So this was supposed to be a oneshot after I watched John Tucker Must Die the other night after finishing my exams. But it just kept going... and going...

"Holy Jamalama! Kiss her again! DO IT!!!"

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It was official. Lily Evans was a push over.

She'd always suspected it, but now it was as clear as the new day breaking through the curtains surrounding her bed. She had always liked to think she did other people favours because she was nice, kind, and considerate. She liked to think that she stuck up for people in need… but now she realized she could stick up for strangers, yet never herself.

Lily groaned, and turned to face the wall away from the light. If only blocking out her own problems was that easy.

She knew the reason for her troubles, one tall dark stranger by the name of Sirius Black. For the past previous years of school the bane of her life had been another boy entirely, but now she'd rather take a hundred doses of James Potter than face Black.

Curse her kind nature. Curse her way of seeing the good in a storm. She repeatedly beat herself up, remembering how it had all come to pass.

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"What have you got now?" Lily's best friend Jodie asked when she stood up.

"Transfiguration," She pulled a face, "What about you?"

"Runes. See you at lunch then?" Lily nodded at her brown haired friend and glanced over her shoulder as she left the Great Hall. There was a difference between the two friends that always struck Lily at times like these. She would have dreaded being left at the table alone, hated people looking at her. Unfortunately these looks were becoming more and more frequent due to her new Head Girl role. She suppressed a shudder, and satisfied that Jodie looked comfortable eating the rest of her breakfast alone, she trudged to Transfiguration. She dreaded the lesson, partly due to the subject, but mainly to her company.

The door swung open at her touch. Her mood sunk when she saw he was already sat in place. Lily was counting on being early; to have some time alone before Potter arrived. Stupid McGonagall and her seating plans!

She looked at him through her hair as she slumped forward. He was lounged back in a state of complete ease. One hand was dropped down on his side, the other raking through his messy black hair (which to Lily's horror was looking surprisingly good for once).

"Morning Lily." He said cheerfully, seeing her gaze.

"Potter." She nodded quickly and ducked her head away. Any conversation they had was normally one sided, him talking and her blocking him out.

"So, listen Lily…" He began, and she forced herself to look up.

"There's this, well, there's a new band playing at the th- Three Broomsticks this weekend, a-and I was thinking maybe you might like to check it out?" His green eyes bore into her own through his thick glasses.

She sighed mentally, she didn't understand fully what it was she didn't like about James Potter. It was typical he was Head Boy, but so far this year they hadn't had many 'duties' to perform together which was a huge relief.

Some days she loathed him, and others she looked forward to their slight conversation. But that's what she hated, the way he made her feelings change. Lily knew she was stupid, blaming the poor boy for something that was obviously wrong with her. It thrilled and frustrated her that this messy haired boy never gave up on asking her places. It was also annoying that however nervous or dejected he appeared when he asked her out, Potter would still somehow manage the confidence to do it again in the next few days or so.

But today Lily was tired. She was still hungry from breakfast, and didn't have enough energy to reject him fully. "With who?"

"You and… well… me?" He looked at her hopefully, but then rushed on, "Most of seventh year will be there probably."

She nodded thoughtfully, "I'll ask Jodie about it." She paused but his enthusiastic gaze didn't drop, "I'll think about it." Lily didn't care if she was getting his hopes up; she was too damn tired for Transfiguration first thing!

Her luck was in, as McGonagall seemed to slacken the tight reins.

"Now I'm placing you all in groups," the bat stormed down the aisle, "in which you will all research a topic I will assign on the history of transformation. You will be given four weeks for the project, which will end with a presentation on all you have learnt."

Lily breathed a sigh of relief, four weeks with no real work. She was put with a group of all girls, which delighted her. Anything to get away from Potter's hopeful glances.

She sat down at the table she was now assigned to, and looked around at the familiar faces. There was the drop dead gorgeous Silvia from Slytherin, a girl who was surprisingly nice for one of them. She grinned at Lily, and motioned for her to sit closer.

"Lily! It seems so long since we spoke! I've missed you since Herbology last year. Congratulations on Head Girl!"

