I don't know how to handle this. Why do I even feel this way? He almost stole my life, he almost destroyed my friends and he almost killed Lucy. Even though he's changed that is always going to haunt me, so why? Why of all the people in Fairy Tail? Why do I love him? Is it truly love or does my mind think it is when it's not? The sight of him makes me giddy with affection, I feel the light fluttering feeling deep inside me just by being close to him, I even feel the heat of my cheeks rise just by being too close or if someone makes a comment about me and him. Is it a reticent feeling or am I just imagining things? Why is he constantly on my mind? It kills me, he beat up Lucy until Natsu arrived to help, and my best friend was hurt because of him! He knocked Jet, Droy and I out, he even bashed us up until we could no longer take it! He tied us to a tree and discriminated Fairy Tail itself! We were hurt and injured we didn't even wake up until it was all over! But why do I have these feelings for him? Are they real? Are they truly the feelings I think they are? Are they really the emotion of love…?
We are nothing alike I'm quiet and I'm not even that strong, I read books and love to write while he is all about strength. He's one of the strongest people I know, he can do so much but he is arrogant mischievous and can be downright mean when he wants to be. But why am I attracted to him like this? I have a small part of me that is still in complete fear of him… but then he changed his life for the better, he clings to hope, he is constantly making new friends, he can be a really sweet, affectionate person and I've seen it myself he just hides it from everyone.
He's gained Fairy Tail's trust, he gained everyone's friendship, and he reveals passion he could never have shown in his last guild. He loves Fairy Tail, he protects Fairy Tail, and I guess for those positives I love him… He may call me shrimp, but he protects me, he almost died for me on Tenrou Island, and that's why I can forgive him even though I have a tiny hidden fear that I will never remove from my heart, as life goes on he becomes a much better person that I look up to, and even now he is probably his best self he could possibly be. But he keeps getting better and better as my feelings grow and expand for him, so I can truly say real love is like this Gajeel…
I love you and I have for a long time now it's just a matter of if you love me back. I will always love you because I can't erase these feelings that are etched into my heart; they are there to stay forever until my life is no more. So please Gajeel, stay the way you are, never change, and never give up as I have never given up on you. If you don't love me back I will try to move on… But you have impacted on my life greatly, so never forget me because I'll never forget you. I write this here today because I never want to forget how my feelings changed for you…