight. No word from him, no assurance that he was okay. He knew my weaknesses, and he knew every way to make me blind so he was immune to my gaze. Making last moment decisions just as Victoria did when hunting down Bella. It frustrated me that he would use such a thing against me, and it only added to the pain he was causing me now. And was the pain taking its toll on me. It felt as if my dead heart was burning from being away from him as long I was. Usually I wouldn't mind him gone for a week, but because of the fact that I not only didn't know where he was but that I was the reason he was gone.

I knew I should have followed him that day and I should have seen it coming. I still don't understand how I didn't. Carlisle said it was because I was hunting and had completely given into my instincts like we all did on hunts, but I still did not agree with it. I should have seen Jasper lose control. And because I didn't three brothers lost their lives and I lost my mate.

(Flashback)

I dropped the deer to the mossy ground as screams filled the forest for only moments. There was the feeling of blood streaming down my chin, but I didn't care. I stood alert and let my eyes rake over the green forest. I sniffed the air, but only caught the remains of blood from the dead animal at my feet. Suddenly my vision faded into blackness and my body stiffened before settling on another scene.

I stood in the middle of the woods where a camp site had been set up, my feet completely frozen in place. My throat burned hot, almost feeling as if a fire was raging in it. Two men lay mostionless on the forest ground, with gaping holes chewen into the flesh of their throats and blood still seeping from them. Large pieces of skin were thrown off to the side, dirt covering the surfaces of them. Both men were sprawled on the ground only mere feet from each other. Only one of the men didn't hold the look of utter fear; however, looking into the eyes of the other I recognized the fear in his frozen gaze. When I finally took my eyes from the two I saw him. His back was turned to me and I could see the limbs of the man still writhing in his grip

"Jasper, no!" I screamed. Without thinking I sped off into the forest. Trees ripped at my clothing and tore at my hair as I dashed through the woods. I didn't even care. I followed his scent eagerly. Unconsciously I knew it was too late, but I held on to the hope that maybe he would stop himself. "Please no, Jasper." The words slipped from my mouth over and over again as I ran. Quick images of myself being thrown into a tree or my back hitting the ground flashed into my sight, but they were there only a half a second before disappearing again. I could figure out nothing of them and truthfully I did not care. My mind only focused on finding him.

I burst into the human camp moments later. Just as in my vision I froze at the sight before me, a shiver rippling down my spine. My hand rose to cover my mouth and my breath quickly caught in my throat but a moment too late. A burst of fire rose up in my throat from the smell swirling in my nose. However, the smell of flesh burning covered the scent of blood a little. I quickly found that it was due to one of the men's arms melting into the crackling fire. The scene before me was even more gruesome than it seemed in my vision. The frozen stares of both men boring into me and making me cringe in disgust. Their skin was almost as pale as mine now, flies already beginning to pick at the holes torn in the base of their throats. My inner demon didn't squirm at the sight and smell of the blood like I thought she would, even she hated the sight of it.

My eyes snapped up as the sound of someone gurgling reached me. "Jasper!" My call didn't stop him from drinking, but in fact had no sway over him at all. I took in the sight of Jasper's back and the outline of a man in his arms and swiftly pounced on him as my instinct to stop him kicked in. I knew there was no hope for the human, but I would not let Jasper draining him be the cause of his death. The sound of stone colliding against stone cracked through the air as our bodies collided and rolled across the ground. Though as we rolled forward I felt him fling me away from him sending me flying into the air. A gasp tore from my lips as my back slammed into the trunk of a tree. The force of my blow made large cracks form into the green like bark of the trunk, snapping it in half and sending both it and I crashing back down to where the screaming human was.

I groaned at the weight of the tree crushing my body before I slowly pushed it off me, jumping immediately into a defensive crouch. One of the many things Jasper taught me about fighting our own kind was to always stay on your feet. Before I could look to see where Jasper was a vision flashed into my mind of him tackling me to the ground, and I quickly made my body quickly move to the side. He stopped and whipped around when he saw he missed his target and bore his bright crimson eyes into mine for a moment. Growls erupted from deep within his chest while his blood coated lips pulled back over his red stained teeth. A shiver of fear ran through me and my eyes filled with hurt. Never had he acted this way towards me in all the time we'd been together. I put my hands up in a sign that I meant him no harm, for I would never be able to bring myself to do so, but that only made his growls grow deeper.

"Jasper its only me, love. I-" I was cut off by the image of Jasper's muscles tensing before he launched himself at me again. I jumped out of the way just before his claws could sink into me and was already a waiting for his next move. Now I faced my real challenge. Getting him pinned down so I could calm him before I was killed in his blind rage. Being a seer would help, but I knew it wouldn't help me for too long. I ducked as I saw his hand come crashing down towards me and spun around before backflipping over him. I kicked at his back, but he grabbed my leg and threw me into the air once again. This time instead of slamming into a tree I fell back to the ground and landed in a perfect crouch. I couldn't help the snarl that came to my face as we ran towards each other once more. My worse half breaking through to aid me in this fight. As much as I hated to release her, I knew she would be the only one able to actually fight back at Jasper.

Crack!

