Spencer's Diary

9/7/10

Dear Diary,

Last night was the last big sleepover my friends and I were going to have before school starts. That sounds like fun right? Wrong. Ever since school let out this year, things have been pretty tense between Alison and I. The day before graduation my sisters boyfriend Ian Thomas was in my backyard while I was practicing field hockey. It started out pretty innocent. He corrected my technique and complemented me on my hair. Before I could stop him he leaned over and kissed me. At first it felt amazing, I had been secretly crushing on Ian for months and Melissa is really starting to get on my nerves. As soon as Ian pulled away it felt wrong. Even though Melissa can be a bitch, she is my sister. ( Not to mention the fact that she would KILL me if she ever found out.) After Ian left my backyard I saw Alison standing in front of the door.

" Okay gross." She said.

" What did you see?" I asked her nervously

" Enough to make me wanna puke. He's your sister's boyfriend and he's like, old." Alison answered.

" Well it was nothing, just forget it okay." I told Alison.

" It looked like you were into it." She replied.

" Well I wasn't." I said trying to assure her.

" I hope not, because if you were, that would make you a skank." Alison said as she stormed out of my backyard.

Alison never let me forget about my mistake. She would always make jokes about it in front of Melissa and my friends. She also always threatened to tell Melissa whenever she got the chance. This was not the only problem Alison and I had. I was so sick of being controlled by her all the time. She is not the boss of me and I wanted her to know that. I started to challenge Alison and question her motives. This infuriated Alison and as time went on, we gradually became less and less close. On top of all this, Allie was always canceling our plans to hang out with her older friends. I have always been there for her, even after the Jenna thing. It felt like that wasn't enough for her. Maybe that's why I said all those awful things to her last night before she left my sleepover. As soon as Alison left, I got a weird feeling in the pit of my stomach. I ran as fast as I could in the direction I saw her leave. I finally caught up with Alison.

" Allie wait, you don't have to go." I told her.

" Have to, I want to." She replied angrily.

" Where are you going." I asked.

" Somewhere way cooler then hanging out with you losers." She told me.

When I turned to walk back to the barn Allie stopped me.

" You want every thing I have, but you can't have this." She smirked at me.

" I can't have what?" I question.

" Don't pretend like you don't know, I'm sure you read all about it in my diary." Allie responded.

" Your diary? I never read your stupid diary. I don't care enough." I said angrily.

" That's the problem Spence, you care way to much." Alison said and walked away.

I was done talking to Alison, so I went back to the barn. When I woke up in the middle of the night I realized she still had not come back. I decided to go out and look for her. After walking around my street for about a half an hour I started to walk back. A couple seconds later I heard a scream. I don't know if that was Allie or my mind playing tricks on me. When I got back to the barn Aria was awake.

" Have you seen Allie?" She asked me.

" No, I've looked everywhere for her. I think I heard her scream." I replied.

This morning police cars were circling around Rosewood. The police questioned each of us alone.

" Spencer Hastings is that correct?" A young police offer asked me.

" Yeah, that's me." I replied.

" Tell me everything that happened last night." He demanded.

I told him everything, except for the fact that we were drinking underage and that Allie and I had a big fight.

" Do you know anyone who would want to hurt Alison." The police asked me.

" No, everyone loves Allie." I lied.

I couldn't tell him about Toby or Jenna Cavenaugh without reveling the truth about the "Jenna Thing".

" Thank you Mrs. Hastings, I'll be in contact." The police officer told me.

Four hours after that stupid interview and we still haven't heard anything from Alison. She probably snuck out with some boy or is at an older friends house. Even though I keep trying to tell myself this, something seems really wrong. My family is being abnormally nice to me and are not letting me out of their sight. Mrs. Dilaurentis who is the most composed woman I know is outside bawling and talking to police officers. Even though I hate Alison sometimes, I love her like a sister. If something happened to her I don't know what I'll do. All I want to do right now is run to Alison's house, hug her, and apologise for everything. Every time I think about doing this, I realize Alison won't be there. Is it my fault she is gone? Why did I have to fight with her? If only I had not been so stubborn and apologized when I got the chance. If there is anything I can do to get her home safely I'll do it. Even of it means walking across the country to find her. If I wake up and she is home tomorrow, I'll never ask for anything for as long as I live. I've about cried myself to sleep so I've gotta go.

Sincerely,

Spencer Hastings