Title: I want you to love me
Author: Omano-chan
Fandom: Gokusen 2
Pairing/characters: HayatoXRyuu, includes some TsucchiXRyuu and later TakeXRyuu XD don't take it bad ^^;
Disclaimer: I don't own anything

I want you to love me

If there was something Hayato was absolutely sure about, it was that Ryuu was his best friend and said painfully beautiful and cold teen was straight. He was even wondering whether Ryuu was interested in anyone at all.

He could still vividly recall the event that made him this sure.

It happened a few years ago, when they started terrorizing Kurogin Gakuen, their gang was about to form and the number of five to settle down. It was only the beginning of the year, but the five of them were already sitting in the back of the classroom, as it suited the leaders of the class, but Tsucchi was seated next to Ryuu (- dangerously close, as Hayato stated later). And the tall teen spent suspiciously much time around the redhead who was of course ignoring him, like things that didn't catch his attention, or more likely everything that wasn't Hayato or Take. As the days slowly turned into weeks, Hayato, Take and Hyuuga started feeling more and more uncomfortable around the duo. Which they didn't show of course, or they hoped that they didn't do so, trying desperately to hide their emotions from their surroundings, but as they once looked at each other in union, they all were confused. However they didn't give it a sound. It was a silent agreement. An annoying one.

The reason of their confusion: Tsucchi was flirting with Ryuu. There were no doubt about it. And he has been. Just not that conspicuously.

The tall teen started even more and more statements to Ryuu when he wanted to grab his attention like: "Hey, beautiful, or pretty boy!" and then came some compliments about his shirt, his hair, its colour or style, he always noted whenever something was new on Ryuu.

But the only more surprising thing was: Ryuu was absolutely neutral. He didn't show if he was touched by Tsucchi's efforts of getting his attention. He didn't treat him anything special, just shot him one of his infamous killing glares and stayed at his place or just passed the teen. Nothing else. He didn't kick him in the ass, or show him a softened expression. However you still may call it some sort of success…

Hyuuga was suspicious if Ryuu was aware of the fact that Tsucchi was enthusiastically flirting him. And as Take lamented once that he couldn't stand his friend's face while daydreaming, made them sure, Tsucchi had much more in his head containing their beautiful ice-queen.

And it seemed like Hyuuga was right. Or maybe not. Even Hayato wouldn't dare to risk stating whether Ryuu let Tsucchi be so close to him, touching him, courting him – undoubtedly flirting him! the more often, the more open. And Ryuu still didn't seem to bother. They were about to come to the conclusion, that Ryuu was interested in Tsucchi, the redhead just simply can't express his feelings or didn't know how to return others' – however they weren't too willing to accept it. Hayato was just after a sleepless night and had just convinced himself that he would catch Ryuu for a very very uncomfortable but necessary talk after school. – As his best friend he had to accept this ungrateful task-

When suddenly it wasn't needed anymore.

3-D was surprisingly quietly waiting for the lesson to come to an end. The teachers finally had a quiet and unharmful day in the class. They were all down – the weather was grey, they didn't even know how they happened to drag themselves to school. Everything just happened, they didn't feel like doing or control anything. Save up for one student. One student, who was pretty excited. Which was so sensational because he was sitting next to a very-very calm, okay, dead-calm Odagiri Ryuu, rather lying on his chair, just millimeters away from falling off, with such a blank expression, that was special wearing even for this ungodly weather and his usual demotivating expressions. Hayato noted half asleep, that Tsucchi hasn't been so close to his best friend a few minutes ago, but it didn't matter too much. He got used to it. He didn't realize that Tsucchi's hand disappeared under the desk, taking advantage of his long limbs, touching Ryuu's knee. The redhead didn't react, so the other took it as an agreement and his big hand started wandering higher on Ryuu's thigh…

Suddenly a loud bang and crash shook the whole class.

Ryuu leapt at Tsucchi with such force that his desk turned over with a deafening bang and so did his chair, and the next moment the furious redhead smashed Tsucchi's head with all his might into his desk in front of him. Then grabbed his hand that had been wandering about his thigh seconds ago, twisted it behind his back, not stopping hitting him. Tsucchi was helpless of shock of the sudden aggressive action. And so was the whole class. The teacher even fainted.

They have never seen Ryuu so frightening and emotional before. But the more frightening he was since he kept silent, no voice came through his gritted teeth, only the helpless and desperate yelps and muffled moans of his victim echoed through the dead-silent classroom.

Not even Hayato was able to react. He was just staring at the raveing red demon that was Ryuu. He knew that the redhead was strong, but has never thought that the height and weight differences between him and the taller boy would mean so less when it comes to a fight! Tsucchi was like a motionless doll between Ryuu's angry fists. He had no chance to protect himself.

