A Harry Potter fic

My Immortal

by: bubble drizzles

Disclaimer: I don't own HP or My Immortal

A/N: First of all, I wanted to say I do not like Lily/Snape. I'm all for James/Lily, totally ship them no matter what. And even though I hated Snape at one point, I really, really like the way he feels about Lily. I mean, gosh I totally cried during Deathly Hallows - book and movie - when Harry saw his memories. I like the unrequited love thing going on there, I like it.

Also, imagine Snape's guilt. I think My Immortal fits them so, so much.

And if you have to leave,

I wish that you would just leave

Cause your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone

He sighed as he sat by her grave. After all these years, he still couldn't accept the fact she was gone. Looking at her name, he felt a lonely tear stream down his face, and soon more tears decided to spill. He couldn't help himself, he always ended up like that whenever he came to her grave.

He felt closer to her and though it hurt, it somehow made him feel better at the same time.

He thought of all the times they spent together, all the memories they shared, the good and the bad. Lily Evans was the only person he loved, and she was dead because of him. He still couldn't forgive himself and he doubted he ever would.

He couldn't believe how stupid he had been, trusting Voldemort would actually spare her.

No one could ever understand what she meant to him, no one would ever know how profound and true his love was. As much as he hated James, he'd much rather have her with him than dead. He would do absoloutely anything to have her back. Anything.

He never knew how much he needed her until she left, even having her hate him seemed better than not having her at all.

And seeing Harry just killed him. The hatred he felt when he saw him - a constant reminder Lily had chosen James - was washed away by a desire to cry everytime he looked into those green eyes, so much like Lily's, and remembered that night in Godric's Hollow.

She had such a big effect on him, she changed him after she died. He let go of all that stupid talk of blood purity and Dark Arts for her, to make it up to her. But her knew he never would make it up to her.

After all these years, the pain of losing her was still there. He doubted time would ever heal those wounds.

He wished he could move on, get over her. He tried all he could, but he loved her more than anything in this world.

And he couldn't pretend to be strong forever; he was human, after all. He couldn't pretend he didn't think about her all the time, or that their fight during the 5th year and the night at Godric's Hollow didn't still haunt him every night in his dreams.

But maybe this was his punishment - having to deal with the memory of her, forever.

No matter how hard he tried, Lily Evans would always be immortal on Severus Snape's mind.

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

Mushy Snape, I know. Sorry bout that. Check out my other fic, Harry's Goodbye? *-*

~ bubble drizzles