[A/N: I have this bad tendency to start stories, and then delete them when I really have no idea where I want to go with them…but this time (if I get enough reviews and help that is ;P) I will try to finish my second fic. Well…this is my 3rd fic…I just never finished the second one. ^_^' I will one day though. Anyways, on with the story!]

Full Summary: Kinomoto Sakura is a girl who never does anything wrong. Some people may say that perfection is impossible for any human, but for this fifteen-year-old, it's true. By design she just doesn't have a single flaw. However perfection itself does come with its own faults. Being the nicest, prettiest, most considerate and intelligent girl around does have its problems. Her friends are ridiculed and insulted everyday by those jealous of her and she herself is picked on all the time. Sakura is the type of person who strongly believes in individuality and respect, but one day, when one of her closest friends his killed supposedly because of the companionship shared with her, Sakura loses it. She decides to change the way she is, including her perspective of everything, her attitude, her appearance, the works. But how far is she willing to go to satisfy the minds of people who can never be satisfied, especially not with her?

Disclaimer: Neither Cardcaptor Sakura nor its characters belong to me. It is owned by CLAMP. I do own Misako though.

Italic- Thoughts/ Dreams

Bold- Something really important

CAPS LOCK- Someone really mad/worried

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Chapter 1: Pushing Buttons

I don't know why…I don't even know how I ended up here. Not here physically, here in this state of mind.

I don't know why I'm holding this gun to her forehead.

I don't know why I did all of the things that I did.

I don't know why I turned into…this…thing! I'm so disgusted with myself right now…

But as I hold this gun firmly in my grasp, I don't think how I feel about myself right now really matters.

All that matters is me, her, and what's going to happen 5 seconds from now…

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2 years earlier…

"What is the sum of negative five squared plus open bracket the square root of twenty five close bracket squared," the math teacher asked, looking into the eyes of his non responsive students.

Without a moment's hesitation a hand proudly shot in the air, "The answer is zero sir."

The teacher smiled slightly and nodded. "Yes that is correct, thank you Kinomoto-san."

Before the mathematically engaged student could respond the bell rang, indicating that the period, as well as the school day, had come to an end.

The girl collected her notes and other belongings and headed towards her locker when she felt a hand on her shoulder. She turned around to see her best friend, Tomoyo's deep blue eyes burning into hers.

The light brown haired girl looked at her friend in concern then sighed. "What happened now?"

Tomoyo's eyes broke contact with her friends and she began to look around, twirling her hair. She only twirled her hair when she was worried or nervous. She made eye contact with her friend once again and then returned the sigh.

"Sakura…she's doing it again." Sakura shut her locker then gave Tomoyo her undivided attention. Before Sakura answered someone came beside her and bumped her lightly against the hip.

"Hey Sakura, Tomoyo. How you guys doing." Sakura never took her eyes off of Tomoyo, yet she managed to wave at the person beside her, at least acknowledging their presence.

"Do you mean Misako," Sakura questioned. Tomoyo nodded, making the person beside Sakura roll her eyes.

"Doesn't that girl have anything better to than bug you guys?"

"It's true. She needs to stop soon, she's starting to get a little annoying," Sakura admitted. Meilin moved in front of her dear friend.

"Starting to? STARTING TO? What hole have you just recently crawled out of? She's been picking on you guys since I moved to this neighborhood," Meilin ranted.

"The only reason that she hasn't done anything to me is because she knows I'd kick her ass if she ever laid a finger on me. But you guys…I mean if she ever did anything to you…what I'm trying to say is, why don't you ever do anything to stop her? Tell her off? Kill her in her sleep? Something?"

"Because it's wrong. And I'm sure at some point she'll give it up. When she realizes that we don't care what she says about us."

In an attempt to change the subject, Tomoyo interjected. "Am I the only hungry one here or what?" At the sound of food Meilin became ecstatic. Food was and most likely always would be one of Meilin's guilty pleasures. "Let's go!" she demanded, moving behind her friends and started pushing them down the hallway, out of the high school.

It was mid-April, and Sakura and her friends had just, not to far back, celebrated her fifteenth birthday. Rain was pouring heavily to the ground and there was an unpleasant stench caused by the contact of the rain and the dirt.

Despite the smell, Sakura quite liked the rain. She would call it thinking weather because it was always peaceful to be under. She wasn't exactly sure what it was that drew her to find that out of rain, but she always liked to look on the positive sides of things.

"Do either of you guys have an umbrella? I forgot mine," Meilin mentioned.

Sakura shook her head from side to side. "Nope sorry, I had to get to school really early for one of my clubs and completely forgot to look at the weather."

Big surprise, Tomoyo thought to herself and she chuckled quietly at her friend's constantly busy schedule. Then she shrugged her shoulders implying that she didn't have an umbrella either.

"Well then, I guess we're going to have to run through the rain to get home," Meilin half said half sighed.

"Why run? Why not walk," Sakura asked, staring into the depths of the rain.

"Uh…because we're not trying to get sick," Meilin responded sarcastically. She didn't mean to hint the anger in her voice, but the longer it took for her to get home, then the longer it would take for her to get to her food, and that just wasn't an option.

Sakura knew her friend well enough to know that that was the reason why her friend wanted to hurry home so she smiled and agreed to it.

Just as they were about to run through the rain like a bunch of chickens with their heads cut off, Sakura received a hard shove, sending her tumbling down the front concrete steps of her school.

Not too long after Tomoyo received a hard shove, but only enough to send her against the wall of the school. Meilin ran to Tomoyo as quickly as possible to make sure she was okay.

When she saw that Tomoyo was alright she called out to Sakura but got no response.

A red headed girl looked down from the top of the top of the stairs and scoffed at the girl who was lying at the bottom, blood sliding down her arm and legs and the rain violently beating down on her injured body.

"Oh dear Kinomoto-san, I'm sorry. I didn't see that it was you; I thought you were an insect. A really giant pest you know? Oh wait, you are. Then I guess I'm not sorry," the girl said with her hands secured on her hips.

Her light brown eyes pierced into Sakura's emerald ones and a smirk formed from her lips. "You're lucky that that's all you got this time bitch. Stop trying to show everyone up in math. Don't think you're this great person just 'cause you answered some questions in class."

And with a flip of her hair she headed in the opposite direction, leaving Sakura bleeding on the April afternoon.

Meilin wanted to run after the girl and beat the crap out of her, but at the moment she knew her friends needed her more. The two ran down the stairs and helped Sakura to her feet.

Tomoyo gasped at the sight of the blood escaping her best friend's body. Sakura saw the worry in her friends' eyes and she smiled. "Don't worry about it guys. And besides, we're going to get sick," she commented, quoting Meilin's previous statement.

Then suddenly Meilin's stomach screamed for attention as it grumbled, making everyone's attention shift from whatever they were thinking about before, to her stomach.

All three stood in silence for a little bit then laughed hysterically. Any of their problems washed away with the rain and they all ran towards Meilin's home.

Sakura was a little slower than the other two due to her wounds but she still smiled and continued to run as quickly as she could.

However there was something that was just racking in the back of her mind. That girl is really starting to push my buttons… she thought, and did her best to hide the feeling from her friends.

TBC…

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