Hello everyone! (ore should a say hello to thous who are there, if there are any) this is my first fanfiction.
My first language is Swidish so please excuse my grammar and spelling dificolties. And If that was not the onley problem i have dyslexia as well, so again pleas be pacent whit me. Like a said this is my first fanfiction, so it is a bit shourt. But i intend to whrite meny more chapters on this one. Hope you like it! /Emma
Oh Yeh..i do not own Twilight, Stephenie Meyer does.
A breathing situation
BPOV
Hours … minutes … seconds …so many of those had passed since Edward left, and it still hurt, everything still hurt. The pain, "it", I call it "it "by now, had become less of a struggle. I had managed to control my out brakes, for Charlie´s sake that was necessary, he blamed himself to match and I could not take it anymore. As I needed that on top of everything else? He had at least gotten over sending me to Renee´s, so I did what I needed to make the situation less obvious. I gave him a smile; hey I even gave him a hug for the sake of the situation. But everything still hurt; even breathing had become a burden for me by now. Everything I did reminded me of him and nothing seemed to lighten the situation. Going to school reminded me of "him". Forks reminded me of "him". Our friends reminded me of "him", even my own house had "him" written all over it. No wonder breathing was south a struggle, I was a wreak and everyone seemed to know.
Time whit Jacob where easier, I gave him that, but I had started to remove myself from him as I had whit the others. I did not want any friends, there would only be more people that would end up hurting me. So even Jacob had become a stranger to me by now, maybe it was not the right way to go, but I did not need a way, I did not need anyone. I did not feel like I wanted anyone either, no one other that Edward and he was for ever gone. At first I thought that maybe he would return, something told me that maybe he did want me after all. But then after a few near to death experiences I understood that he where long gone. My cliff diving sertantly made my dad go insane, and Jacob seemed to be on his side on that one, so that nearly ended up in an institution for my sake. Dam Jacob, always so stubborn and in the need to protect me, if it vas not for my father I had hoped that he had not saved me that day by the cliff. But I could never do that to Charlie, he would be devastated and be left whit nothing. My mother at least had her boyfriend so she would not be left alone, but Charlie had no one else but me.
But what where there to have? I had not felt happy since he had left and that was almost seven months ago now. The life was sucked out of me and it did not seem like it wanted to come back. Not even Jacob's secret seemed to shake me back to life. It shocked me alright but it also just seemed to make things verse. Jacobs's natural enemy was the vampires and boy did he remind me of why he turned in the first place. He meant well but it was too hard to be around, I had a lot to thank the pack for. Loruant and Victoria for examples, but I did not have the strange to help sheer them on, in the case of killing all vampires. So therefore I spent most of my time alone. Just trying to get passed the hours that seemed to move forward in the same passed of what a year naturally would. I took a breath to live, and that was what it felt like, a breathing situation. Why would not anyone unplug the respirator?
EPOV
"Alice you know why I need to do this" I said, but I knew she would not stop at that. Alice where…special when it came to her being able to stay out of a situation.
"Edward I am telling you…. She will not recover from what is about to happen", her voice was desperate and the seriousness made me feel like a question mark.
"Are we not talking about me leaving anymore?" I asked her slowly.
"My God Edward are you not listening at all? I have been trying to text you, write to you! And I have been terrorizing you on the phone…Where have you been?...Forget about that question right now, I need you here, home, Bella will be in a lot of pain and it looks pretty bad Edward. And what is even more serious is that I cannot see when it will happen", she rambled everything as fast as only Alice could, but I hurd her struggle the words in the end.
I took a breath before I answered, even though I did not need one. "Alice, what are you trying to say? And what are you doing in Forks?"
"That is what I am trying to tell you, this situation whit Bella needed me to come home, and I really think Bella will need you here as well", she was not making any scents and it started to anger me.
"Alice I told you not to go home, I told you to give her time. Did you think that any of this was easy for me? Do you know how many times I wanted to return and beg for forgiveness? And then you make a decision that could throw everything away? What were you thinking?" I did not care if I sounded mad, Alice needed to back off.
"Just listen Edward, we do not have time for this! Bella will be hurt. She will be hurt to the breaking point, and she will not recover whit out you. I see her hurting, and I see her doing things to herself to end the hurt, if you know what I mean?" Alice talked very slow this time and I understood her clearly.
"What?... What do I need to doo? Alice she…. you need to stop it!" now I was the one not making sense, but I knew Alice would know what I meant.
"That is the thing Edward, I cannot find her and I cannot see where it will happen" she sounded defited and more vulnerable than I have ever heard her sound.
"Alice… what will happen to her?" my voice had started to shake by now.
Alice went client on the other side of the phone, and this scared me more then when she had spoken. I knew by now, that silence where never good, Silence meant something more than just a fall, ore a hurt ankle me. Silence meant something really bad. I did not need to finish my conversation whit Alice; I was already on my way home.
