I'm not sure what to do; I can't believe that I'm doubting myself, especially at such a late stage in this game. It seems ridiculous that after all this time I…no, before it never mattered, I knew everything would be okay. But now, I'm so close to losing you, can I really just leave things like this?
I know you want answers from me. Even without seeing you, I know this will be bothering you. I'd like to believe that it is nothing more than the fact that you don't know, but I know it's quite likely that this will be hurting you. I am sorry for that. I never intended to hurt you; I should never have allowed that to happen in the first place…
When you came to me that night, I was surprised, I don't mind admitting that. I hadn't seen that coming, what happened after, I certainly hadn't expected. You caught me off-guard and in the heat of things I let you stay, when I should have pushed you away.
That doesn't mean that I never cared, for me, it means the opposite. I knew very well that you would have to leave, so I should never have let you get close. For some reason though, I could never bring myself to push you away. I enjoyed those nights with you, more than you will ever know. For the first time in so very long, you gave me another reason to exist, and I cherished that.
However, we both had other things we had to do. Our paths were never to cross, so things were always fated to end that way. Perhaps I should have said something, but wouldn't that have just made things harder? Wasn't it so much easier to get on with your life, without some silly excuse you wouldn't have understood?
You don't understand my 'world'; we are far too different, even though we are so very similar. Our beliefs and loyalties do not lie together, and that is something we cannot, and will not change.
I know you want me to explain all this to you, but perhaps through that bond, you will understand my feelings. Before this all ends, I hope you find your understanding, and your peace. I cannot come to you, even though I want to; we both know that. Neither of us can change who we are, what we believe, or how we feel. I know that despite everything, the love we shared then still exists, hopefully that will be enough for us both.
Good bye love. I truly hope that some day, in some other form or life, we can be reunited again. Until then, all I can do is pray for the safety of your strong and resolute soul. I love you, now and forever, on this, I swear.
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As I said, this is a one-shot companion piece to Pre-Emancipation. Anyone have any ideas on the pairing? I'd be interested to know what people think, now that both sides have been shown.
Anyway, hope you enjoyed. Laters.