A/N why am i doing this? idk poor life decisions mostly. Each chapter is going to be with a different boy. Let me know which one you want to see first! The picture is what I thought Arin would look like by the way! Messy brown hair and a dumb smile.
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As I closed my eyes for the last time, I was flooded with regret. The last ray of hope faded away from me. It hurt, I regretted it, I felt pathetic, but I saw nothing else in my future. At seventeen, Roxanne Roberts wanted to die. But I guess I really wanted to start living instead.
My eyes opened once again, unexpectedly. The light was bright, my limbs were sore, and everything was blurry. When I opened my mouth, words could barely come out. 'Goo's' and 'Ah's' came out of my mouth instead of a 'what the fuck'
Looking down at me was a smiling women whose hair was clinging to the sides of her pale face. She was my new mother. I rejected her. Breast feeding was a no. Her feeding me was a no. I made her life horrible. To be honest, I didn't really care. It didn't feel real to me.
The new family I was born into named me Arin, I never liked the name, but never bothered changing it. They said God named me. I never believed in god, but I didn't mind people who did. What I did mind was when it was forced upon me. That's what they did, they shoved the holy bible down my throat everyday. I never wanted to kick god in the balls before.
I kept secrets from them, they never knew I was fluent in English, that I skipped class more than I should have, that I never listened during church and never actually prayed. Over time though, they grew on me.
At nine, the fire happened. It happened at night while we were asleep. Everyone said that an angel protected me, but if I really was, why would a beam fall on my back? Why would the angel let my new parents die? I didn't love my new parents-but I did care for them, as much as I'd hate to admit, and that was taken away from me. I then moved into the church, the nuns taking care of me and the head priest ready to scold me at any moment. But I didn't mind. I didn't care. I knew what path I wanted to follow in my life, and it didn't have to do with anything holy. I was going to become who I was supposed to be before I died, what ever it was going to be. I'll figure it out.
As a kid, I was pretty determined.
At ten, a new priest came to our church with his daughter, and I knew I was fucked. In my past life, I played video games and watched shit anime to take my mind off of things. Diabolik lovers-was the worst show to ever be reincarnated in. And there I was. Looking into a pair of pink eyes destined to be filled with sorrow and fear.
I was quick to befriend her to say the least. I was quick to make amends with the church. Anything to get her father to like me. I was/am a manipulative little shit. I'm not going to lie. He knew I didn't trust him, even when I was ten I had an odd aura about me. But he never pressed it. When I started hiding behind him when newcomers visited, how I could never leave the church without hugging him, he stopped viewing me as a cold child. He thought that he 'fixed me' Especially when I asked him if I could call him dad. I think I may have broken his heart.
At fourteen, Yui and I became a dangerous pair. I went back to my habits of my past life, drinking and staying out late while she remained the same. We stayed as friends, closer than ever before, many were surprised when they learned we weren't sisters. Our conflicting personality somehow meshed together well. My crude jokes became expected and her sassy comments became normal. It felt safe, and I started to feel happy.
That year, I got my first boyfriend. Yui didn't like him, and the church had no comment as I knew to keep it a secret. Well, for a little while.
At sixteen I went to church with two little holes in my neck (skillful covered with a scarf) But Yui's father could already tell. He asked me to talk to him in private after service. Once we were alone, I burst into tears. Acting like the innocent girl he wanted me to be. I said I was trying hard to be tough, but I couldn't do it anymore. He hugged me and told me he would take care of the boy who did it. Half of my cries were real. Half.
I really liked the boy who did it, actually. But not enough to take a bullet for him. I never saw my first boyfriend again. At that age, I should have been messing around with vampires anyways. You shouldn't mess with vampires at any age, really. I outwardly searched for him, I needed to confirm that they were real for myself. I wanted to know what I would be dealing with for Yui. I loved the adventuring, the anxiety, the fear, of learning about the supernatural.
All were false, except for one book in the basement of the church. It was exactly what the vampires here were actually like. I memorized the whole book in a week.
After that experience, I acted scared, jumping at every sound. All to gain the sympathy of Yui's dad. But I knew I could never actually care for the man. He's going to send his daughter off as a sacrifice. He's trash. But I found my new obsession. My own thing, a secret from Yui. I read books and books about vampires. Different theories and all.
At seventeen, I glued myself to Yui. Her father thought our relationship was sweet. The day was around the corner, and I knew it. Tomorrow night, he'll tell her about his trip. I ate dinner with them as usual. I suggested going to the bookstore afterwards. We walked there alone, normally our small neighbor had no crime.
