Oh yes, I am back, I have been away for a long time, and I have finally learned for to comiit to things, but I stil can't spell. I haven't written a story, that I wanted to post, in a long time, so I think your definitely see a difference in the level of writing.

Yeah basically, a KakaSaku fic, with a dash of ItaSaku thrown in. I have wanted to do this for a while, I just havent had the chance. WARNING: Tis Rated 'M' for a reason, well, two. Coarse Language, and SEXUALITY! NTO SAFE FOR YOUNG EYES! Look AWAY[Lol! I say this, but I'm only fouteen.

DISCLAIMER: I don't own Naruto, or it's characters, but I am very glad that someone does. If I had them, no one would watch the show... hehehe.

Equilibrium...

...Peace...

...Quiet...

...Calm...

...Dark...

...Light...?

...Loud...?

...Awake? What The Fuck!?

Sakura shot up in her bed as a loud crash sounded a few feet from where she slept. "What in the hell?" she muttered to herself sleepily. She instinctively moved her hand to the kunai under her pillow. Once she felt the cold metal on her fingertips, she brought it to bear, and surveyed the area with trained eyes. The room was still relatively dark, but small rays of light escaped into the room through small cracks in her door frame.

You think I'd be used to it by now, it happens every week after all. The pink haired konouchi sighed and laid back onto her bed, tossing the kunai across the room and pulling the covers snugly over her head.

Another crash sounded and in the dust, the silhouette of a very well endowed woman with relatively long hair could be seen. If you had been in Konoha for more than a week you knew exactly who it was, and you'd run. But Sakura was different, she knew that this woman wouldn't purposefully hurt her. Kicking aside the rubble, Tsunade The Legendary Sannin, and Fifth Hokage stepped into the newly lit room, pulling the covers from the half-sleeping Haruno.

Sakura groaned aloud as she heard the angry grumblings of her mentor. What could it be now? Am I late for something important? A mission perhaps? It didn't really matter to her anymore, after all, it happened every week. She recalled one particular time where Tsunade broke into Sakura's apartment without reason, reasoning that it was out of habit. Of course, she was scolded for developing that bad habit within her teacher.

"Haruno Sakura! I request your immediate presence in my office, so I suggest you get your lazy ass out of bed, get dressed, and make your way to my office." Tsunade instructed with more then a hint of annoyance, for Christ's sake, every word had practically been drenched in it.

Oh yay, it's a double header, a screw-up, punished by a mission. Great, she'll probably have me clean the ANBU Barracks naked... though... that may not be so bad after all. Sakura put a finger to her chin and entertained dirty thoughts and scenarios pertaining to the subject. She was quickly interrupted by a loud shot from down the hall. "Now! Haruno!" She flinched, I hate it when she uses just my last name. Sighing again, the half clothed shinobi made her way to the bathroom.

Slowly and reluctantly, she made it into the bathroom, and shut the door. Lazily turning on the shower, Sakura brought herself up before the mirror. Her curves were outlined by the tight shirt she was wearing, and her shorts gave her butt a nice round look. She smiled slightly, and then frowned again. I have a good body, and I've been told that I have a nice personality, but I still don't have a guy. Once again, a sigh, followed by a snort. She chuckled to herself remembering what Ino said the other day.

"At least you aren't married to a lazy ass that encourages you to gain a bit of weight. It's hard you know, I've gotten so used to watching my figure, I haven't been able to gain more than two or three pounds!"

Shikamaru wasn't like other guys, Sakura would admit that. Most guys were turned on my defined hips, and sleek stomachs, by Shika was into a bit more meat on the bones. He liked fuller figured girls, not exactly pudgy, but you know, "healthy", as he said.

"Eh... I'll pass it off as the whole, "Haven't found the right man" thing." Turning to her shower, she smiled as the steam filled the room. shaking off the goose bumps and shivers, she undressed herself. What better way to start a shitty morning then with a good shower. Sakura always loved to shower. The warm water running freely over her naked body was simply erotic, and today it was spectacular. Reveling in the feeling, her thoughts wandered back to her love life... or... lack there of. She hadn't been in a substantial relationship in over two years. Her relationship with Seasick ended with his leaving of Konoha, and her rebound with Naruto didn't work out too well either. Turns out he's gay... go figure.