It was the first and only outburst of the collected and calm redhead. His face was pale, only two bright pink spots were burning there accompanied by the killing glare, his eyes shining daggers at Tsucchi's nape.

As the first panting breaths escaped Ryuu's lips, everything seemed to come to life again. Hayato grabbed Ryuu tight from behind, Take and Hyuuga took a firm grip on his arms to save their friend. Or rather what remained of him. Hayato held him tight to his chest so that he couldn't start another attack on Tsucchi. But Ryuu didn't seem like wanting to. The moment he felt Hayato's strong, warm arms around his waist, clutching him to his racing heart, Ryuu relaxed. Only his eyes were sending daggers toward Tsucchi. The poor teen was still too afraid to move an inch. Like the victim of a predator which can't believe that it survived the attack, and thinks that upon the slightest movement it will murder him.

"Get lost now" Ryuu hissed on his ice cold voice.

A visible shiver ran along Tsucchi's body, but he obeyed immediately. His nose and lips were bleeding, covering his chin and the spot where his head lay in blood, there were bruises all over his swollen face. He was confused and fear was glittering in his eyes. Keeping a distance from the redhead he escaped from the class through the backdoor. Hayato signaled to Hyuuga with a nod to follow Tsucchi, and make sure, he wouldn't collapse on his way.

This added to the reputation of 3-D, and of course to Odagiri Ryuu.

Hayato learned that it was a sore spot to Ryuu that he is usually taken as a girl because of his appearance. Probably because of this behaves he the way he does: to make up with his cool nature for his pretty looks.

Beautiful indeed – Hayato corrected.

That incident helped to settle everyone's state not only in the class (from that time, no one dared to question the pretty Ryuu's right to be in the leader group) but also in the gang. It was obvious from the beginning, that Hayato was a leader type. His character as an arrogant fool he was) and built made him perfect for that place. With their strong friendship with Ryuu made it clear that there's no way he wouldn't share his king status with the redhead. They were the head of 3-D, on their unique way of fighting all the time, but still having the strongest bond ever seen among such deliquents. Their relationship wasn't free from rivalries of course, that came from their dominant type of personalities, but that was fine. They were best friends after all. Since his painful incident Tsucchi's place was also given. There was no way he'd try to become the leader, however he had had the ambition to do it – previously. Now he learnt his lesson, and he kept a good distance from Ryuu. They were friends of course, but he joined the group of nearly everyone that wanted to run as far as they could when Ryuu sent them one of his murder-glares. So he oriented rather in the direction of Hyuuga, who was fine with being in the leader gang, and had no higher ambitions. So they got closer. Take was the one who belonged to both of these duos. He was on good terms with Tsucchi and Hyuuga since he neither was that dominating type, but based on their previous years spent together in junior high, he was close to Hayato and Ryuu too.

Still because of that older relationship had Take the privilege he had, and because of what Hayato, and still when he couldn't get over his crush Tsucchi envied him. Take was the only one who was allowed to enjoy the softer sides of the cold redhead. This was probably the only side of him that Hayato had no experience with. The brunette knew sides of Ryuu that no one else did, some of them that surprised even Ryuu himself, but that soft and motherly caring side was Take's special gift from this friendship. He turned to Ryuu with his problems, however it was a bit hard to imagine what kind of solution could the ice cold teen offer for his sentimental problems, but he was the only one Take trusted with his secrets. The pretty boy was even allowed to hug Ryuu when he felt so desperate while getting drunk, dropping his tears into the elegant curve of his neck, the teardrops running down on the delicate skin, disappearing under the collar of his shirt, and Ryuu was the one who hushed him after that, on a soft voice that sent shivers running up and down Hayato's spine. With only terribly hard work could he banish the thoughts that he wanted the redhead to whisper his name on that voice… he was drunk after all wasn't he? He couldn't wish for such thing while sane…

However Hayato was nearly absolutely sure about these things (which means Ryuu being straight), the more attention Take got the more jealous he felt. At first he didn't know the reason of this strange and uncomfortable, but not that new feeling. Hayato could call it jealousy for the first time when he learnt that he was in love with his best friend.

He realized that when Yankumi dragged Ryuu back to class and he finally learnt why he had left.

He was standing outside of the classroom, leaning against the graffiti-covered wall, watching as Take explained the real reason why Ryuu went to bow down to the guys from Ara High. As he listened, he kept his eyes only on Ryuu. The teen tried to silence Take – but with no success. As he did, Hayato felt his whole inside catch some unknown fire and a ball forming in his throat which didn't let him breath properly, but couldn't swallow either. While they spent so much time separated from each other, he forgot how good he could read the redhead. His features were like a picture book to an adult. But only to Hayato. Reading the stories of this beautiful face was his privilege. As his warm brown gaze slowly melted the icy shields of Ryuu's eyes, he could see that he was in terrible pain.