Yui told me she was done shopping and was going to wait outside. Out of the corner of my eye, through the window, I saw a man approach her. He wanted to take her wallet and her body. In a rush of adrenaline, I ran out of the store. I punched his stomach and kicked his side. He staggered back, I took it as an opportunity to uppercut him. He was on the ground in a second.
I grabbed Yui's hand and started running back to her home. Her father looked at Yui, concern rushing over his face. "Are you okay?" He asked. She meckling nodded.
"Arin took care of me-she knocked the man out and got me to a safe place."
He looked at me with appreciation. "Arin, thank you."
"I think... I would die for Yui. Don't worry about her, I'll always have her back." I nearly surprised myself when I said that. Then I think I saw gears turning in his head. "We're basically sisters at this point, right?"
"Arin, I'm leaving for a trip overseas, would you mind accompanying Yui to her relatives house later this week?"
Yui looked at her father in shock, "Why didn't you tell me this sooner, father?"
But I speak up quickly, "O-Of course!" I stutter out. "Wherever Yui goes, I go!"
He smiles. This persona I've built up, a girl who always needs a guiding hand, a girl who was loyal, she was slowly sinking into the real me.
The day was now here. No more remains about my younger years. My suitcase stayed clasped in my hand. My short brown hair was pushed behind my ears, my old worn sweat jacket was on me, it was a security blanket. It is cliche to say it was the one thing of my dad's I got out before the fire completely drenched my old home? I'll just keep that trivia to myself.
"Arin, why do you look to anxious?" Yui asked me.
"I guess...whenever I leave home, I never end up coming back." Yui gave me a worried look. It was true.
"This isn't forever, we'll be back before we know it." The thing is, even if I made Yui not go, she still has Cordelia's heart in her. She's trapped already.
"Yea." I say. Our luggage was put in the back as we took our seats in the car. The drive down was fun, we were talking and talking. When I looked at her, I still felt a pain in my heart. I didn't mean to actually grow attached. All I wanted was a front. Look at me now though, calling this girl my sister.
I took out my iPod for a moment, and Yui looked at me in shock. iPods weren't exactly allowed in church, and since me and her practically lived there...well. You understand.
I put a finger to my lips and smiled. "We're not at church, are we?"
"I guess..you're right."
I scootched closer to her, placing an earbud in her ear. Hallelujah by Panic! at the disco. She laughed when she heard it. "Hey, I'm trying! This is the closest thing to a religious song in my collection!"
We both laughed as we listened to punk trash music together. Before we knew it, the car stopped. We looked out the window immediately in awe. My heart started to beat fast, I've never seen a house so amazing before. The anime and game didn't do it justice.
Then my heartbeat slowed. I have to control everything about myself here, don't I? Even my thoughts. I gulped. "Well, let's go." I say with a smile. Got to keep the mood up for Yui. "Ready for an adventure?"
I don't look at her while I say it, she would know I was lying. She knows a lot about me, but only what I want her to know. I step out of the car as I hear the driver tell Yui good luck. We take our luggage out and the gates in front of us open. The car drives away. We were alone, for a little bit. I looked at Yui through the corner of my eye.
We took a step past the estate and our fates were sealed. We're going to die here.
A rain dropped fell on my forehead, snapping me out of my thoughts. "Let's hurry," Yui said. I followed behind her, nearly dragging my feet. She goes to knock on the door, and they open.
"Creepy." I mutter. "But it's better than staying out here and getting wet." I say and walk past her inside. Let's get this show on the road. I've always hated waiting.
"Arin-" Yui started, but she knew I was right. We just can't wait out side forever. She walked next to me and spotted the red headed vampire sleeping on the couch. I stuck to the wall, out of sight. I focus on my breathing. You would think after knowing what would happen after all this time, I wouldn't be so anxious.
"Arin, he isn't breathing-" She says out to me. "Call 9-1-1
"Well, if he's dead, what good would a doctor do?" I say, quieter. She furrowed her eyebrows at me while muttering that now wasn't the time for jokes. She took out her phone and started to call, but then the man on the couch awoke.
"The dead man isn't dead. How disappointing." I say, loud enough for him to hear. Don't touch Yui, don't touch Yui. If I remember right, then Laito is the one who can read minds. I have a little while before he shows up. But if I'm already altering how things are supposed to go, then he could turn up whenever. Fuck.
"Yui, come over here. I guess we got the wrong house. I'll get a taxi." I say, back tracking so hard. I know it's too late. It was too late when I first met her, but fuck I'm still going to try. But as Yui went to get up, Ayato pinned her on the couch. I hold back a yell.
"Wow. Woo her. Woo her." I sarcastically mumbled, taking a step to him, "Let her go, and we'll be on our way."