Our bodies smashed together again, but instead of rolling back I let my shoulder dig into his chest, making him flip right over me. I heard him growl as his back hit the ground and felt the sting of his fingers as they wrapped around my ankle tightly. My head snapped down and my lips pulled back while trying to wrench it from his grip, though, as I tried I was suddenly forced to the ground, only it wasn't' the ground that I landed on. I cried out in fear at feeling of the fire beginning to lick at my skin, quickly rolling out of it before it could do much damage. My hands franticly began to try and put out the flames on my clothes, something I never should of concentrated on. My body quickly leaned to the left as a quick vision of his hand slamming into the side of my face came to my mind, but then it suddenly changed before I felt his body slam into mine.

The decision he'd made was so quick that it blinded me to his moves. His hands clasped onto my shoulders as he pushed me to the ground and dug his fingers into my marble like skin, which resulted in the sound of marble tearing through my ears. I couldn't help the scream that burst through my lips as his teeth sunk into my neck The sting of the venom only adding to the pain of his bite. My hands shot out and my fingers quickly dung in his shoulders before I began pushing him away from me. Seeing him like this truly did make me fear him for the first time in my life, and gave me just another glimpse of the man he was before he loved me. He pressed down harder, his strength threatening to snap my tiny wrists from the force. His teeth were inches away from my face. An animalistic growl broke through my lips; however, I still couldn't find the strength to even try to hurt him.

"Jasper!" I cried, my eyes boring deep into his raged filled ones out of the hopes that maybe he would see me, come back to me. Thankfully he did. Somewhere in there my Jasper saw me and fought his monster back into its cage. A look of horror came to rest in his blood-red eyes when he looked down at me. His hands quickly pulled out of my skin, causing me to hiss in pain.

My hands loosened on his neck and instead gently just held him in place. I needed to keep him still, calm, or it was possible that he would lose it beyond my control. I could see it coming in his eyes and all I could do was hope I could keep him a bay. "Alice," He whispered breathlessly, beginning to realize what he'd done. "It's okay, Jazz...Calm down please, honey." I could feel him pulling against my hold on him, but when he saw the burning bite mark on my neck, Jasper bolted away from me completly. He backed away until finally his back hit the trunk of a tree while his arms wrap around it tightly as if he was trying to bind himself to that spot.

His gaze flickered to the humans strewn around us, but his eyes mainly stayed fixed upon my neck. The golden hair sliding down his forehead holding streaks of the same ruby liquid that slowly dripped from his chin. "Please wait..I-it doesn't matter, it was just an accident." I made to take another step towards him, but before I could stop him he was gone in a flash.

There was no hesitation in my mind before I raced off after him. My eyes were frantic as they searched for his running form, but could see nothing of him. I could smell his scent fresh and for a long while I followed him fearful that I would lose the trail. He had so much experience on me and was far faster than me once he put his mind to it. For an hour I stayed just behind, but finally lost him when he looked to the sea to aid him in losing me. My feet quickly skidded to a stop when I reached the edge of a cliff out looking the sea. I crumbled to my knees and tried to search the water for his honey colored hair and pale skin. Sobs broke through my sobs while tears craved to spill from my eyes, but never would. The sun's last rays peeked out over the ocean's blue waves and made my skin glisten once more before darkness began to settle in.

(End of Flashback)

I was brought out of my memory when someone's arm slipped around my shoulders and pressed me against them. My head fell against the crook of their neck; my gaze fixed blankly out of the window. I knew who my comforter was by the smell of his scent, and became even more thankful that I had my dear brother. He perched on top of Jasper's desk next to me and stayed silent as we peered out the glass. He, like Bella and Carlisle, never disturbed my silence. They only sat with me unlike Esme, Rose, and Emmett. They all tried to comfort me with words like 'He'll come back,'

'He would never leave you', or 'Jasper's love is too strong to stay away'. And I didn't need Edward's gift to know that was why those three had not come to see me in the past two days. I didn't want their comfort, I only wanted him back and the fear and pain that coursed through me to subside. Would he leave me behind and forget of my existence? Would he come back to me? Had he become the monster he was before I met him? I didn't know and that unknown made me fearful.

"Now I know why you did it." I felt Edward's eyes snap down to look at me in surprise. I hadn't spoken for the past five days and was keeping most of my thoughts mute. The only thing really passing through my mind was the memory of that last day and those three questions; every now and again Iyelled at myself for not being able to find him. "Why I did what?" He asked not knowing what thoughts dwelled in my head. "Why you left us after Bella's birthday...I was angry with you then for not only taking Bella from us, but also you leaving yourself. It hurt losing a brother and practically a sister too, and for that I was mad at you those few months. Now I understand why you did it though...So much love around you pains your heart and only gives you a reminder of what you don't have." He held me tighter to him at my words. It was true though. I could hear them all from my room and see them when they passed by my window. So much love flowed through them all and it hurt knowing I may not have that if he didn't come back to me.

"You won't feel that way for long, Alice. He wou-" I cut him off as a deep growl rumbled in my chest. His body tensed a little at the sound and could tell he knew it would be a bad decision to finish that sentence "Don't," I growled, "You don't know what he will do. I don't even and I'm a seer and his mate!" My voice rose as I spoke, but Edward only placed his chin on top of my head and didn't move more. My brother stayed by my side, temporarily stepping into the place Jasper was supposed to be.

Well, hope you enjoyed the first chapter. Sorry if there is some mistakes in the middle area. I did some quick editing on this while my beta was looking over it. Comments would greatly be apreciated :)

I would also like to thank my wonderful Beta, Ameths, for making my work look nicer! Thanks girl!