I sat down stiffly in a chair, my back straight against the leather chair. I sat in the back corner, leaning against the dark wood table. I recently found myself preferring corners, so that I can see everyone and everything going on.
People of various states were also sitting around the edges of the table. Some were speaking to eachother, laughing. Others were looking bored and with one guy, quite horny. My eyes were immediately drawn to one girl, relaxing back against the chair with what seemed to be all the confidence in the world in the palm of her hand. She noticed my staring and I immediately blushed, glancing away, cursing myself for being stupid.
But when I snuck another look at her, she was smiling at me.
My face felt hot and I could feel a suspicious red flush creep up my cheeks.
I whispered to the only vaguely familiar face in the room, which was my therapist. "May I use the bathroom?" I was barely audible, even to myself.
The panic was rising in waves, like the ocean pounding mercilessly against the shore during a hurricane.
"Yes, of course!" She directed me into the bathroom, and I rushed into it like I was about to win a prize. I was breathing heavily and on the verge of tears.
'Conceal, don't feel,' I harshly chastised myself in my mind.
I nearly prayed to God.
I returned ten minutes later, significantly worse but more composed. I walked with false conviction.
The small woman in the front of the room pushed her chair back as she stood up and excitedly clapped hands together. She had short brown hair and big green eyes. Smiling, she said, "I'm glad to see you all here! As you can see, we have a new group member today. How about we all go around the circle and introduce ourselves?"
Groans reached my ears, but I didn't see the mouths they were attached to; I was still glaring at my lap, hands fiddling with my thick blonde braid.
"Well, I'll go first then," she said, laugh evident in his voice. "My name is Rapunzel and I am your therapist here. Olaf, how about you go next?" The woman said.
A small boy with dark eyes bounced in his seat. He seemed actually excited to meet me, which was a first. I laughed mirthlessly in my head.
"My name is Olaf and I'm a freshman at Arendelle Highschool and I like warm hugs!" He all but shouted. He spazzed in his seat, being a picture of constant activity.
"And why are you here, Olaf?" Rapunzel asked softly.
"I have, um, ADHD."
"Thank you for going first, Olaf. How about we continue around the circle until we meet our new member?"
"Flynn, you next!" Said Olaf, excitedly.
The next boy was the one who looked like he was about to go tear off someone's pants and partake in his most basic instincts. He stared at me, trying to make a sexy expression, but it failed and looked like he just bit into a very sour lemon. "May I just say — hey, how ya doin'? What's your name? How's your day goin'?"
"Eugene," sighed Rapunzel. "We've spoken about this before. And please give me back my pen!"
"Fine, damn, don't get your panties in a twist," Eugene said with a wave of the hand, tossing Rapunzel her pen back. "I'm Eugene, but I prefer to be called Rider, Flynn Rider. I'm a senior, at Corona High. I like to steal shit. But I don't do backstory."
"I'm Kristoff, I'm a senior at Arendelle High, and I'm an alcoholic." A blonde boy with a big nose and a deep voice stated. He gripped a pen really hard, and it looked like he was about to break it. Between his introduction and the next, he muttered to himself, "I could really use a fucking drink."
And then the next person introduced herself with an absolute heart-stopping smile. The corners of her lips turned up like a cat stalking its prey, about to pounce on an unsuspecting mouse. Big teal eyes roamed over every visible inch of myself, and I curled up to make myself small. "Hey, I'm Anna." He voice slid over each syllable, her tongue rolling around her incredibly inviting mouth. I shifted uncomfortably in my seat, some inappropriate thoughts drifting through my mind.
"I'm a sophomore at Arendelle. I'm here because I have depression and I was in an abusive relationship."
Then, all of the eyes in the room turned to me.
My voice stumbled over my words and I winced as I stuttered. "I'm, uh, Elsa, and it's nice to meet you all, I guess." I swallowed hard because in the corner of my vision, I saw Anna leaning forward toward me. I kept my eyes tightly shut. "I'm homeschooled but I'm eighteen, so I guess that would make me a senior. I'm here because I have panic attacks and depression. I also self-harm."
Olaf gasped. "No, Elsa! Why?"
He opened his mouth to say something else but Rapunzel cut him off. "Maybe Elsa can tell us during group. Thank you very much, Elsa." Rapunzel smiled fondly at me. "Now that our introductions are done, how about we begin check-in?"
I sighed and settled back into my chair. This was going to be a long three hours.
A/N: Hello! I've published this once before, but then took it down. However, the idea has been floating around my brain for the past few days again so I decided to write it out. This is a modified version of the previously published chapter.
This was also written on an iPhone, so please excuse any mistakes.
I hope you've enjoyed the chapter. Have a great day!