Sure she had been with guys since then. Neji, oh god that was good sex. That Byakugan isn't just used for finding chakra points. Shikamaru once or twice, once while he was married to Ino, but uh, she had been involved too so...

Other than that, she had been alone for the past two, almost three years.

With all of these feelings being brought out into the open, Sakura became... excited. Her hands eagerly wandered her naked body, resting themselves on her more sensitive areas. Her right hand landing over her opening, and her left cupping her right breast. She inhaled sharply as her fingers began moving on their own, rubbing her clit gently. The heat of the water mixing with the gentle touch of her soft fingers completed the erotic vibe. It wasn't long before she quickened the pace of her fingers, rubbing with more vigor, and putting her second hand into motion by massaging her breast and nipple. Her breathing became excessively heavy and she began to conceive small moans. Losing control of her body's actions, she dropped helplessly to her knees and slipped two fingers into her opening roughly, slowly sliding them in and out of herself. Another sharp intake followed by a long sensual moan. Sakura felt the end drawing near, and wished it could only last longer. After a few mor moments of repeated motion, she felt herself contract inside and she vaginal discharge secreted out onto her hand. She trembled at the after shock of the orgasm and removed her fingers. Her breathing hitched a bit as she felt another wave of pleasure flood over her.

With shaking knees, Sakura rose from her sitting position and turned off the water, instantly missing the warmth.

This is going to be a very long day.

She sighed for the hundredth time that day as she went about dressing herself. She didn't take the time to put her long hair up, but decided to look half-way decent by running a brush through it. That took almost an hour. She had allowed her hair to grow longer since she was sixteen. In three years, her hair had grown almost to her waist, she thought of it as her way of remaining a girl with all of her un-feminine habits. Normally whenever she went somewhere she would do up her hair and even go as far as putting on some makeup. But her mood was... less then cheery, so she wasn't going to bother.

Unfortunately, as she sat there brushing her hair, Sakura was forced to face facts. At the age of nineteen, she was a sad case. Even when invited by Ino or Hinata, she would rarely go out drinking. Her nights consisted mostly of sitting around telling stories and drinking with Tsunade, though, even her mentor had mentioned her recent bout of anti-socialism. She had lost plenty of bets to Shizune regarding Sakur'a personal life.

Everyone she knew, everyone, they were all in a relationship of some kind, or too busy to care. She was in the middle. She cared, but she always had so much to do, which was mostly her fault, she constantly busied herself with lab work, and when the lab work ran out, She took on a mission. Her ranking was actually going up with all of the missions she took on. She even recently took on a Genin team, she even ent them to the chunnin exams.

Her mind drifted around her life, and finally settled on old memories of team seven, and Ka--

She shook the thoughts out of her head and stood abruptly. Don't start thinking about that, you'll only upset yourself.

Sakura finally made her way out of her bathroom, shaking her head at the wreckage, and walking out into the hallway. after a while, she had grown so attached to the lab, she moved into the Hokage's office building, taking a room just down the hall from Tsunade's office.

I wonder what punishm–mission, she has set up for me... she'll probably have me clean the... ANBU... wait. She shuddered a little, "Deja vu" I have to start getting out more.

Upon arriving at The Fifth's office, she captiously opened the door.

"SAKURA HARUNO! You Are Late!" She hadn't even fully opened the door yet and she was already yelling. Sakura sighed and bowed her head as she entered, avoiding her master's powerful gaze. Reluctantly taking her seat, the pink haired(and pink faced) konouchi looked hesitantly at Tsunade. "Once again, Sakura, You have disappointed me." Sakura flinched at the severity of her voice and shied away a little more. She had really screwed up this time.

"How so Hokage-sama?" She tried to ask it nonchalantly, but her intimidation was still detectable in her tone. She didn't care as much what she did, as much as she wanted to know what her punishment was.

"Your Genin squad has failed miserably in the Chunnin exams, you should never have signed them up. I became the laughing stalk of Konoha, I agreed to represent your team while you went on a mission, and now people are laughing at me! Who do you think you are?" Sakura knew it was coming, and her blood started to boil. "Kakashi?"

