Invisible to Myself
Summary: Did you ever wonder what it would feel to be invisible? It can be have its advantages and of course have its disadvantages. Only you can escape and change the views of others.
Author's Note: Yes, I'm going to be working on two stories. It shouldn't be very hard because I already have a few of the chapters written. Please excuse me because I'm still very new to writing after this long period of break. Yes, well, I hope you enjoy it!
Chapter One
My name is Serena Tsukino and this is my story. I am the junior everybody wants to be. I'm intelligent, popular, and girlfriend of the varsity quarterback.
-Okay, so my life isn't really that extravagant. Rewind.
I am the junior that everyone knows (or in most cases, doesn't). I am the shadow of my older sister (she is living the life I told of above), so basically other than calling me, "Raye's sister", they don't know my name. Okay, so I'm not as remarkable as my perfect older sister. But does that give my parents a reason to overlook me too? Yes. They expect me to be just like Raye. Well, I'm sorry to disappoint them, but it is impossible! I mean, how can I compete with that? Going to be valedictorian, basically captain of every sport, student body president, and not to mention the girl who got "the looks" in the family.You've got to admit having long silky raven locks, pale porcelain skin, and complimenting intense violet eyes is a bit intimidating to go up against. Against that, my features are nothing.
Sure, I am smart, but I can never reach her level. I'm good at track and volleyball, but she's better. I'm not in any honor societies or anything like that since people say that I "lack the leadership skills" or anything else people see in Raye. I only have creativity, which unfortunately, Raye doesn't have. It is too bad no one seems to notice that I'm in choir, drama, and art. My parents haven't even been to any of my recitals, plays, or art gallery shows. They are too busy going to Raye's things that they forgot about mine. See what I mean? I don't even bother to tell them anymore because they won't even show up. Under all of this, I have only one person willing me to continue to exist in this harsh world. My best friend.
Darien Shields. He is the only one who seems to notice me - better yet, acknowledge my existence! When I am upset, somehow he makes me smile again and forget why I was upset at the first place. he knows if I have been crying or if I had gotten a half an inch of the ends of my hair cut. Darien knows the littlest things, every detail about me. He's also another perfect person. The only thing he doesn't know is himself.
Darien doesn't seem to notice that he is drop-dead gorgeous. Dark onyx hair that he every now and then he flips slightly with his head to move it out of the way of his eyes. His eyes... He has the most beautiful ocean blue eyes that you will ever see. They are so beautiful that you can get lost in their pools of stormy blue. But you get forced back to reality when he blinks and you only see his eyelids and thick long lashes (which only seem to add more mystery to him). I think those are his best features, but those are not his only physical attractions. He even has the perfect build - not too muscled, but enough to know he's not one to go up against. Darien has girls flocking after him and throwing themselves at him right before his eyes. But it is like they doesn't exist to him. Only me. This factor is a good thing, but it kind makes you feel insecure about yourself. I will never be liked by lots of guys because I can never look as gorgeous, be at his level of looks. Never.
Okay, so maybe I live in the shadow of two people -my sister for everything and Darien for his appearance. You get intimidated easily surrounded by these kind of people everyday and when you get green with envy, they remind you that they are nothing special. That just goes to show that they are perfect. They are kind and care about other people instead of acting upon the jealousy you emit. This kind of behavior makes me go mad because I wouldn't be able to be like that.
You are all probably saying my life can't be that bad. It is. Being constantly compared to you sister, ignored by everybody INCLUDING your parents, so basically living, but not able to be seen by everyone. I never get anything new, only Raye's leftovers. To my parents, I'm just an object to yell at for being the way I am. All of the teachers look down on me like I am a disgrace to my family. Is it my fault I don't come as close as Raye? Only Darien seems to see that I am not an object, but a human that has feelings, ambitions, goals, just like everybody else.
The way I bring myself down makes me sound as if I'm hideous right? Well, I'm not going to lie. I'm not that disgusting to look at that you have to shield your eyes from burning, but just an average looking person. Nothing spectacular to make you stop and look at in the street. Normal height, blue eyes, blond hair, in shape (only because of the sports that I play)... That's it about me. I'm not so beautiful that I would have much detail to. Just simple. That is exactly how I am. And I guess that's what makes me so invisible to my surroundings.
Better than my other story? I don't exactly know how to continue my other story and I had this one written a little before my disappearance... Don't expect frequent updates with the other one. This one shall be updated quicker than the other one because I had already written a few of the chapters. Anyway, hope you enjoyed and tell me what you think about it.