Essay.
Negi laid back against the pillow, and set the folder on his lap, opening it. Yesterday he had assigned the class a small task. They had to write about two feelings or emotions that they often felt, why they felt them, and what they liked about those feelings and emotions. They had handed them in this morning, and now that class was finished, he had some time to mark them. He shuffled through them, and glanced at a few of the students' papers, looking for the obvious ones he knew to be poorly written.
Eva-san, he knew, probably hadn't done the assignment, but he had seen her handing a paper in, so he was curious as to what she wrote. He found her paper, and was surprised at the length of the assignment. It was only supposed to be half a page long, but hers filled the page, and took up half the backside. As he read, he discovered that Eva was actually quite frustrated with her existence, and having been trapped in her child body for so long, she was slowly losing hope of ever having her curse removed. However, the paper said, when Negi came along, things slowly seemed to brighten, and get better, and now she had a glimmer of hope, whereas, without Negi, she never would have. Negi was actually quite surprised that Evangeline would admit to being frustrated and lonely, then describe how her attitude had come along and changed for the better when he had started teaching. He smiled, and flipped it over to read the back. It was a continuation of the front, and summarized her whole essay, then, Negi read the last three lines.
Now that you've read it, burn it! Keep your mouth closed, or I will drain your whole life's blood! No one must know that I've written this! Don't test ME!
Negi smiled, and put her paper aside. She had obviously put a lot of effort into it, yet despite that Negi knew she would be embarrassed if people read it. He decided that she would get a high mark indeed, and flipped through a few more.
Among the other students, Kaede's jumped out at him, as she described her training, and the two feelings she had picked were the feelings of wholeness and completeness that she got whenever she trained. She always felt so good during and after training, and she said that there were no two better feelings in the whole world.
He picked through a few more, and among Sat-chan's description of the joy she got from cooking, and the happiness she got from the looks of enjoyment of the faces of the people who tasted her cooking, there was also Ku-Fei's paper.
He struggled through the broken english, but the more he read, the easier it was to understand. She wrote about her chinese martial arts, and the two feelings she got most from them were a huge sense of strength, and confidence. She wrote about a time before she practiced martial arts, she wasn't too strong, and her confidence wasn't that high, but when she started training, she found immense strength, and a complete confidence that was almost impossible to under-mine today. She wrote about how it was the wisest decision she had made, starting martial arts, and said that it had improved her mind, body and spirit beyond anything else.
Negi flipped through a few others, before he landed on Konoka's paper. He blushed, reading the title, for printed in big block letters were the words "LOVE/LUST"
Negi wondered for a second what she was doing submitting something like that, then remembered that he had announced that he didn't care what kinds of feelings or emotions they were, as long as they were ones that were important and played a role in their lives.
He looked at the 1/2 page full of neat writing, and decided to read it.
We were asked to write about two feelings that we had experienced, and that played a role in our lives. I, Konoka Konoe, chose the two feelings of love and lust. First off, I do love many people, whether they be my friends, classmates, or even my teacher. (Hi, Negi-kun!!) However, this is an amiable love, and is akin to friendship, there's no deep love there. But there is someone I love more than that, someone I love more than I'd ever love anyone else, a different love than the kind I feel for everyone else. This love is the kind that I'm doing my essay on today, and it's this love that I feel every day and it's this love that influences my choices, and drives me to do better at everything I try. This love, I describe it as an attachment to someone's emotional attributes, a yearning for their heart. The thoughts they have, the thoughts they share, their intellect, their dedication to their arts, and their kind words to me, their actions, the way they show that they care, all these things are things that I love about this person, and are the reason I love them.
Lust is also a feeling that I have almost every day, but it is not for many people, it is not even for a few people, it is but for one person, and it is that same person I love, that is the person I lust for. This lust, I describe it as a yearning for this person's body. It has nothing to do with how the person thinks, or acts, or even how they treat you. It is a physical desire for that person's body, and it is a powerful emotion. It is a straight forward need for that person's body, and has everything to do with their body, and nothing to do with their mind and heart. It is a powerful need to be close to that person's body, to touch it, embracing both their sexuality and your own, exploring them as they've never been explored before. I often lust for a single person, sometimes so strongly that it is difficult to control, but my love for that person always overpowers it, and in the end I end up thinking about that persons thoughts and feelings, instead of their body.
Love and lust can both be single emotions, one can exist without the other; to love is to care about someone because they are special to you, and they treat you kindly, and you want to return the favor; to lust is to want only their body, and is a terrible, but at the same time, awesome feeling. Relationships can be built on pure love, or on pure lust, and they can last, both can be happy, but me, I'm content with both, I think they keep each in check, making sure neither emotion becomes too overwhelming.
I both love and lust for a single person, and I'm content with that, but sometimes...sometimes I wish she knew just how much I love and lust for her.
Negi smiled, and decided that she too would have a very high mark. There was just one thing that was bothering him...He decided to just write a note on the back of the paper, and she would see it when he handed back their assignments with their marks on it.
Excellent paper, Konoka, very well written. Only one thing jumps out at me though, and that's the fifth sentence. You should never start off a sentence with the word 'but', because that's a joiner word, and is used to conjoin sentences. Excellent effort otherwise!!
A/N: Just a short idea that came to me late at night, hope you enjoyed it. Please review.