"Pancake rudely woke yours truly up, I think she should pay the price." He says, licking her neck. She shakes in fear. Right as he went to bite, he was cut off.
"Ayato, please refrain from such activities in the common area" At the sound of the voice, I took a step back to the wall away from everyone's eyes.
"Well, that was dull." The redhead complained. He released Yui and she ran to the butler like vampire. Reiji. He is my least favorite one to be honest.
"Please-help!" She begs him, "There has to be some sort of misunderstanding."
I put my headphones and listen to a low volume. I don't want to hear any of this. It made my stomach turn. "And you are?" He looks down at her through the corner of his eyes.
"Yui Komori" She says, "and this is-"
"I'm Arin Relic" I say in a stronger tone. "Yui's father said we were supposed to live here."
"I heard nothing of the sort." He says, "Ayato, explain this to me."
"Huh, how should I know?" He says, then looks at Yui with the tilt of his head. "You never said anything about that, pancake."
"That's because you attack me out of nowhere!" She complained. He scoffed in response. Before she could question her new nickname, 'pancake', I but in.
"Excuse me," I said, "I'm not one for wasting time. May we talk about in a more serious manner, and not the whole, 'he said she said' thing?"
"Of course, Miss Relic, come this way" He said, not bothering to make eye contact. I turn and motion Yui to follow, not wanting her to spend anymore time around Ayato. "Please see to their luggage." He said to a butler that emerged from the shadows.
"Now, in the interest of formality, tell us about yourself and how you came to enter this house." He says. I stayed standing against the wall. Reiji only seemed to focus on Yui, not that I'm complaining.
"Um..Right, I.." She started. I gave her a encouraging smile. She can talk to herself and-god damn it! That laugh. I know who it belongs to.
"What do we have here?" The voice rang. "Is it true? Is there really a cute little human girl here?" On the stair wall railing, the fedora bearing vampire looked down at Yui, a smirk plastered on his face. Man, am I really that unnoticable? I'm actually really happy about that. Well, I'm used to it. How else would I have been able to skip school so easily.
Out of nowhere, Laito appeared next to Yui. I mentally groaned. I try not to outwardly frown. But I let the thought of how ugly his fedora was pass through my mind. Before I could process it, he licks her cheek, "Mm, you smell so nice and sweet."
"Please let me have a taste too," Another vampire appears. Kanato, before he could get any closer to her, I spoke up. "May I interject?" I don't bother waiting for a yes or no. My voice was strong and not open for argument "Yui's father did indeed call. I believe a Shuu Sakamaki picked up the phone and discussed this with him."
"Your's truly-"
"Lame." A voice complained. "I'm sick of you calling yourself 'your's truly.'"
"Screw you!" Ayato jumped from his seat in anger, "I know it's you, Subaru. Show yourself!"
I sighed, leaving my question unanswered. I fall back against the wall. My voice going unnoticed. Even though I know the answer, I can't act like I do. I start to zone out again "How dare you interrupt my precious sleep." Subaru said, shooting eye daggers at Yui.
"H..How did you get in?"
"Yui, shut up. Please." I say to her, she looked slightly hurt. But listening to her talk just hurt my heart.
"My questions first!" He nearly shouts. His fist hitting the wall that I was standing against.
"Hey! Watch it!" I yell at him.
"hm? Where did you come from?" He was actually surprised. Vampires have an amazing sense of smell, how did he not notice me? This is some bullshit.
"Does anything actually get done around here?." I mumble. I run a hand through my hair and glance at Reiji.
"I apologize for my brothers poor manners" He says through a sigh, "Shuu, is this true?"
"Hm?" A boy that seemingly appeared out of nowhere lied on a couch. "Huh? Oh, yeah. A man from the church called. He said we'll be receiving two guests and to treat them with respect."
Then, they all freeze for a moment.
"Are you telling me that pancake and whats-her-name here are the perspective brides?" Ayato asked.
"Oh, is that all?" Kanato said.
"More like a sacrifice then a bride."
Breath, Arin, Breath. I kept telling myself. The sleeping vampire opened his mouth again. "Oh, right...He also mentioned not to kill them."
"Eh, really?" Latio asked with a smile. "That means we're going to have a verrrry long relationship with them."
I frown. I walk over and stand behind Yui. A glare on my face. "Relationship, noun, the way in which two or more concepts, objects, or people are connected, or the state of being connected." I say. "I'm sorry to say, but no one will be having any relationship with Yui."
A smirk appeared on Latios and Ayato's face, as if I challenged them. Maybe I did.