He wanted to silence Take, so that he hadn't have to recall, to relive the memories of that time. The silence and the abyss they kept between each other was to bury the deep scars of the past. Even if it was just a bandage on the shallow surface. But now they were uncovered again, and started bleeding, maybe even more than fresh scars. - The memory of losing each other because of a meaningless fight, because of a small lie, because of Ryuu's damn pride, because of Hayato's stubborn and explosive nature, and because the brunette hasn't recognized earlier how much he loved Ryuu… These stupid reasons all overwhelmed their hearts at once now, as the truth was revealed.

They have never felt before how sharp the blade of truth was.

The terrible weight of loss fell onto his shoulders all at once. He felt tears burning his eyes. He couldn't stand seeing the uncovered crystal pain anymore. Hayato has always comforted himself that Ryuu didn't feel anything over their rough parting, since the redhead has never showed too much emotion over anything. It was the biggest lie he could have deluded himself with, but that saved him from a lot of thoughts of remorse. He could fight his own pain, and it easened his battle that he convinced himself that he didn't hurt Ryuu. However there still was a tiny little voice that kept on whispering, that both of them were suffering terrible pain.

By now - everything gained its meaning.

After Ryuu had left, he started remembering his blurry dreams. Usually he slept like a log and if he dreamt something, he remembered them no longer then the moment he opened his lazy eyes. But then, after awakening, he spent long minutes still in bed, rolling onto his back, staring at the ceiling, watching the film of his current dream, trying to figure out what they might mean and why his heart was racing so fast, since they have never been nightmares. It was always his greatest wish to be able to go back into that world, even is his heart overflew with sorrow.

In these dreams Ryuu has never left him. They were side by side as always. As only they were there for each other. The redhead's shining eyes sent small secret smiles to him, and said silent stories that he told only Hayato. And before he went to bed at night, even if he tried everything to get rid of the memories of his dreams, they came back haunting him. He unconsciously played with the thought of Ryuu sitting next to him the next day in class, and that he could read those beautiful secret smiles and joy behind those icy orbs.

But he just always tortured himself with these hopes, being disappointed all the time, day after day, minute after minute as he waited for the door to open to reveal the slender teen since he had got into class. This cure hope was slowly destroying him. But he didn't want to give up, and got stubborn, as usual.

"Ryuu would never come back!" he stated once angrily when Take dared to mention the redhead accidentally, because he was suffering from his missing presence and the changed behavior of their now only remained leader.

The cold statement hit them like lightning. It was true. They had to – Hayato had to bury the painful memory of his ex-best friend, and keep him for his dreams.

Always denying their existence, even fighting them with all his will – but still always waiting for them to come. Sometimes he drank so much, the others wouldn't have bet even one yen on him arriving home at all. He thought, getting drunk would grant him an unconscious night. But he ended up wrong. His emotions got to the surface, and before falling asleep he hallucinated that Ryuu was there, next to his bed, and he was begging him silently not to leave while tears ran along his high cheeks into his hair. Ryuu was there everywhere in his life. He couldn't let him go.

However with hard work he got his love for the teen turned into hatred. It was always easier to hate someone, than love him while it was sure that this person would never return. They all knew it.

Now he could explain why he felt a bunch of butterflies in his stomach as he heard that Ryuu came back. It seemed like he couldn't fill his heart with hatred toward the redhead. It was burning happiness and desire to see those eyes, to feel him by his side…

This is why it hurt the more to see him back. It was no happy reunion. Ryuu grew cold even for him. He has built walls around his soul, as if he had never left his own room that used to be his cell. He could see this from the first look he laid on Ryuu. He felt fear growing in him. He was afraid that Ryuu had abandoned him and closed down in front of Hayato. He felt betrayed and that was enough to call that hatred to the surface again. He felt anger and the happiness vanished in less than a blink of an eye. But it was still there, it just hid deep in his heart. He was secretly happy that Ryuu was back, but hated him, because he ignored Hayato.

But now he understood everything.

He was longing for Ryuu so much, he didn't realize him being there. None of them opened toward the other because of their pride and fears.

Seeing him so helpless under the shield of the looks they all vanished from Hayato. Love replaced them.

He wanted to comfort Ryuu. To see his smile again, even just through his eyes. To be with him. To have him for himself. (He had his doubts if the redhead would let himself be owned so easily, but this didn't matter. He had to settle things now! He'll have time to think about it later.)

He will never see Ryuu suffer!

But he just couldn't go there and say 'Look, I'm sorry.' Neither of them would take it seriously. He had to gain Ryuu's forgiveness on an other way. Ha had to make sure Ryuu'd forgive him. And maybe when they will have got the scars healed for real, he may be able to gain Ryuu's love too…

… Back to present: he has to settle things with those bastards from Ara High. So that they could bury all the bad memories connecting to that incident. To overcome and let all the pain washed away. To turn it into a memory of yesterday.

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