He's there, he is always there. Stiles the boy who runs with wolves. Stiles who is so foolish and brave. Stiles the boy who has crawled under his skin and refused to leave. Stiles the boy, that's what he is a boy, a child, a silly child that has a chance to escape, if only he would. Derek sat on the porch of his burnt childhood home watching the boy he loves laugh and play but he knows it won't last for there is always some new treat on the horizon when it comes to himself and that knowledge makes him hate himself even more knowing that this boy will have to feel pain yet again. Stiles is loyal and he wishes that wasn't true but it is, Stiles will risk his life for him like he always does and he knows sooner or later their luck will run out and he will lose this magical boy who he would give the world to. So Derek will do what he has to, he will give him up, to protect him, to save him. He is just a boy, he deserves better, he deserves everything, Derek can give him nothing but heartbreak. It's an infatuation Derek had once tried to convince himself but he knows better and he can only play dumb for so long. He loves this boy and he wishes he didn't. He had hoped it would go away, he had even begged but things are never been that easy for Derek Hale. He had never meant for it to happen, why would he Stiles is annoying and loud but somehow he had made Derek love him without even noticing. Derek can't help falling in love with Stiles but he most certainly won't let the boy die for him. Derek would give him his life if the boy so much as asked but Derek will not take his, he won't, Stiles deserves better. Derek will never tell him and Derek will never love again but Stiles will, he'll leave Beacon Hills, go to college, get married, have children and grow old but the most important thing is that he'll be safe.