These past few days had been so confusing, but now I finally understood. I only wished that I had realized before she left. But I hadn't, and now she was gone. She was gone, and she wasn't coming back.
I remembered waiting for their train, waiting to tell both of them the truth. I couldn't keep lying to Glinda, and I couldn't hide my feelings for Elphaba. It would be a lot to take in for both of them, probably even for me, but in the end, things would turn out ok. I had sat at a table in the train station, and when the train was finally there I expected to see her walk out at any minute. Only she never did.
When Glinda had walked out of the train her eyes were red and puffy from crying, probably for a long time. I asked her what was wrong and where Elphaba was, and she replied with a choked sob that she didn't know. I waited 'til we were alone to ask more.
Now I was siting alone in my room, and wondering if things would have been different if I had understood that I was falling for Elphaba sooner. I knew it would have been better if she had at least known. Oh, if only she had known!
She was my world now and I didn't even know where she was! I was in love with her and there was no way to tell her. Because to tell her I would have to find her, and that was impossible!
Or was it? She had to have gone somewhere. It wasn't like she just disappeared into thin air. Yes, there had to be some way to find her. It wouldn't be easy, but it wouldn't be impossible, either.
Wherever she was I would find her, and in the end, everything would be alright. In the end, we would be together.