Useless Notes: I don't care what you guys have to say about this, as long as it's gonna help me with my future stories.
Disclaimer: Anything recognizable ain't mine…as you know.
The title alone should give you some kind of idea on who the talking dude is.
Hope you like it.
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Howling at the Unyielding Star
So… I heard you found a new friend.
Someone you can pour your heart out to.
Someone who'll make you smile and laugh again.
Someone who'll erase the shitty memories of yesterday.
Kurosaki Ichigo. That's his name, right?
I knew it.
But don't get the wrong idea.
I ain't mad or anything.
I actually don't mind.
You picked a great guy, really you did.
After all, he can do the impossible and me…
I do what I can.
Unfortunately, that ain't enough.
For you anyway.
I mean, dammit woman, you're a princess for crying out loud!
You deserve only the best.
Something he's prepared to give and I'm not.
Tch. I can't believe it.
I'm already a lieutenant an' I'm still a coward.
Still a stray.
But you…
You're still that same shining star I couldn't get my eyes off way back when we were still kids.
That same shining star I couldn't reach, because I was too damned afraid I'd fall.
Too damned afraid you'd hate me for even trying.
Too damned afraid I'd lose you.
Well, I did.
Then you disappeared and climbed even higher.
You climbed so high, I wouldn't even reach you even if I tried.
When you did decide to come back down, someone had already reached you.
Kurosaki Ichigo.
Ever since he came, I never stopped regretting and imagining what could have been.
What could have been if only I tried harder.
If only I jumped higher.
But you know what they say: You ain't nothing but shit if you dwell too much in the past. What's done is done and there ain't a damn you can do to change it.
It hurts like hell, but it's something I gotta accept.
I mean come on, you were (and still are) too good for me.
Even if I did reach you, you wouldn't accept me anyway.
You wouldn't even care, no matter how long our friendship lasted.
I would never deserve you.
And besides your brother, my taichou would make sure I'd never reach you.
Kurosaki did the impossible.
He beat Kuchiki-taichou and brought you down from the sky.
He did everything I couldn't.
He did everything I didn't.
Didn't, 'cos I was too big a sissy to do it myself.
He didn't care if he died anyway.
And me?
I don't know.
Hell, I don't even care.
I don't care about nothin nowadays.
If you're happy with him, what the hell.
Just remember that if he ever drops you on the way down, I'll always be waiting here to catch you.
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A/N: Please review!