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The warm grass felt so comforting underneath my feet. This was my usually routine in the mornings. After I got dressed and had my morning coffee I made my way to the mailbox. Between Charlie and Renee and the Bills I always had something waiting for me.

The weather in Texas is a lot different than Washington. For one it was warm almost all year round. But if it did rain, it was the nice kind that made you want to go outside and dance in it.

I've lived here since I graduated. No one needed to get away from Forks like me so it was no big surprise when I left right after they handed me the diploma. I didn't even stay to say bye to anyone.

I opened my black mailbox and removed the few things I got. I started flipping throw them as I made my way back into my house to pack. I didn't really want to move back, but my grandfather was fixing to die and life here wasn't exactly what I thought it would be.

After about the third bill, I found a letter that didn't say who it was from. I opened the door to my house and set the other letters down on the table by the door. I started to open the letter and winced in pain. I got a paper cut. Damn it, I cant even do the most trivial things without getting hurt.

I set it down and went to get a band aid.

I made my way back to the letter, curious as to who would send a letter to me but not say who it was from. Charlie and Renee always wrote their names in the corner of the envelope.

I finished opening it without any more harm done. I opened the folded letter and suddenly felt ill.

I started to read it.

Bella,

I know you probably wouldn't have even opened this if you saw who it was from. I've tried letters in the past and they always get sent back. Now please just listen to what I have to say.

I've missed you so bad Bella. It almost killed me for you to not be by my side. I know your mad still about what happened that night. But I really think you miss understood what was happening. I would never hurt you Bella, never. To see the pain in your eyes that night, well to be truthful I wanted to jump in front of a car. It hurt me that much to see you in pain.

I let you have your space because Alice said that would be best, but when you just left on graduation without even saying bye to Alice I knew I caused you more pain than any person should be able to inflict to another person.

Everyone told me I should just forget you. But that's impossible. I love you too much. To this day everything still plays over and over in my mind as if it were yesterday.

Do you remember that night that you decided we needed our own song so I said okay whatever song comes on the radio next will be our song. And of course some old country song that you absolutely loved came on. You started to sing along with George Strait, you knew every word. And then we started to dance and we danced until we couldn't anymore. That's when I knew I would love you until I die. No one else could ever mean so much to me.

We didn't say it then to each other, but I think I saw it in your eyes too.

But the night you actually said it to me was the best night of my life. We had just went and seen a movie at the theatre and you were staying the night at my house with Alice. When we were driving we started talking, and once we got to the house you just blurted it out. I think you didn't mean too, because once you did you were the brightest red I've ever seen. I turned your head back towards me and looked you in the eyes and said it back to you. I was a little shocked when you grabbed my face and started kissing me. It was so unlike my Bella to be the one to start it. But it was the best surprise ever. The way you kissed me, I will never forget it. You ended up climbing in my lap and I carried you inside, not even worrying about shutting the door. I carried you all the way to my room. That was the first time we made love. It was as though our bodies were on fire. I never felt like that with anyone else. You are the only one.

I love you so much, and never will I stop loving you. You are the love of my life Bella.

When Alice told me what she had heard from Charlie, I almost didn't believe her. I knew I hurt you. But I never would of thought of you doing that. Mike Newton. I didn't want to believe your were engaged to him. I would of rather you going back to Jacob.

I know I don't even deserve to say this to you. But I think you should know why I am writing to you. This will be my last letter. I will let you and Mike have a happy life without me. But I do insist you to stop punishing yourself.

What I mean is, I know you miss everyone. And just because they are my family doesn't mean they weren't also yours. After I heard Alice didn't get an invitation I almost came down their myself to tell you to stop it. Just because we couldn't work out whatever happened doesn't mean that you have to kick everyone else out of your life.

I didn't mean to sound so harsh but when it comes to hurting people that should be my job not yours. So please reconsider inviting them. It would mean the world to everyone, even Rosalie. She has missed you.

Just consider it Bella. I will leave you alone now. I understand you don't love me anymore.

But you will always be my Bella.

With the Greatest Love Anyone Can Give,

Your Edward.

I started crying right away. Seeing his handwriting just made me sick. I loved everything about him. Or at least I use too.

I dropped the letter right after I read it. I was shaking so bad. I had fallen to my knees somewhere in the middle.

How can he after all this time expect me to believe he send me letters. I never got them. And than the whole Mike thing. That pig can rote in hell. I cant believe I even thought I loved Mike.

No one compared to Edward. But he hurt me so bad.

I did invite the Cullen's too. But I never got to send the invitations out. I guess Charlie told Alice before I broke it off. I wonder if he thinks I will tell her what happened when I get back.

I missed all of them so much. That was the hardest part about leaving. I left my family. Both of them.

Now I know I can go back to Forks and at least have them a part of my life. Even, Rose.

I just wish Edward wasn't there. I know I will always love him, but I can't go threw that again.

And just seeing he still loves me. This is going to be interesting to say the least.

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