This is a story about the nerve Paul, part of Kate Beckett. Unfortunately the unsolved tension between Castle and Beckett doesn't make things easy for Paul. Maybe a session with the therapist will help him.
Disclaimer: I own nothing. Except maybe - Paul the nerve. But considering Paul as a part of Kate Beckett and Kate Beckett being owned by Andrew Marlow - I'm not even sure whether I own Paul :D
It was dark in the therapist room. In a corner of it Paul sat, lonely and broken. He seemed to be exhausted.
"This is now our third session" the therapist said as paul didn't seem to start a conversation "and you still haven't said a single word. I know Sometimes it's difficult to speak. Paul. Why are you here?"
Paul was still facing the floor. He sighed but still didn't say anything.
Roger waited. He knew that Paul was eventually going to speak. And So he waited.
They Both waited.
It was half an hour later as Paul sighed again, finally looking up for the first time.
"It's just too much sometimes, you know. It's frustrating and exhausting." he said and turned his head to the window watching the snow fall outside.
"What is too much?" Roger asking still facing Paul, his eyes never leaving the small figure on the other side of the room.
"You know, first I thought this was a great job. Working for Kate Beckett. She's an amazing woman and yes, her past makes things more⦠Interesting.
So when i started everything was okay. If only Rick Castle hadn't appeared. He made everything difficult."
Paul turned his eyes away from the snow flakes and faced the floor again. He noticed the dust on it. Flakes just like the snow, small and tiny, just like him.
"What changed?" the therapist asked him.
"She's just so stubborn." Paul shouted out.
"We tell her all the time: Kiss him. But she never listens. We scream at her, but she never listens. She just backs away."
Paul now faced the therapist, who saw the anger all over the nerve's face.
"You know that one time" Paul went on "that one time in the alley where he kissed her. Suddenly, totally unexpected. He just grabbed her and kissed her. And she just accepted it. Someone had been already sent away to get up some champangner. David had already started the music and everyone was ready for the party. And then she backed away. The mood was down within miliseconds. Nobody could believe it. From far away we heard the bottle of champagner crash onto the brain as the nerve that was send to get it stumbled over his own nerve endings in shock. A second later everyone of us started to scream. Kiss him. Kiss him. Kiss him. We went on until we felt her move in to him and then everyone held their breath. It felt like an eternity until she finally connected her lips to his and then everyone burst into applause. The butterfly-nerves started to do a happy dance which would make Castle's happy dance look like a somersault, and everyone joined in. Somehow the champangner finally arrived. When Kate broke the kiss to break down the guard everyod was dancing and screaming and nobody could control themselves."
The therapist watched the tiny nerve. His face was happy now but then he saw the feeling fade as paul continued to speak.
"That was the happiest moment of my life so far. But then..."
Paul stopped talking and looked out of the window again.
"What happened then?" Roger asked him and leaned forward leaning his chin on one of his hands.
Paul looked up and it was now the first time that he actually looked into the therapist's eyes. And as he spoke the words had a touch of finality in it.
"She was aware now, finally - of her feelings. She knew how it felt. And she knew that she wouldn't be able to stop herself now that she knew. That's why she decided to never let it happen again. And so we built up her wall - stronger than it ever was, because now she was aware of it."
Paul stopped talking,
Roger watched the tiny figure in front of him, he tried to get him to go on talking but it wouldn't help. Slowly Paul got up.
"Until next week." he said before he left the room and went back - to work.
Okay so I was reading a fanfic (I'll let you know when I remember which one) and then I read something like:
And then every nerve in her screamed: Kiss him.
If you recognize this as your words then please let me know - I've really forgotten which fic it was.
And then this idea somehow hid me and I immediately wrote it down in the middle of the night.
This hasn't been beta-read so far but I'll work on it.
Let me know what you think, I'm thinking about maybe continuing :D