"No! I'm not him! Don't compare me to him, that's not who I'm trying to be! Stop comparing me to a dead man!" Small tear streams ran down her face after being reminded painfully of her dead friend, even after all this time, it still hurt.

"Dead man?" Tsunade looked puzzled for a moment, but she immediately turned a sentimental eye to Sakura. That's right, she's been gone on a mission, she doesn't know. "Sakura... Kakashi's alive."

Sakura froze. "A-alive? I-it's not... possible! I watched him die! Don't try to tell me he's alive!" She openly wept now, refusing to believe that she had been wrong for two years. She watched him die.

XXFLASHBACKXX

"Sakura! Run, get out of here!" Kakashi desperately attempted to fend off both the elder Uchiha, and the large mist swordsman. He felt a sharp pain in his arm and realized he had been hit once again. With every step he took, he was inched back towards to canyon edge at the end of the gorge. Shit. At this rate, I'll be dead in a few minuets, I have to get Sakura out of here.

Sakura couldn't force herself to move, she was petrified. Naruto had gone off in pursuit of the Akatsuki's leader, and her and Kakashi had been left to deal with Itachi and Kisame. She feared greatly for her life, but even more so for Kakshi's. Kakashi's attempts were futile, she could not make her body more, his pleas were in vain.

To The Copy-Ninja's misfortune, the scene played out almost exactly as he had foreseen it. He was backed to the edge of the cliff, and with a smile, Kisame came with a large arc swing. Kakashi took to advantage, and after taking the full force of the blow, he managed to stay on the edge, grabbing a hold on an off-guard Kisame and driving a kunai through his throat. Kisame's small eyes grew large and wide as he looked deep into the silver haired jounin's drooping sharringan.

Time seemed to stop for Sakura. She silently rejoiced for the small victory of Kisame's death, but she realized with great severity that Kakashi was through. The last thing she remembered seeing before she fainted were Itachi's eyes, no longer locked in a Sharrigan, they were dark and peaceful, yet terrorized by sorrow. The image burned it's way into her mind, and would remain there... perhaps forever.

The fight had gone well so far, and the Uchiha was sure that once and for all, he had seen the last of the Copy-nin. He closed his eyes and smirked as he heard the gouging of flesh. It was over, but as he opened his eyes, he was met with a scene that shocked and horrified him. Another sound, a splash of blood, and two bodies fell down into the canyon. Two deaths.

Itachi was flooded with emotion that he had never felt, and it bombarded him endlessly. Anger, pain, sorrow, everything assaulted him at once and he broke down. Collapsing to the ground and sobbing uncontrollably, he was quite a sight to see. For a man who never showed anything, emotion or otherwise, this was something unheard of, and frankly, it was thought impossible. "Kisame... why? Why did he have to take the only thing that mattered away, even when he was on his death bed... Hatake Kakashi undoes my life." He sobbed out as he looked up at the clouded sky.

The last thing he remembered was the rain.

XXFLASHBACK OVERXX

That day saw the end of Akatsuki, the S-Rank criminal organization that had plagued the land for years. Not only did Pein die at the hands of Naruto, but Itachi, after being taken willingly into custody, revealed the location of the other members, and gave detailed descriptions of their abilities and weaknesses. Sakura felt great sympathy for the broken Uchiha, truly, she had been in the same boat. They had both lost their most treasured friends in that one day, it had just bee ripped away from them. When it came time for Itachi to go to trial, Sakura pleaded in his favor, and was able to get him life in prison as apposed to death.

The one thing that stuck with her that cemented itself into her reality was the Kakashi had died, she had lost him forever, and that was that. Now, that cornerstone of her reality was crumbling. He can't be alive, even if they had found him immediately, I watched him take the hit, I watched them fall. If they had found him, he would have been back before now. Sakura shook her head, shaking tears from her face. It doesn't make sense. How could he be able to get back in that condition, alive no less?

As the tears on Sakura's face dried, she looked up adamantly at Tsunade.

"I want to see him. Now."

Sooooooo...? What did you think. I wanna know, either way. R&R!