One-shot. For now. Song is Arms by Christina Perri.
Disclaimer: I don't own the song or the characters! If only, if only...
"I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart, but you came around and knocked me off the ground from the start"
If someone told me two years ago that I would soon fall in love with my baby brother's human girlfriend, I would have laughed in their face. And then I probably would have killed them.
But from the very moment I saw her, I knew she was different than Katherine, in a good way. Meeting her and eventually becoming her friend backed up the idea that she was perfect. To me, at least.
"you put your arms around me and I believe that it's easier for you to let me go"
Despite being madly in love with this maddening woman, deep down I knew she was better off without me. Stefan was the good brother. At least, he was. Nowadays I wasn't so sure. But when I told her that I didn't deserve her, I meant it.
"you put your arms around me and I'm home"
When we opened the tomb to not find Katherine, I was devastated. Although I now know I was never in love with her, I had still dedicated the better half of two hundred years searching for her.
That was the first night Elena showed any physical affection to me. And in that moment, in her arms, I felt as if I was home. A feeling I hadn't felt since years before I was ever turned. She brought comfort to me that only my mother could in the past.
"how many times will you let me change my mind and turn around? I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown"
Loving Elena was definitely not easy, for either of us. I've done so much to hurt her, and that killed me. Every time, she forgave me. Sure, she would be pissed, but she would always end up seeing the good in me. And I don't know how to tell her how much I appreciate that she always sees the good in me.
The truth was, she saves me. Constantly, everyday. And that scares the hell out of me. So, because I'm scared, sometimes I don't let her save me. I try to drown myself in liquor, and girls, and bad decisions. But somehow, she still manages to salvage that little bit of good in me.
"I hope that you see right through my walls"
Elena sees right through my walls. That's one of things that I love about her most, it's also one of the things that scares me the most. With her, I'm at my most vulnerable. She seems to know that too. But yet, I feel like every time I put myself out there, I end up getting crushed.
"I hope that you'll catch me, 'cause I'm already falling"
I wasn't falling in love with her. I already fell. And I do mean, fall, as in, she never catches me. But it's almost like she helps me back up and encourages me to try again. It's infuriating, but if I truly believed there was no possibility with her, well, I don't really know what I'd do.
"I'll never let a love get so close"
She is my best friend. She is the love of my life. She knows more about me than my own brother does. I had never let anyone get this close to me. That's why I try so hard to save her life time and time again. Because if I lost her, who would I have?
"the world is coming down on me and I can't find a reason to be loved"
Elena showed me love, whether she knew it or not. When the rest of the world was coming down on me and I found no reason at all to be loved, she loved me. She loves me. I have to believe that. And so does she.
"I never want to leave you but I can't make you bleed if I'm alone"
I couldn't imagine my life without the constant presence of Elena. I never wanted to leave her, I never wanted her to leave me. But, as long as I was far, far, away, she wouldn't have to deal with all I bring to her. And that thought constantly plagues me, that I bring more hurt than joy to her. And that's the ultimate example of how selfish I am. Because although I know she'd be better off without me, I can't leave her because I love her all too much.
"you put your arms around me, and I believe it's easier for you to let me go"
Everyone else would be better off without me. Well, everyone else would probably be dead without me, but besides that, I truly think they would be happier. Especially Elena.
"I hope that you see right through my walls, I hope that you catch me, 'cause I'm already falling, I'll never let a love get so close, you put your arms around me, and I'm home"
I have never meant anyone, who was as infuriating and stubborn, and suicidal, and beautiful, and funny, and sexy, and amazing as she.
"I tried my best to never let you in to see the truth, and I never opened up, I've never truly loved till you put your arms around me, and I believe that it's easier for you to let me go"
I tried so hard to hide the fact that I loved her for so long. And when I couldn't take it anymore, I told her. But even then, I took that away from her, from me. Although I had thought for the longest time that I was in love with Katherine, and I would only ever be in love with her, meeting Elena changed everything. She showed me what love really was. She made me feel what love really was. My favorite place in the world had come to be wherever she was.
"I hope that you see right through my walls, I hope that catch me, 'cause I'm already falling, I'll never let a love get so close, you put your arms around me and I'm home"
My favorite place in the world had come to be her arms.
"you put you arms around me and I'm home"
So I was thinking about doing a second chapter from Elena's P.O.V. on Damon. Let me know what you think! REVIEW!