I Think I'm In Love: Brendan's Love Decleration
I could hear what she was saying. In fact the words were reverberating round my head.
'Rae's pregnant.'
"How the bloody hell did that happen?"
Even as the words left my lips I knew I had no right to ask them. Hadn't it been my idea? My defense. To hide Steven away from the rest of the world. I can't have Warren, no anyone knowing what I am. How much I truly love this boy. But Amy could see it. She's not stupid, not fooled by my front. She can read me like a book so there's no point in lying to her.
"You love him don't you?"
My body and mind were screaming simultaneously "yes with all my heart" and I felt like I was being torn apart at the seams.
But instead I settled for the obvious cutback. The one everyone around me believed to be true, "I don't even know what that means."
"I don't believe that."
"It doesn't matter what you do or don't believe Amy. I'll finish it with Steven and you don't have to worry about me anymore. I'm bad news. You know it. I know it. Steven will be better off without me."
"You have to promise me it's over, for Rae and the baby's sake."
"You have my word. I'll tell him we're over."
"Good. And you don't have to worry about me and keeping your secret I promise not to tell anyone."
"Thank you."
"You really do hate yourself don't you? She wasn't wrong. This man who liked to believe he was all that was not willing to stand up and admit who he is, who he actually loves. I don't know what you see when you look in the mirror Brendan, but I feel sorry for you. I really do."
She left and I sank to the floor, tears streaming from my eyes.
How could he do this to me? How could he when I am in love with him?
"Steven!"