"Thank you, it was a shock though. I still don't know why they picked me."

"Well I'm sure you'll do a great job." She flashed her pearly whites and Lily turned to inspect the rest of the group.

She recognized the Ravenclaw with brown curly hair as Cassie Kollwitz. The rest of the girls were Hufflepuffs. Their 'leader' was a black haired girl with sharp features, Michelle Parkers. She and her following were the most sought after girls in their year. They were the wizard equivalent to the Bitch Parade, or the 'popular' group. They were liked, yet despised.

The Hufflepuffs chatted and laughed loudly, showing no desire to start work on the project set. Lily glanced over to see McGonagall standing over a group of boys who had began arguing. Obviously the girls weren't high on her priority list.

"So Michelle, where did you sneak off to last night?" One girl flipped her hair and leaned forward, eager for some gossip. Lily glanced at Silvia who was inspecting her nails. Cassie looked equally bored, and was absently twirling a curl.

"That's top secret, sorry Mary."

There was chorus of "Oh no!" and "Tell us Michelle!" which the girl seemed to revel in.

"Alright fine. Seeing as you all dragged it out of me, but you better promise not to tell anyone!"

Lily watched them nod frantically out of the corner of her eye.

"I went to meet Sirius Black." She smirked at the gasps they all gave her.

"What did you say?" Silvia's head snapped up to glare at the Hufflepuff.

Michelle raised an eyebrow, "I don't think I was talking to you."

"You met Sirius last night?" Cassie's voice piped up from the corner. Her eyebrows had snapped together.

"I don't see what it's got to do with you but yes I did." Michelle retorted rudely.

"But why would he meet you?" Cassie continued, a hint of scorn in her voice.

"Maybe because I'm his girlfriend." The black haired girl smiled smugly.

"WHAT?!" Lily almost fell out of her seat in shock as the Slytherin and Ravenclaw girls both screeched in unison.

"Well, not officially, he says he doesn't want people to know about us because he wants to keep it our special secret." Her smile only widened. Lily tried desperately to control the urge to retch.

"But he can't be going out with you!"

"And why not?"

"Because he's going out with me!" Cassie stated, her face flushed red in anger.

Silvia's gaze switched to the Ravenclaw. "That's not possible." She laughed.

"Why is that so hard believe?" Cassie shot back.

"Because everyone knows that I've been seeing Sirius for the past month!"

Lily's head was beginning to hurt.

"You are both so delusional!" Michelle had her group backing her up with enough death glares to kill an army.

"What makes you so special?" Silvia laughed again.

"Well he'd hardly go out with a slut never mind a Slytherin."

"Oh, like you don't get it on. Everyone knows your little huff and puff reputation."

"I don't understand why he would be with either of you!" Cassie got involved again.

"Oh yes, he just loves the Little Miss Perfect types!" Michelle sneered in her face.

"For your information-"

"SHUT UP!" Lily jumped at her own voice yelling over the top of these three girls.

They all turned to look at her slowly.

"What was that, Head Girl?" Michelle asked mockingly.

"Why are you all fighting with each other? You've just all found out what a liar and a sneak Black is, yet you rip on each other?" Lily stared at them all incredulously.

Silvia snorted and leaned back in her chair. "Whatever. I'm sure these girls have just misunderstood him. He's probably flirted with them once or twice and now they've built up this whole story."

"What makes you so sure?" Cassie glared. "He could have easily been playing all of us."

Michelle's shoulders dropped suddenly. "He's been playing me?"

Silvia shook her head defiantly, "No, Sirius wouldn't do that to me."

"Silvia," Lily put a hand on her shoulder and spoke gently, "why other reason wouldn't he want it to be public knowledge that you were together?"

Her blue eyes snapped to the red head and they were filled with a burning misery; a flame of anger cooled by tears. "But I was so sure he was genuine." Her voice cracked slightly.

"I heard stories about him, but I never thought they were true." Cassie sighed.

