I was going to make it a short song fiction, but once again I get ahead of myself...
TURN BACK TIME
By Cat
Mary...
Danny asked me to marry him last night... I didn't know what to say. It was a surprise, I'll admit that. I told him I'd think about it.
- Give me time to reason;
Give me time to think it through...-
He had driven me home... the trip had been in silence. Road trips were not like they had been when we were teens and in early twenties. Those times had been fun! But as we had grown older, my feelings had only grown for him and I never knew what to say around him. I envied him in ways. He was smart, knew what to do with his life, and he had just passed it by when he found out that I had dated Luis Perez when he went to the marines the first time... he had only talked to me about it once, and then I think he might have asked Luis too. He had looked innocent every time Luis' name was mentioned... but his eyes quickly averted to some other sight... I always have felt guilty at such times... I do regret dating Luis... I really do!
- Passing through the season,
where I cheated you...
I will always have a cross to wear,
but the bolt reminds me I was there...-
Whenever I'm with another guy, whether friend or date, Danny had always had a certain look of jealousy, a twitch or a scowl whenever a guy's name was mentioned. I regret making him like this. His eyes tell me all. Whether happiness or sadness... it had been more sadness than anything else ever since he has come back from the marines... I overheard him talking to Mike the other night... I think he feels that something else might have happened between me and Luis while he was away... If I could change the past and all that happened between me and every guy I would!
- So give me strength,
to face this test tonight...
If only I could turn back time...
If only I had said what I still hide...
If only I could turn back time...-
The nights we had spent together, both times he had left for the marines... they were worth waiting for... But that was all that had happened between us! I want more than that! Danny knows that I'd like children... I know for a fact that he doesn't... Luis- he was willing to give me anything I wanted... Danny was prepared to as well... but seriously! Danny... I'm sure he likes me and all... but sometimes he can be so childish! He doesn't take our relationship seriously! He's become a real play-boy ever since he came back from the marines the first time! He never used to be like that! And then he gets jealous when I go off with someone! It's none of his business to ask me about my personal life!
-I would stay for the night... for the night...
Claim your right to science...
Claim your right to see the truth...
Though my pangs of conscience,
Will drill a hole in you...-
Ok... calm down... I shouldn't think things like that. He's my best friend and has been for some time now. Every day since we were two. I guess he must have been fighting an inner battle, ever since he kissed me behind the swings in fourth grade! I've changed a lot since that happened too. I had always imagined him asking me to marry him! I knew he would eventually!
- I seen it coming like a thief in the night,
I saw it coming from the flash of your light...
So give me strength,
to face this test tonight...-
Danny...
I asked Mary to marry me last night... I didn't go as well as I'd expected... she told me she'd think about it. What's that supposed to mean? I guess she must be a little upset because I've made her wait so long... I'll be surprised if she says 'yes' after all I've put her through! I guess I haven't exactly treated her right; I've neglected to tell her my feelings for along time now. But if I could take it all back and change the past I would.
- If only I could turn back time...
If only i had said what I still hide...
If only I could turn back time...
I would stay for the night... for the night...-
Every time I see her with another guy, I feel guilty for all the things I have never said to her. I know she dislikes me for a lot of it and it still depresses her I guess. If only I could change it... Mary had moved in just after my mother's death and I still remember that sometimes I watched over Mary while she slept. She's really beautiful and always has been. Sometimes she spoke in her sleep about her father and how she was afraid. I never mentioned it though. I guess I was afraid that she might think that I was doing things to her in her sleep... I would never do that though. She also sometimes had nightmares and I'd stay with her until she fell asleep... if only I had told her my feelings then!
- The bolt reminds me I was there
the bolt reminds me I was there
If only I could turn back time...
If only I had said what I still hide...
If only I could turn back time...
I would stay for the night... for the night...-
"Danny!" The voice suddenly wakes me from my thoughts.
"Huh?" I say stupidly. A few colleagues laugh quietly.
"While you were off in happy-land I was telling everyone about me taking my wife to Hawaii, you are in charge." Ed's harsh voice had always scared me slightly. I hope he isn't planning to play practical jokes on me again...
After work, I walked down to my car and found Mary standing there.
"Hi," I smile at her, it's the first time I've seen her all day. Truth-be-told I didn't exactly look for her, to tell the truth even more, I was avoiding her. I guess I was afraid she'd say 'no.'
"Hi," she smiles back at me, it's contagious! "Could we talk?"
To Be continued...
uhh... as i mentioned... this was going to be a short... but i didn't know how to end it. i would apreciate suggestions... so please review!