I didn't have the best childhood, my parents divorced and left, leaving me a boy of 11 years alone. No one to help him, to lead him, to protect him, to love him. I suppose that's why I am the way I am. Even grown I am lonely; I don't rely on anyone else. I don't want the heartbreak, the pain of their betrayal.
When I helped her from that pond, I promised myself, I wouldn't fall for her. I already had a war; I didn't need heartbreak too. I broke that promise. How could I not? She was amazing, her obsession with mushrooms, how she acted with the flying ring. She was a angel on earth. I will never let he go.
Science. It tore us apart; she made a laboratory and didn't tell me. She only told me so I could help rescue Tee our dinosaur. How could she do that to me? I gave her so much, but she turned to science. I helped her; the mission went well, even though I almost died. I waited at Blackrock for her. Hours went by, she never came. I slowly came to the realization, she… she left me. I abandoned the loneliness for her, and I broke my own heart.
I guess I know how my father felt. I'm hollow, but now I can focus on the war. I visited Lalna today; he said… he said she visits him. How could she do this to me? I all but said I loved cared about her. Just another reason why loneliness is my only friend.
She came back! I'm ecstatic! I shouldn't feel like this, she left me, but I can't help it. When I see her my heart soars. It wasn't home here without her, it seemed so big and empty, she brings life into this house. The nuke is a small problem, but it can be solved. Her absence was a huge problem that I never hope to see again.
I shouldn't of left! Blackrock is one but so is she. I can't find her! If she died, I don't have anything to live for!
Her heartbeat is stable; she seems to be having nightmares. I would take them from her if I could. She was so bloody when I found her, her arm was ripped to shreds, and her eyes were hit by some shrapnel and she is covered with various gashed and cuts. I used every thing I could to keep her alive. She barely made it through.
Rythian dropped his pen and closed the journal. He closed his eyes, he hadn't left he side since he brought he here. As he drifted off into sleep four words escaped his lips, "I love you, Zoeya."