Lily stared at the girls in a sort of awe. They had managed to swing from anger to misery in less than two seconds. Silvia seemed the most upset, Michelle still looked pretty pissed off, but Cassie as the smartest had accepted it quickly.

Silence settled over the group of girls. Then Silvia stood up suddenly, shaking her head. "I don't believe this. I won't believe this." She stormed out of the classroom, grabbing her books off the table, oblivious to the calls of McGonagall.

She found her way to the Slytherin Common Room before she broke down, letting hot tears stream down her face. Silvia allowed herself five minutes of weakness before wiping away the evidence and reapplying makeup with a quick flourish.

She stayed in the common room until a few other Slytherins came in to get books they had forgotten for the next period. The blonde haired girl gave herself a quick look over in the mirror. She checked her skirt length, untangled her hair, and grinned at her reflection.

Hurrying out of the room, she went to the library for her free period before lunch. She took a deep breath before walking in, knowing who she would find sitting on the back table in the left corner. This was the only time during the day that they had together, apart from lunch. She fixed her best smile firmly in place when he waved her over.

Sirius Black was the type of boy girls' fall head over heels for. And damn, did they fall in their hundreds. He was confident, his smile could sweep even the most uptight girl off her feet. He was handsome, not boyish, but more rugged. There was always a hint of danger in the atmosphere when he was around.

He was surrounded by admires all the time who thought he could do no wrong. So wrong was exactly what he did. From pranks to breaking hearts, his smouldering eyes and keen mind did the job. Sirius was famed for his looks, deep but mischievous eyes stared out at Silvia from under a mass of straight black hair that lay perfectly. The Slytherin girl's smile wavered slightly as she caught sight of his toned arms; his shirt sleeves pushed up to his elbows. His tie was loose and the top buttons undone to give off the typical 'rebel without a cause' look.

"Hey sweetie." His dulcet tones usually made her melt, but today she had hardened herself to his charm.

"Hi Sirius." Her fake smile widened as she sat down next to him, pulling out her books before leaning in to give him a kiss. She pulled back quickly to tease him, and smirked when she saw his eyes where still closed, waiting for more. But he would be waiting a long time.

They talked of meaningless things, all the while Silvia considered her yelling match from earlier. Could he really be capable of such things? And if he was, could she really let him go? She'd been with boys before, but none had made her thrill as much as Mr Black.

"Sirius," she began, "why can't we tell people about us?"

"Sweetie, we've been over this." He sighed and leaned in towards her. She fought the urge to slide away. "Would you like everyone knowing? Being put in the spotlight like that? Not to mention how much my friends would rip us if we were ever around together. Don't you see how much easier it is for us now?" He placed a hand under her chin and looked at her. "You know how I feel about you, and we both know that we are together. Isn't that enough?" He leaned in and kissed her lightly.

"I suppose." Silvia managed to say when he had pulled away.

"Good." He smirked, "It will be our special secret."

Something clicked in her mind, those words, she had heard them before…

Michelle. He had said the same to Michelle Parker, that stupid Hufflepuff. Silvia was not one to be made a fool out of, and something inside her snapped.

"Did you say that to Michelle too last night? When you snuck out to meet her?" Her face twisted up in pain and hatred as she realized the truth. She could see the shock in his eyes even though the light in the library was poor.

"Who?"

"What about Cassie? That nice little Ravenclaw girl? Did you sit here and tell her the exact same thing? Did you hold her and tell her she was the only one you wanted?"

"Sweetie-"

"Don't you sweetie me! I've taken had enough of your crap Black." She spat his last name out, her throat tightening in fury.

"I don't know what you're talking about sweetie, but are you saying you don't trust me?" He stared at her, and Silvia's heart sunk. What if she had been wrong? What if they were all lying and here she was, ruining her chances with Sirius?

But then a thought flashed across her mind, fleeting and taunting.

"You say I know how you feel. But you've never actually told me. So Sirius, how do you feel about me?"

"Well at the moment I'm disappointed with you! I thought we really had something. But without trust," He shrugged, "I don't think I can be with someone who doesn't trust me. I'm sorry." But his face showed no sorrow, no regret. His mouth was twisted into a fake frown, but his eyes still showed the initial shock of being caught out.

