A/N: my 2nd story everyonee! thanks for reading Hell is for Children, and this one is longer. They will be MUCHH slower uploading, because this one isnt prewritten like the last one. and they are longer, because im breaking them up and writing them at different times. This chapter is lacking a beta fishiee, because Habeous Corpus is reading the last chapter of Hell is for Children.
Disclaimerrrr: this story may not prove it, butt jane and lisbon would kiss in ever episode if i owned, which i dont, and everybody would call Cho Kim Ball, and pronounce it the way i spaced it. AND Kim Ball might just smile or make some other facial expression every now and again...
Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby?
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real.
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you?
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say...
"Why should I care?" Lisbon shouted to Jane over the howling wind. Rain plastered her hair to her face, and she had to spit every few seconds.
"You don't have to, damn it!" Jane screamed back. "I didn't join this team for you. I joined it to kill Red John. I don't care for anybody else but him!"
Lisbon stood there, shocked. She spit out water, then closed her mouth. Jane then turned around and stormed off.
I was left to cry there, waiting outside there,
Grinnin' with a lost stare,
That's when I decided...
Why should I care?
She sat in her shower crying. The hot water was beating down her back, but offered little comfort. She had her knees to her chest, and her body was shaking. The words he spat at her just ripped through her heart.
I didn't join this team for you.
I don't care for anybody else.
She kept telling herself that he did care, just hid it. But deep inside she always knew he would never be able to care for her. She kept asking herself why she should care.
'Cause you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone...
You, you need to listen!
I'm startin' to trip,
I'm losin' my grip
And I'm in this thing alone...
The next day at work, Jane and Lisbon had to work undercover.
Oh, boy. This is the last fucking thing I need right now! Lisbon thought, rolling her eyes and making a noise of disgust.
When they finally arrived at the restraint for their meeting with the drug dealers, they were forced to hold hands. They sat down with the people, and discussed how "Mary" and "Robert" were married, and worked in the drug world, usually selling prescriptions. Jane put on a smile towards his fake wife, but she saw it in his eyes, he hated being here with her. And it broke her heart.
Am I just some chick you placed beside you,
To take somebody's place?
When you turn around can you recognize my face..?
You used to love me, you used to hug me
But that wasn't the case.
Everything wasn't okay...
Later that night, it was raining again. Lisbon and Jane were forced to live in a home together. The deal wasn't even close to being completed, and until it was, they were Mary and Robert, the loving married couple.
But right now, they were nothing like a loving couple.
Jane was sulking in the kitchen, while Lisbon was sitting on the couch. Jane came in and sat down, and turned on the TV. Neither of them said a word.
"Im going for a walk." Lisbon spat in disgust.
Jane just looked at her with a blank look, and she stormed out into the rain storm.
I was left to cry there
Waiting outside there,
Grinnin' with a lost stare,
that's when I decided...
Why should I care?
'Cause you weren't there when I was scared,
I was so alone
You, you need to listen
I'm startin' to trip
I'm losin' my grip
And I'm in this thing alone.
She walked, the tears coming as fast as the rain, blurring her vision. She began to run blindly, until she tripped on a tree stump and fell into the grass. She began to sob and scream, knowing nobody would hear her in between the howling winds, the rain, and the thunder.
She screamed in frustration. She knew she was being dumb, acting like a little kid. An ignorant little kid, who kept trying to play with the older sibling, when the other kid was focused on something else; the girl would keep trying to get his attention until the brother pushed her away. The girl not knowing why, doesn't give up, but stops trying long enough to be frustrated and just cry. But Lisbon knew she needed to not be an ignorant little girl anymore, but a grown up lady, in control of her emotions. She just didn't care anymore.
Why should I care?
'Cause you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone
Why should I care?
If you don't care, then I don't care
We're not goin' anywhere.
A/N: stay for the ride, folks. i honestly dont like angst, so this mood wont be around for long.