This isn't the first time that she's caught herself staring at and tracing her face from a photograph. Ever since their break up, she's been finding herself in this predicament more often than not.

She knows it's her fault, but she never meant for this to happen. She never wanted nor thought she'd leave her, but here they are.

Why did she allow this when she still loves her? She doesn't care how much she tells everyone that she doesn't lover her anymore, because she doesn't mean it and she never will.

That woman has her heart, from the moment she saw her box and heard her speak (and as mushy as it sounds), she knew she loved her.

"Jasper, open the door! I know you're home and if I find out she's in there-," the voice trails off as the door slams open.

"What do you want Lapis?" Jasper questions the slim woman.

"What do you mean what do I want? Move, I am your girlfriend after all." Lapis Lazuli pushes past Jasper and walks into the apartment. "I don't have to want anything. Where is she?" Lapis turns to face Jasper, hands on her cloth covered hips.

Jasper rolls her eyes as she shuts her front door. "Man, who are you talking about?" Jasper huffs out as she walks over and plops down on her couch.

"Don't play stupid with me. I know she's here," Lapis snaps out.

Jasper sighs and attempts to control her anger. She's tired of having this argument.

"Answer me, where is she?"

"Man, whoever this 'she' you keep talking about is, she's not here," Jasper says.

"Stop lying! I know she's here and if you won't tell me, I'll just go look," Lapis states and moves toward Jasper's closet.

Jasper closes her eyes as she hears Lapis walk around, opening and closing doors and slamming things. At the sound of glass being shattered, Jasper makes her way to Lapis, following the trail of destruction until she came to her room.

Once there, she takes in the destruction of the flute glasses that Garnet bought her for her birthday. At the sight of the shattered flute glasses, Jasper snaps.

"What the hell Lapis?" Jasper asks as she grips Lapis up by her arm.

"Get off me, you're hurting me," Lapis whines

"I don't care. Do you know how much these cost?" Jasper bites out.

"I don't care, you need to stop drinking anyways," Lapis retorts back.

Jasper lets out a growl but otherwise swallows back the retort rising in her throat. Jasper, with a grip still on Lapis' arm, drags her out her bedroom and toward the front door. "Get out," Jasper growls.

"No. Not until she comes out." Lapis crosses her arms and stands with her back toward the door, facing Jasper.

"For the last time, she's not here!" Jasper growls out.

"Why are you lying?"

"Why are you so obsessed with Garnet? We aren't even together anymore, why is she all you worry about? Shit, you worry more about her than you do me."

Lapis squints her eyes and steps toward Jasper. "You know exactly why. You're forever around her and talking to her. It's like you'd rather be with her more than me." Lapis presses her index finger into Jasper's chest and keeps poking with every word.

Jasper reaches up and snatches Lapis' wrist, stepping back a little to create some sense of space. "I don't want to be with her. I tell you that every time you ask. And yes, we still talk, we are still friends."

Lapis snatches her wrist out of Jasper's grip. "Well, you can't be friends with her anymore."

Jasper lets out a chuckle at Lapis' statement. "You out your damn mind if you ever think I'm going to stop being her friend," Jasper tells her infuriated girlfriend.

"Drop her or we're done," Lapis gives and ultimatum to Jasper.

Jasper shrugs her shoulders. "Go ahead, but both you and I know that you'll never be able to walk away from me. No matter how much I infuriate you, I'm the only one you want to be with." Jasper walks away and head over to her couch. "Go ahead and leave if you want to." Jasper sits down and places her hands behind her head.

Lapis balls up her fist and grits her teeth. "Ugh! Fine. I can't stand your buff ass anyways. Have fun being single and everything you think you know about me, you don't." With that, Lapis turns, opens the door and walks out, slamming it behind her.

Jasper lets out a sigh. She really doesn't understand why she deals with this on a regular basis. Even when she was with Garnet, they never argued this much.

Jasper shakes the thought from her head and heads toward her fridge, reaching for the closest bottle of E&J. Twisting off the top, Jasper takes a swig of it before heading back to the couch.

For the rest of the night, Jasper spent it getting drunk.