The voice in my head was telling me to jump, jump off the ledge, like in my fear landscape, and all my problems would be gone. But I couldn't do it. I never did do it, and I don't think I ever will. When I even consider it, Tris comes to mind and I manage stop myself. But only just.
I walked away from the chasm, the roar of the water in my ears, victory fresh in my mind. But it wasn't, really. I hadn't won, because I knew that I would come back. Just to test my strength.
I unlocked the door to the apartment I shared with Tris, and she was awake.
"Where were you, Tobias?" Tris asked me, walking over in one of my shirts.
I couldn't do it because she needs me. Do I need her? I don't know.
'She would easily move on and find someone else,' the voice said. But would she? I guess so.
"I just went for a walk. I needed to clear my head," I lied. I hated lying to her, but I didn't see another choice.
She gave me a hug, and I loosely put my arms around her waist.
"Are you okay?" Concern riddled her voice.
"Yes. I'm fine," I snapped quickly. Too quickly.
Shaking her head, she replied, "You're not. What's wrong?"
"Nothing. I'm fine," I sighed.
"Look, Tobias, I know that you're lying to me. If you don't want to tell me what the problem is, just say," Tris moved back into bed, pulling the covers over her head.
I thought about climbing in with her, but decided against it. She could use some practise for when the voice in my head takes over.
*This is my first fanfiction so please review!