Silvia couldn't form words to express her rage so she lifted up one perfectly manicured hand and slapped him with all the force she could muster. The she grabbed her books with one hand and spun around, walking away from the perfect boy she had pinned all her hopes on.

Through blurred eyes she found an empty aisle. She sat down by the wall, and picked up a book pretending to read the back of it.

"Creatures of the night is a thrilling read, showing you exotic real animals which many have never heard of…"

But she could not keep herself distracted for long. The tears overflowed and her gut felt like it had fallen to the floor. Silvia didn't realise how long she had sat there silently before she heard movement from the other end of the bookcase. It must have been forty five minutes or more, long enough for the Library to get busy. She hurriedly wiped her eyes on the back of her hand, and took a shuddering breath.

"Hello? Are you okay down there?"

She risked a glance to see the speaker, praying that the dim light hid her red eyes. But the person was facing away from the light and she couldn't make out who it was.

"Yes, I-I'm fine." But her voice cracked, giving her away. She mentally kicked herself.

"No you're not." The voice was soft, but defiantly masculine. He walked towards her and crouched down, leaning to look into her face.

The light had shifted, and she could make out the muddy blonde colour of his hair, the concern in his eyes, and the curved shape of his nose. Silvia gave herself another mental beating. It was one of his friends. She couldn't place his name at the moment, but Silvia had defiantly seen him hanging around with that prick on more than one occasion.

"I am, really." She chocked out.

"Okay, so you're either in denial or just don't want to talk about it." He smiled wirily. "And to be honest I'm not great on the whole comfort thing."

She laughed unexpectedly, "N-Neither am I. I can listen to problems, but I can't offer any advice."

"Exactly." He sat on the floor next to her properly. "So, I know you're a seventh year, but I'm sorry to say I don't know your name."

"Silvia. I'm in Slytherin." She smiled, gaining control over her emotions at last.

"Nice to meet you Silvia, even if it odd circumstances. I'm Remus." The blonde haired girl wanted the earth to open up and swallow her. Not only was he one of its friends, he was one of its best friends. One of the chosen few in their stupid 'Marauders' group. Silvia always thought it was stupid to give themselves names, maybe it was funny in first year, but in seventh year it was just immature and stupid.

She couldn't muster a reply, so just nodded.

"So, is there anyone you want me to get for you? Or are you having fun here reading…" He picked up her book and let out a short laugh, "Creatures of the Night; the complete guide to any unsolved mysteries and things that go bump in the night. Really?" Remus cocked an eyebrow and Silvia couldn't help but smile back.

"No, I just got it as a distraction." She thought about his other offer for a moment. "Do you know Lily Evans, the Head Girl?"

He rolled his eyes and laughed, "Boy, do I know her? That's a tough one." His joke was lost on Silvia who just stared at him like he was slightly mad. "Yes, I saw her a minute ago actually. She was sitting with that smart Cassie Kolewitz girl and Michelle in Hufflepuff.."

Silvia grimaced, unsure whether that was a good group of people to go and find in her current state. But she had decided her plan of action while sitting crying. It was something she rarely did, and if Sirius had made her sob, he would pay. Somehow, someway, he would pay.

"Do you know where they were sitting?"

He nodded, "They were by the Histories of Magic section."

"Okay, thank you Remus." She managed to get to her feet gracefully, and smoothed down her skirt. He stood up slowly as well.

She was about to walk away when she looked up at him, and up, and up. She caught him looking at her worryingly. "You sure you're okay Silvia?"

"Positive." She smiled sweetly, touched by his kindness. "Oh, Remus, has my mascara smudged?" She looked up to the ceiling.

"What?"

"Are there black lines all down my face?" Poor boy, she thought, I must have given him the shock of his life.

"Oh, err no?"

"Great." She smiled, "Sorry, I don't want to go around looking a wreck all day. Oh and Remus?"

"Yes?"

"You won't… you won't tell anyone about this will you?"

"Of course not. As long as you don't tell on me."

