I DO NOT OWN THE TEEN TITANS OR ANY OF THE CHARACTERS AFFILIATED WITH THE SHOW OR THE COMIC BOOK

I must apologize for any misspelling. Or any grammar mistakes.

An old sorrow a new hope

Chapter one: prologue

Trigon was gone. The war had been won. And for the first time in her life Raven was free. She was free to fell all of her emotions No longer would she have to keep herself in check. She was free to fall in love.

In fact she was already in love. The thought struck her as if it it was a bolt of lightning. She was in love with her best friend and teammate Robin. The fear of how he would react if she confessed her feelings kept her from confessing.

So she kept her feelings to herself for three long years. But today the anniversary of her fathers defeat and death as well as her 21st birthday would be different. She would tell Robin of her feelings at her party tonight.

The time of the party arrived all to soon for Ravens taste. Her nerves were on ends as she and the rest of the Titans walked into the Eternity night club. The sight that greeted her her did nothing to calm her nerves. All of the Titans east as well as all the honorary Titans were there.

After she had consumed thirteen martinis a very drunk Raven stumbled over to an equally drunk Robin. She was trying to confess her feelings. Instead she grabbed Robin by the back oh his neck. And kissed him on the lips without a second thought.

She felt Robin return the kiss. Then she felt his hands moving over her body. Ever where Robin touched felt warm and tingly. His hands felt heavenly against her ash gray skin. When Robins left hand moved from her stomach to her right breast she used her powers to move them to her room. The moment they appeared in her room she pulled Robins red t shirt over his head throwing it into the corner. Robin followed Raven example and pulled her dark midnight blue t shirt over her head. The continued to disrobe each other as they moved toward Ravens bed.

Three weeks had passed since their drunken night together. Raven awoke at 3:16 am felling nauseous. She quickly made her way to her bathroom with her hand over her mouth. After she reached the toilet she fell to her knees and vomited. Raven awoke in this manner for the next four days. Afraid that something was terribly wrong with her body she tried to use her powers to get to the hospital. Instead of teleporting to the hospital the light in her bathroom exploded. Then she tried to create a disc witch she could use to fly to the emergency room. But her books flew onto the floor.

There was just no way around it. She was going to ask for some help. But who? Best boy wouldn't shut up long enough to help. Robin was busy with paper work. Starfire wold worry to much and be way to overprotective. Cyborg would help and he would keep it a secret to.

She was ob her way to the garage to ask Cyborg for a ride. When Raven walked into the garage she found Cyborg working on his "baby" the t-car.

Cy. said Raven.

Cyborg turned around to see his "little sister". Immediately Cyborg was alarmed to see Raven complexion was pallor then normal . Ree whats wrong? Are you felling well?

No. I've been throwing up for the past four weeks. I need a ride to the emergency room. Can you take me.

I can run some blood test and try to find out whats wrong.

NO! Please Cy just take me. I would like to keep this to myself. I would just teleport or fly but my powers are a bit unstable. I'm not trying to offend you Cy Raven says seeing the hurt look on his face.

Cyborg sighs and says. Ok Ree hop in I'll take you.

Thanks Cy and please don't tell about this.

Several hours Raven sit on a hospital bed while a nurse drew blood after she explained the symptoms to a doctor. After the nurse got all the blood needed for the array of test that the doctor had ordered she asked Raven to wait in the waiting room. For tow hours Raven sat and waited the fear building as seconds turned into minutes and minutes turned into hours. After two and half hours of waiting the nurse called Raven into the examination room.

Well ms. Roth we got the results of the blood test and all of them say the same thing. Your pregnant. One month by the looks of it. Raven felt several emotions hit her at once. Joy,Fear, and must of all confusion.

That's impossible. Just as she finished saying the words the drunken night with Robin came crashing into her memory. Oh she said as tears started to form in her violet eyes. Don't worry ms. Roth you do have options. You could give the baby up for adoption or you could get an abortion if you don't wont to keep the baby.

NO! I will have this baby and raise it as my mother should have done fore me. Said Raven with absolute confidence.

The doctor smiled and said you will be a great mother ms. Roth.

The ride back to the tower was filled with silence. As Cyborg pulled back into the garage Raven walked as fast as her legs could carry her back to her room. On her way out of the garage she passed by Robin without a word.

Hay Cyborg whats wrong with Raven? Asked Robin.

Nothing that I know of. Why?

She just passed right by me with out saying a word even when I called her name she just kept going.

Three days had passed by. And Raven hadn't said more then two words to anybody. She was trying to work up the courage to tell Robin that she was pregnant. She was terrified that Robin would hate her. That he would tell her to get "rid" of the baby something she refused to even think about. In the end she decided to say it plain out. As blunt as she could.

Raven walked out of her room toward Robin office which was next to the evidence room. As she neared Robin office she could her Starfire talking.

Friend Robin I have some things to speak to you about.

Sure Star. What is it?

I am felling the falling in love with you.

For a moment Robin couldn't believe what he was hearing. Star loved him.

I love you to Star. I've loved you since I first met you.

As the words left his mouth the light above Robins head exploded leaving both Starfire and Robin in the dark.

Raven went back to her room felling as if her hart had been crushed. She decided that she had to leave. She had to get away from this place. Away from the from the crushing sorrow that griped her hart. She had enough money saved to buy a small house and put herself through school. But what city would she move to. Not Gotham he would eventually go back to that pit. Not Steel city that where the Titans east lived.

Metropolis She could go there. She could make a fresh start. She had maid up her mind. Writing a letter with only one word she packed and left. She would raise her child by herself is she must.

The next morning Robin,Cyborg,Starfire and best boy woke up to find a note on the kitchen table with Ravens communicator resting ontop of it. The note only had one word. Goodbye.

Where has friend Raven gone? Asked Starfire.

Raven woke herself up sobbing again.

In the next room in the three bedroom a ten year old girl with ash gray skin and black hair with natural violet highlights lay awake listening to her mother cry. It made her angry not at her mother but at the people that made her cry. The Titans. They would pay they would all pay for making my mother cry.