WARNING: ATTEMPT AT SUICIDE (but please read anyway) IN 1ST CHAPTER ONLY

Okay guys, this is my 2nd fanfic so i hope you'll love it.

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Just so you guys all know, i wrote this waaaaaay before breaking dawn came out so please accept my apologies with the wrong things in hand.

Summary:

Bella has struggled for six months with Edward and his family leaving her in the forest. Bella starts to lose it, again, and decides there is only one thing left to do; end it now before it becomes worse.

But what happens when those plans turn around for the worst? Or is it the best?

We follow Bella as she learns new things and events that lead her to do things she would never dream of, leaving her with all of the consequences and more.

Dislcaimer: I do not own twilight or any of the characters. Too bad...

Chapter 1 – The End

6 months

6 months since he left me in the forest. Crying, already falling apart and trying unsuccessfully to hold myself together.

Half of me left with him, but no one can survive with only half. He says he doesn't want me, doesn't need me.

Doesn't love me.

He's never coming back for me. Why would he? He says it would be like he never existed. I say he's the reason for my existence.

Counting slowly, the amount of time he's been gone. Already it feels like eternity. Nothing has compared to him; nothing ever will. Nothing ever can.

Charlie keeps on pushing me towards Jacob; Jacob keeps on pushing himself towards me. I was starting to feel happy with him once, until I found out he was just another mythical creature that was ready to rip my heart away too. Argh! I can't take this anymore. It's just too much to deal with. Go to sleep Bella, you will have nightmares, but you won't be able to think. I started to cry myself to sleep; I have been ever since they left. I still love him, even if he doesn't love me. I keep on telling myself that it was nothing more than a fairy tale love. A tale…

That's what I am. A tale that had never been opened before him. A tale whose pages were brand new and white. Never before touched, never read, never loved, never cherished. Whose pages have never before been folded to mark a special place.

He came along and went straight to the heart of my tale and ripped the pages out; causing the rest to frail, crumple, and eventually be destroyed. Nothing can be complete or even survive without a heart. He took mine. I thought he gave me his, but as soon as I felt it, he ripped it away from my grasp. He has destroyed me. He left me for death to take me and it almost has. I will let. I will call upon death in its face to take me without a second thought. I would beg it to.

I bolted upright in my bed, tears flooding down my cheeks. It would be like this for the last time. I will not feel anything anymore.

I jumped out of bed, landing on the cool floorboard. I broke through one of the boards, tearing a hole big enough for me to be able to see right underneath it. My tears became harder when I recognized the objects under my floor. I picked up the items and flipped over the CD Edward had made me for my birthday. I flinched away.

Even just thinking his name causes one of the sharpest pains to travel right to the empty space in my chest. I grabbed myself, pulling my knees in close, trying to hold myself together, but I had already fallen apart, spread out on the floor, ready to be trampled on. Then I saw his face.

A picture of him standing there next to me. Even if his expression is neutral, and he just stood there like a statue, he was a statue of a god. No, he was, is a god. And me, I was just this simple peasant, worth nothing towards someone like him. It would've never worked. I was so foolish to even have the slightest thought it would. I was nothing more than a mere toy to him. He saw me, took an interest, played with me, stole my heart, used me, and threw me away once he had his fun.

I've had it.

I jumped off of my bed again and made my way towards the window, the window that he always came in through to 'sleep' with me at night. I sighed and climbed out into the freezing night air. I walked along my roof before I came to a stop at the edge. I was two stories up, no doubt if I landed on my head, I would die. The wind was piercing my skin as I shivered. I looked up to the sky. There were clouds covering the night for as far as the human eye could see. There was a slight drizzle making me quiver more in my PJ's. Jump Bella, there's nothing left for you now. He's gone and not coming back. Your family has left you with him. You will never be complete again.

Jump, Bella, jump.

I raised my arms from my sides so they were horizontal to the ground. I let the cool air fall all around me, giving me one last memory of how his body had felt against mine. My hair is now blowing all around, covering my face. I closed my eyes, smiled, and jumped head first.

I let my feelings engulf me from the second I had jumped; to the second I felt myself being caught. Someone had caught me before I landed. Someone cold had caught me. I shivered again before opening my eyes to see who had wasted my moment.

