AN: Hey guys! I'm back! I won't be updating my other HSM fanfics for a while I'm having terrible writers block. This is just a preview to my next fanfic "Love Me Through It", which is based after the song "Love You Through It" I love that song soooo much! Anyways here is the preview it's only gonna be about three chapters long.
Love Me Through It
Chapter One: Failed Attempt
"One more push Mrs. Bolton you're almost there." I cried as I pushed with all my strength.
"You're doing so good baby." Troy whispered in my ear. "I love you so much." Then all of a sudden my body relaxed as I fell back on to the hospital bed. My body was hot and sore and then I felt the cool sensation of a wet cloth on my chest. I looked over and saw the doctor holding my lifeless daughter. I quickly turned my head away as I couldn't bear to look at her. Troy looked at me and sighed. No matter how hard he tried he knew he couldn't comfort me.
"Mrs. Bolton would you like to hold her?" I nodded my head as the nurse handed me my daughter.
"Oh you're so beautiful Riley." I let all of my emotions out
"Just know that I love you so much! I wish that my love was enough for you to survive." I kissed Riley's forehead.
"Troy do you want to…" Before I could finish Troy stormed out of the room.
"Mrs. Bolton is everything…"
"Everything's fine thank you nurse."
"Did you two have a name?"
"Riley Hope Bolton." I smiled weakly
"Beautiful name."
"Thank you, can you please take her."
"Of course." The nurse took Riley from me it felt like as if my life was slipping away through my fingers. I fell back on to my bed and rolled over to my side and silently cried.
"Mrs. Bolton, we have to clean you up."
"Ok."
Troy stormed out of the room and walked outside the hospital. He roughly ran his hand through his hair. He knew he should've held his daughter but he just couldn't bring himself to do it. He was so sure that this would be it, they've come so far only to have it slip away from them.
After Troy calmed down he went back inside. I heard him open the door but I didn't feel like turning over. He must've assumed I was sleeping because I heard him say something about calling his parents.
"Hey Troy how's everything going?"
"Hey Dad um…I don't know how to say this." Troy heard his dad sigh over the phone
"It's ok son, does Gabi want Lucille to come over?"
"Um, I don't know she's sleeping right now I'll ask her when she wakes up."
"I'm so sorry Troy we all thought this would be the one."
"Yeah we did too. Talk to you later Dad."
"Ok bye." Troy hung up the phone and walked over to Gabriella's bed and sat in the chair beside it.
"Troy." Troy raised his eyebrow as I turned over to face him
"I thought you were sleep." I shook my head
"Why didn't you want to hold her?"
"This is not the time Gabs…"
"Why did you not want to hold your daughter?"
"Gabriella not now."
"Fine."
"Look Gabriella…"
"Troy I'm done talking about it." Then there was a knock at the door.
"Come in." Troy said and then my doctor, Dr. Hart walked in
"Mr. and Mrs. Bolton I would first like to say that I am terribly sorry about the baby I was sure that this would be it."
"Dr. Hart, don't blame yourself." Troy said
"You're right I came to tell you guys that you should try again. You're a young couple and have all time in the world." I simply nodded and turned back over with my back facing troy and Dr. Hart.
"Thank you Dr. Hart when will Gabriella be able to leave?"
"Well she didn't suffer from any tearing so on Tuesday and she'll be good to go."
"Thank you Dr. Hart."
"Anytime, the next you guys are ready just give me a call."
"Will do." Then Dr. Hart left the room.
"Gabs…"
"You can go home Troy." Troy sighed heavily as he left leaving me all alone. When I hear the door slam shut I let out a sob, this pain was so unbearable. Never in my life did I think that I would deliver my child and never get the chance to hear her cry. It was last month when we found out that our sweet Riley died and it killed me. That I would have to deliver my dead baby. After everything we've been through this seemed to be the icing on the cake. I still remember that fateful day.
Troy and I waited patiently for Dr. Hart to perform the sonogram. Every which passing week they were getting more and more anxious, nervous, excited. This is the farthest they've come and everyone had a good feeling about this.
"Why hello Gabi and Troy."
"Hey Dr. Hart." I beamed
"How is Ms. Riley treating you?"
"Fine, she's been resting." Dr. Hart got out the equipment and started to perform the sonogram.
"Ok, everything looks ok. Let's hear that heartbeat." Dr. Hart then moved the wand around trying to hear the heartbeat. After about two minutes with no heartbeat Troy and Gabriella were starting to worry.
"Dr. Hart is everything ok?" Troy asked, Dr. Hart gave us a weak smile
"I'll be right back ok." Dr. Hart then left the room and I looked up at Troy with worry in my eyes
"Hey, it's ok baby. Everything will be ok." I simply nodded, then a nurse entered the room.
"Dr. Hart would like to see you two in her office."
"Ok."
After Gabriella wiped the gel off the two made it to Dr. Hart's office.
"Gabriella, Troy. I am so sorry to say this but your baby died." I let out a scoff as tears were threatening to fall
"What?" Troy grabbed my hand
"I'm so sorry, but it seems like the umbilical cord wrapped around her neck. Now if you want me to I can induce the labor so that we can get the baby out or we can wait until the baby is due in a couple weeks." I inhale a shaky breath before I answer
"Can we induce the labor?"
"Sure thing Gabi I'll set that and I'll give you a call."
"Thank you." Troy said I got up and left the room as quickly as I can. I needed to get out it felt like I couldn't breathe in there. When I got outside I let out a sob as I cried into my hands. Why did this happen to us? We were good people who just wanted a daughter.
I wiped away my tears as I recalled that horrible day. I don't know how I'm going to move forward or if I'll ever move forward. This pain I'm enduring it's nothing like I've ever felt. I don't know if I'll ever get over it.