"It appears that there is no misunderstanding." Reiji says while pushing up the frames of his glasses. I let go of Yui and let out a sigh, retreating back to the wall. I need to calm down. I can't afford to lose my cool. I put my headphones back in after they fell out when I grabbed Yui. I know who all these fucks are, I don't need to bother listening to Reiji introduce them. If I did, I think I would puke.
"I...don't believe this..!" Yui gasped, "No one told us anything about brides...and besides, you're all...kind of weird."
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"ahAHAHAHAHH" I broke the silence, That was really funny, did she say that in the show? I hold my stomach and started laughing. Tears threatening to come out. Oh my god, ohhh my god. "Yui have I ever told you that you're the best?"
She smiled at me meekly, but still took a step back. "I..need to contact my father."
She goes to search her pockets, only to realise that Ayato still has her phone. She goes to take it, but he holds it right out of her reach, teasing her. Then, Subaru grabs it and crushes it in his hands. I feel like a dick, watching this all happen, but what else could I do?
I said I would die for Yui, and now I don't fear death as much as I did before I died. What's holding me back? Why am I being so selfish? I look away at the scene unfolding in front of me.
"You're going to become very good friends with us." I heard Latio say to Yui. I wanted to puke.
"Reiji, do you mind telling me where my room is?" I can't stand watching this train wreck happen.
"Ah? Is slut-chan already leaving?" Laito asked, when I looked over, him, Kanato, and Ayato where all teasing Yui. But then I went back to what he just said, Slut? I wasn't expecting that.
"Is...that supposed to be an insult.?" I muse out loud, but I shake my head and let out a sigh. "Really though, I need to lie down. My back is-"
Yui ran from the grasp of the brothers, but tripped and scraped her leg on the ground. I sigh but smiled lightly mixed with worry. She's always been clumsy. "Yui-are you okay?" I outreach a hand, but she didn't grab it. She was frozen.
Oh. "Yui, chill, I got you" I say to her with the corner of my mouth twitching. She struggles up but to no avail, ignore my help, she takes out the rosary on her necklace and tries to fend them off with it. I look down at her with a little bit of embarrassment. "I uh, don't think that's going to work, Yui." I say to her. "Vampires in fairy tales are much different from the ones in real life."
"Oi, what do you even know about vampires?" Ayato rudely asked me.
"It's called reading. Crazy, right?" I say with the roll of my eyes. I feel like I'm going to pay for that comment later.
I felt arms rest on my shoulders gently, while a mouth was close to my ear. My heart did not race, nor did it slow. It remained the same. "Nfufu, Slut-chan is rebellious, isn't she?" I ignore the vampire, and instead I kept my focus on Yui. "Well, I guess we'll be getting to know each other quite well, won't we? Don't worry, I haven't forgotten about you." He purrs. Ignore, ignore, ignore.
"Yui-" I saw the fear in her eyes. God, I needed to hug her but before I could, she ran. "Yui!"
"Her manners are deplorable."
"Sheesh, can you blame her?" I mumble. I take a step away from Latio.
"Oi, why are you taking this so lightly?" Ayato demanded my response. Before I knew it, it was Latio and Kanato where gone. Off to harass Yui, I suppose.
"Hm? My old friend was a vampire. He told me a bunch of shit about you guys. The Sakamakis : The pretty boys with mommy problems." I put my hands up in defense immediately with a cheeky smile. The words fell out before I could stop them. It's not my fault that I'm amazing at lying. My ex knew nothing about the Sakamakis, but it's the best scapegoat for knowing what I know. "His words, not mine"
"Hm. How dare he say such a thing about ore-sama." Ayato scoffed. "Where is he? What's his name?"
"I don't know man, he's dead. Yui's father killed him." I said, "Don't tell Yui, ahah..." I turn to Reiji. "Anyways...my room. Mind telling me where it is?"
He sighed and pushed up his glasses. "Third floor, second door to the left."
"Thank you, and sorry for acting out earlier. Normally I'd never do that."
"I'll let it slide today, but watch yourself in the future, mortal." He says, "I won't hesitate to punish you."
"Mhm."
I fell on my bed, my rest was nowhere near comforting me. Yui isn't going to die, harassed? Yea. And I'm fucking trash for not helping her. What was I thinking? What will me being here do?
This is torture. Watching someone I care about get hurt. All they do is drink her blood, I have to keep reminding myself. They don't downright rape her, as much as it feels like it does. But..With Latio, there is that one scene at the church where it's heavily implied.
I just have to prevent that, right? The best case scenario for Yui is Ayato, as disgusting as it may be. So even though it isn't much, I can prevent that from happening.
I can be her shoulder to cry on and always be there to make her laugh.
Yeah, that's why I'm here.
I'm not going to let my past affect me here. Fuck off negativity.