Once again we sit in silence
Liz sat huddled
in her chair, staring, but not seeing the candles that surrounded her balcony.
Thoughts ran through her head, the ones that seemed to haunt her no matter what.
Future Max, the end of the world, the look of hurt on Max's face seeing her in
bed with Kyle, Alex's death…the pain from it all still persisted, and all
she could see was darkness, and all she could hear was silence.
After all that's said and done
He was so cruel
towards her, and the pain of seeing him with Tess was so unbearable. He was so
quick to defend Tess, even if she had not been accusing her of Alex's death,
as Max had so blatantly indicated that she had. Of course she should be happy…
the future had changed. She had saved the world with her unselfishness,
willingly she had sacrificed her happiness.
Only emptiness inside us
But why did she
have to feel so alone? So empty? And there were those times when she would see
the same mirrored in his own eyes, but it would disappear quickly and he would
become impassive.
Baby, look what we've become
Everything had
changed between them; there was always an air of tenseness that had never been
there before. She was no longer comfortable being around him, for fear of seeing
him happy with Tess, and to be reminded of her unhappiness of not being with
him.
We
can make a million promises
But this had
been her promise to Future Max, to make him fall out of love with her. And since
that moment, she had made a promise to herself, a promise to forget…forget
everything. Her happiness, her heart, her love…her Max.
But
we still won't change
She
had broken one of those promises, she still remembered, she still loved, and she
still yearned. For a while, he had continued to love her, and not only when she
told him that she had indeed slept with Kyle, did he run to Tess's awaiting
arms.
It
isn't right to stay together
He had
asked of they could still remain friends, and she had willingly agreed, knowing
that he still loved and cared for her in a way of friendship.
When
we only bring each other pain
But he had
somehow managed to hurt her, in ways that he seemed oblivious to. He was killing
her inside, and he had no idea that he was doing so.
I
don't want to cry
Don't wanna cry
Liz shook her
head, tears were streaming down her face and she wiped them away fiercely. She
couldn't do this anymore. She shouldn't cry for something that was so
unreachable to her. She wasn't going to cry anymore, she didn't want to. She
just couldn't.
Nothing
in the world
Could take us back
To where we used to be
It was
impossible, and that unreachable hope had all but disappeared. I can't love
him anymore. I can't be with him. Liz stood up and looked around her balcony,
a wave of memories washing themselves over her. Max visiting her every night
when they first started dating. Lying in each other's arms while they gazed at
the twinkling stars in the sky. Those passionate kisses and intense gazes that
made her melt and fall in love with him all over again. But it was over. And
they would never be able to go back to those days, those wonderful days when
they were allowed to be in love, when Max didn't have a destiny to fulfill.
But, as she had already stated, the hope that she had harbored was as distant as
the little stars that lit the sky.
Though
I've given you my heart and soul
I must find a way to let you go
She had
willingly given him everything, her heart, her soul, since that day he had saved
her in the Crashdown. She knew from that moment that they would always be
together, but in all reality, she had been wrong, and now that he had moved on,
so must she.
'Cause
baby, I don't wanna cry
Too
far apart to bridge the distance
He was so
distant now, always with Tess, recovering memories of a past lifetime and of a
past love. But it wasn't all his fault that there was a wide chasm between
them, she too had been drawing away from him, away from everyone, the world,
away from her heart.
But
something keeps us hanging on and on
Pretending
not to know the difference
They had
remained friends, the familiar concern and affections still there. Each not
wanting to admit that things had really changed between them.
Denying
what we had was gone
Every
moment we're together
Liz
still clung onto that hope that one day she would be able to be with Max again.
That one day he would learn to love her again. The day his destiny was
fulfilled, then everything could go back to the way they were.
Is
just breaking me down
I
know we swore it was forever
But
every time they were together, she felt her heart breaking at the tenderness he
showed towards Tess. The tenderness that had once been directed towards her.
They had promised to always love one another, no matter what, they would love
one another.
But
it hurts too much to stay around
"Your destiny is with Tess. I can't stand in the way of that; I couldn't
live with myself if I did."
And she walked
away from Max, not even looking back. She left behind her heart on that cliff
that day.
I
don't wanna cry
Don't wanna cry
Tears
streamed down her face, tears that Liz did not want to shed. She had made her
choice, but it was the most difficult and painful choice she had ever made.
Oh Max.
Nothing
in the world
Could take us back
To where we used to be
"Liz, babe?"
Maria's voice called out to her. "Liz?"
"I'm up here
Maria!" Liz gently wiped her tears away, calming her breaths. Liz listened to
the information Maria had just received, and they began to pack for a road trip
to Las Cruses.
Though
I've given you my heart and soul
I must find a way of letting go
I
need you to help me fall out of love with you. I need you to help me fall out of
love with you. Oh god, those were the words that had shattered her heart. The
words spoken from the man she had loved, the only man she could ever love, the
man that was her husband. But she had done what was right, her happiness could
not compare to the lives of millions others. So she had simply let go.
'Cause
baby, I don't wanna cry
All the magic's gone
Liz closed her eyes at the memory of the
dance that was supposed to be her wedding dance. The candlelight sparkled around
her magically as she danced with Future Max, and just as he had disappeared, so
did all the magic.
There's
just a shadow of a memory
Something just went wrong
We
can't go on make-believing
"Liz?"
"Yeah Maria?"
"Are you ok?"
"Yeah." Liz
smiled at her friend before turning to look out the window into the night sky
where an illusion entered her mind and she realized that it was the wedding she
would never have.
I
don't wanna cry
Don't
wanna cry
"Lizzy?
Are you ok?"
Liz
was lured from the illusions, to realize that she had been crying. She looked at
Maria's worried face.
"I'm
fine…it's just that Alex…" She trailed off on her lie.
"I
know chica, I can't believe it neither, but that's what we're trying to
find out, right? Alex's murder?"
"Yeah."
Liz agreed.
Nothing
in the world
Could take us back
To
where it used to be
He had slept
with Tess. Liz knew as much, and it hurt her badly because he had not waited for
her. It will never be the same, Max. You and I both know it.
Though
I've given you my heart and soul
I must
find a way of letting go
"Liz,
we're here."
Liz
nodded and got out of the car. She had to let go of the past, she had promises
to keep, to Alex, to Future Max, and to herself. Liz ran after Maria, a single
tear running down her cheek, unnoticed.
'Cause
baby, I don't wanna cry
~fin~
