A/N: All right! Day three of Yullen Week! Well everyone, I must say, I'm having fun with this. Not quite sure why, maybe ts because I'm such a strong supporter of this pairing and its just wonderful to get to write for them and read some of the awesome fics others are posting but either way its fun. On a less cheerful note, just so you guys know this one is one of my darker pieces, but i hope you guys enjoy just the same ^_^
Pairing: I think this one is reversible actually since it depends on how you look at it. Could work for both Yullen and Arekan.
Theme: Shadow
Beta Reader: Kirkland
Disclaimer: I do not own DGM; I only wish I owned Kanda…
Warning: If you don't know then you didn't read the whole summary.
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The shadows wreath around me like chains, binding me to my fate and reminding me once more that there is no escaping it. No one else sees them, no one else feels them when they touch me, no one else knows that they're there, but they are.
A constant reminder of time ticking by.
With every lotus petal that falls, they grow tighter, heavier until the weight grows to be too much and I can barely breathe. Through it all, my cold demeanor never wavers except for when I'm around him.
I thought I had locked away my heart in a barrier of ice and cold that no one person would ever be allowed to melt. I thought I had resigned myself to the fate that awaited me, the fate I refused to think about in my waking hours, but haunted me in the realm of my dreams.
Then that fucking moyashi just had to come along and ruin my fucking illusion!
I had known that I'd regret even looking at him again the first time I saw those brilliant eyes, burning with silver fire. I had brushed him off, deciding within a painful beat of my heart to stay as far away as I could, to avoid those fathomless pools of silver flame.
But despite my attempts, I couldn't seem to escape his fire. He had the audacity to stop me from killing that doll on our first mission together, deciding to protect it and then cry when its life faded into nothingness on the third day of its final lullaby.
It was an inanimate object, brought to life by the Innocence that became its heart after so long, and yet he shed tears of sorrow as though the life of someone precious had been lost.
I couldn't see him as anything other than pathetic and naive, but, at the same time, I felt a twinge of satisfaction and something... Else seeing the flames temporarily doused by crystalline tears.
No longer were the chains of shadow and darkness the only things that wrapped around me, threatening to drag me down and haunting me in my dreams, but flames the exact shade of those burning eyes now wreathed within the shadows, when I thought of him.
I strengthened my resolve to stay away, hating the feeling that grasped at my heart every time he was near, only to have an unbearable ache take its place during those short periods of time when I could escape the fire that raged in his eyes.
It was still better than that unrecognizable feeling that came when he was near and when the silver flames burned at the chains of shadow as though fighting for purchase in my otherwise empty heart.
Slowly, oh so slowly, the chains began to recede when he was near and when I allowed myself to think of him, licked at by bonds of silver flame that wrapped around my ice bound heart, slowly chipping away until only frost remained.
But all that melted in a brilliant flash of silver heat and light when his lips met mine in that first passion filled kiss.
After that, I couldn't stop the flames that burned me from the inside, threatening to turn me to ash. I couldn't even bring myself to give a damn and fucking try to resist him.
I couldn't stop myself from giving in, from letting the flames spread throughout my body, warming me with that blistering silver heat I found so comfortable and oh, so addicting. For a time, the shadows stopped their seemingly unrelenting assault and, bit by agonizing bit, they started to fade around me, forced away by his fire and the light he radiated.
Soon, I no longer despised him for his naivety like I would any other, but saw it as alluring, like the warmth of his heart. He somehow managed to break down my walls, destroying my stoic demeanor and forcing me to let my guard down.
The strange part was; I didn't hate him for it-I just couldn't, no matter how hard I tried. I only hated him when he wasn't near, and the chains began their advance once more, tightening around me, trying to douse and choke the silver flames my Moyashi left around my heart as an invisible mark of his claim, but they never could. Not while the single light in my world of seemingly endless darkness stayed strong.
Not while his heart still beat.
I should have kept my resolve strong; I should have kept my cold countenance no matter the cost. I should have known he wouldn't last, that the silver threads of flame wouldn't be able to hold off the suffocating chains of shadow.
But I hadn't and now the chains are stronger than ever. I bare my burden alone; no longer able to find solace in the silver warmth that once engulfed my heart. My cold demeanor no longer drops for anyone, and my guard is never relaxed. I no longer allow anyone to see my heart or try to touch it. I learned my lesson when my Moyashi was crushed and the threads were all at once torn away, giving the chains of shadow back their hold, forever wreathing and tightening as my fate draws forever closer.
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A/N: Well, that's it for part one! This is a two-shot as stated in the summary so part two will be up on the 26th. I know that this one is pretty dark but its not the darkest thing I've ever written... Would you believe that i am actually a very upbeat person? Lol, anyway I'm really happy with the way this one turned out.
I would just like to take a moment to thank all of you who have added me to your author alert lists as well as fave author lists. I wish i could tell you how much it means to me but there really are no words to describe how happy it makes me that you guys want to read more of my work but there really aren't words so just thank you so much ^_^
Thanks for reading and i hope you enjoyed. PLEASE REVIEW!