It was Silvia's turn to be confused, "What?"

He lifted a book up that he had taken off the shelf, it was entitled One Hundred Ways to Sabotage in the Dark.

Typical Marauder. "If I hear anything, I'll keep my mouth shut." She assured him.

She didn't know why she was smiling to herself as she made her way to the other end of the Library. The girls were easy enough to find, she just had to follow the sound of Michelle and Cassie arguing.

They stopped when she sat down next to Lily, who gave her a tentative smile.

"Sirius and I broke up." She declared to the two glaring girls.

"So did we." Cassie sighed.

"I'd like to make it clear that I broke up with him." Michelle stated haughtily.

"Really? You all did?" Lily was shocked.

"When did you do it?" Silvia frowned, but she wasn't surprised.

Cassie spoke first, "After Transfiguration he was waiting outside, so I didn't exactly delay it."

"He found me about half an hour ago." Michelle sniffed lightly, and Lily fought the urge to roll her eyes. "He said it would be better if we were friends, and I wasn't going to grovel like some toad at his feet."

"I told him what I thought of him, and he said we couldn't have a relationship without trust. So I slapped him." Silvia shrugged, "He fed me that same line of a 'special secret' that he gave Michelle."

"I can't believe people can be like that." Lily shook her head. "He really should be shot or something." The other girls were all slightly taken aback by her aggressive tone.

"Lily!" Cassie teased, "What kind of Head Girl are you?"

"No! I like this new Head Girl wrath." Michelle laughed.

Silvia on the other hand was stunned. Here were four girls from each of the four houses seemingly getting along. It made no sense.

"We should get him back though. We can't be treated like this." She muttered.

Michelle shook her head, "Typical Slytherin, always about the revenge."

"Well excuse me for not wanting to be hurt! And not wanting other girls to suffer the same as us!"

"Hey! Fighting won't help." Lily sighed, trying to be the peacekeeper.

"What do you have in mind Silvia?" The Ravenclaw girl leaned in, eyes lit up with a glint of mischief.

"It would have to be good, something to really hurt him. He is the 'king of pranks' after all."

"He probably knows every trick in the book." Cassie agreed.

"Well whatever it is, count me in." Michelle propped her head up on her elbow. "I'm sick of people thinking I'm some superficial stuck up girl who has no feelings. I do want a nice relationship."

Cassie and Silvia nodded, and the three of them turned to stare at the Head Girl.

"Wait…" She begun, "I don't even know him. I'm not really involved in any of this."

"But you've got a cool head Lily!" Silvia begged, "You stop us all from arguing with each other. You said he deserves some sort of payback."

"What do you suggest? Like Cassie said, he'll know the counters to every stunt we pull."

"Which is why," Silvia let slip an evil smirk, "we hit him where it really hurts. He can laugh off embarrassment; he has friends around him to support him. We need to take out his loving and adoring public." She waved an arm around her at girls sat at various tables, then lowered her voice. "We take away his fan girls, his ego deflates, and with any luck everyone sees him for what he truly is."

"But how?"

"… I haven't thought of that yet." The other three girls groaned. "But we have four weeks come up with an idea."

"Why four weeks?" Michelle asked.

"Because that's how long we have to work on the Transfiguration work, and if we start hanging around together after then its going to look odd." Cassie supplied.

"Exactly." Silvia nodded.

"But as of yet, we have no idea how to get back at him." Lily sighed.

"But come on, we have the intelligent Ravenclaw, the courageous Griffindor, the popular Hufflepuff, and the evil Slytherin. How can we fail?" Michelle piped up.

"I prefer the term determined actually." Silvia muttered.

Cassie suppressed her laughter badly.

"So we're decided?" the Slytherin girl asked.

"I'm in." Cassie nodded.

"Me too." Michelle raised her eyebrows at Lily, and she found herself the focus of all the girls' attention once more.

"Fine." She sighed, "But nothing that will involve me loosing this." She gestured to her Head Girl badge.

"Don't worry Head Girl," Michelle smirked, "That will come in very useful to us I'm sure."

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