"Hello Bella. And how are we tonight?" I couldn't recognize the voice or the face of the person talking to me because too many tears were making my vision blurry. But that didn't stop me from seeing the fiery red hair, blowing in the wind. I gasped and realized in that instant who had caught me.

"Victoria" my voice was frail and scared. I could hear her laugh at me in the wind. I gaped at her, unable to come to terms with my surroundings.

"It's rude to stare and not answer my question Bella" her voice made me quiver more out of control. I realized that she was carrying me so I started thrashing about in her arms, screaming at the top of my lungs for someone, even thought I knew no one could, to save me.

".GO!"

"Now, now Bella. Screaming is pointless. You are nowhere to be heard" I was silent in that instant. I stopped thrashing and as I took in my surroundings for the first time and saw that we were in a very large clearing. I caught my breath; it was this very clearing where my family had played baseball in the sun that day. The first place where we met Laurent, James and Victoria. "Now you see Bella," she embarked on, "This is where it all began," she turned her cold hard gaze towards mine. Her crimson red eyes boring into me, "It is here where it shall finish" and with that, she threw me through the air. I hit a tree with a big thud, all the air knocked out of me. I squealed in pain.

Why was I screaming? This is what I want. I want it to end. Everything will be gone. No more life, no more rejection, no more pain. "Thank you" I told Victoria in a whisper as she slowly approached me. She cocked her head to the side and looked at me with complete confusion, before a smirk covered her face from ear to ear.

"Sorry Bella, you don't get off this easily. Too bad your little Eddie isn't here to save you" she looked around frantically, her smirk seeming to get bigger and bigger. "I will make you suffer; as you have me" she walked over to where I was lying in pain and lifted her foot above my leg. "I will make you suffer a lot" with that she stamped her foot down on my leg, breaking it with a horrifying snap. I screamed in pain; instinctively bring my leg up so I could comfort it. Victoria picked me up, ignoring my pain, and threw me into the air. I crashed back down with a thud and bellowed out in pain again. I had landed on my arm and broke that too.

Cradling my arm and leg to my chest, Victoria bent down, bringing her lips to the skin on my neck. She bit down hard and started drinking from me. Draining me from every ounce of blood I have. I can feel my life leaving my body and travelling to her. She broke contact and stood up, eyes blazing red, and laughed at my crumpled body. "Why?" I asked her, barely finding my voice. Why had she stopped? I thought she was going to take all of my blood. How could she stop? And then the fire started. I screamed once again, piercing my ears and I cringed away from the sound. Victoria knelt down beside my barely moving body, moving her mouth to my ear. I felt her cold breath against my skin, making the hairs stand up. She slowly started whispering in my ear. The fire blazed through me again.

She cackled before continuing, "What bigger pain is there than continuing to live your miserable little life. Never being able to die?" She got up and instantly punched me in the chest, causing me to fly backwards into another tree. I couldn't feel the pain anymore; the fire was ripping through me, taking away all my rational thoughts. I yelled out for Victoria to finish it now. She just sat back, laughed and watched the show of my transformation.

The fire I remember vividly from when James had bit me. I screamed out again, grabbing the grass beneath me. My arms twisted around my body before I started clawing at them, digging my nails into my skin causing me to bleed harder. Victoria's eyes darkened; a growl building up in her chest, but she stood her ground. The fire continued to blaze through my body. It couldn't be put out this time. I threw my head back in agony and hit something hard. My eyes rolled back into my head as my lids closed and I fell into unconsciousness.

I could still feel the pain, even if my mind was in oblivion. I tried to scream but no sound passed my trembling lips. My body twitched beyond my control as I heard a nerve-racking laugh fill the forest around me. I felt her breath on my skin once again but I was unable to respond. "I will leave you now Bella. My work here is done. I feel sooo much better!" Victoria started laughing as I felt her stand up, still unable to reply. "I hope we met again someday" I heard her laugh louder and harder when it suddenly disappeared from my hearing. I cringed towards the ground, clawing at it and my arms.

I wish right here, right now, that I could just put up a shield and protect myself and disappear too.

Okay, I know this seems like another, 'ooo, Victoria got to Bella, so what' kind of story but it really isnt!

it was just the easiest way for her to be transformed in my pov, to make this story have a better plot

I hope you all enjoyed :)

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