Every Part Of Me

People always talkin' bout
People always run their mouth
But when I hold you there's no doubt my love for you is true
Before my life was ups and downs
And happiness I used to chase around
That's why I'm glad you came cos now there's no substitute

Jack never mentioned Alice to any one at Torchwood. Now, after losing her forever, he wished he had. He wished he had shouted to the world. He wished he's told them all how proud he was of this little girl. Admittedly she wasn't so little anymore; she was a grown woman with a son of her own, but she would always be her little girl. He could remember her birth, he could remember everything about her, even though he hadn't been there a lot when she was growing her. He had wanted to be, but it found the whole domestic thing hard.

And I don't care whatever may come our way
It's you and me forever and ever to be, cos

He didn't blame her for not wanting him to stay away before. She knew the troubles of Torchwood, she knew the danger, the difficulty. He knew now she had been right all along. He should've stayed away like he promised to. He missed her, like he knew she had missed him, but he had to be honest. The real reason he'd gone to see her was for Steven because of what was happening with the children.

That was the biggest mistake of his life. It was that one stupid movement that caused the whole chain of events which ended up with Steven's death. Which ended up with Jack killing his grandson.

When I look at you I see me from my head to your toes every part of me
And everything you do I did too cos I'll always be a part of you
(Always be a part of you)
When I look at you I see me from my heart to your soul I'll always love you so
And everything I do you'll do too cos your every little part of me

He was worried about Alice. He couldn't deny that. Although she wasn't immortal she was a lot like Jack. In so many ways she was like him. She was stubborn and proud, she often thought she knew best. She was good at hiding her feelings. She could shout the odds but she was also sensitive. Jack knew she had her friends, but he felt like he should be the one helping her. He was her father after all.

It scared him how much like him she was. He was worried she'd end up like him; lost; broken; alone, but he hoped she had the sense not to push people away like he did. And he was almost sure she wouldn't make half the mistake he made, but it still worried him

I've seen how easy things can change
And people never stay the same
But baby ever since you came you made me feel secure
Yes I think you should know
That people gonna come and go
Be assured of this one thing I will still remain

He hoped Alice knew how much he regretted sacrificing Steven. He hoped she knew how much he hated himself. How he couldn't get Steven's face out of his head. How he'd never forgive himself. How he wished he could take it back, do it differently.

He hoped she knew how proud he was of her. She was an amazing woman, so strong. He hoped she knew he wished he had been a better father. He wished he could've been there for her, without the danger and the troubles. He wished he could've been a properly Dad for her.

And I don't care whatever may come our way
It's you and me forever and ever to be, cos
When I look at you I see me

But most of all, he wished he'd never destroyed her life, he wished he'd never taken Steven away from her. He wished he could turn back the clock.


A/N: To my regular readers, sorry for this being the third depressing TW story in a row