PStU: Ya Ya I know another one-shot. I know I should be working on Jak's Journal Entry 15 but as I have said I don't have the heart to write anything long right now. Besides I am having major writes block at the moment.

Star: She has a lot of idea's for one-shots but the long stories are giving her a hard time.

PStU: I know right?

Angel: PStU does not own the Jak and Daxter series. Naughty Dog does.

I am addicted to Dark eco.

Truth be told I am really addicted to the power it gives me regardless of the pain. Sure it hurts at first but after the pain I feel like I can do almost anything. I make sure to be careful though. I have at times almost lost myself to the power the dark eco gives but I remember what happened to Gol and Maia. Though now that I have felt what dark eco can offer I understand why they would go to such great lengths to have as much of it as possible. Even though I have a better understanding of why they did what they did it does not mean that I would have helped them. No I still would have fought them, if only for the satisfaction of killing them. They went insane with all the power that they had.

I can say though at times I feel as if I will never have enough dark eco to satisfy me. When I feel like that my mood is almost constantly bad. If it weren't for Daxter who is constantly by my side I probably WOULD have tried to open a silos or something.

Daxter. He felt what dark eco can offer but only once. He has no desire for the enormous amounts of power it can offer and has said as much countless times. I also can understand to a degree why he may not want to go near any dark eco besides what comes of me. If I had become an Ottsel instead of the powerful creature I turn into I would stay away from it too.

Daxter is one of the only reasons that I have not fallen victim to the dark eco's whispers of true power. He always brings me back reminding me of all the things I would loss if I just let the Dark eco take over. I know he is right and also… I fear that if I DO give in to the Dark eco I will destroy all that I care about. Just like Gol and Maia did. I do not want to be another Gol Acheron. I want to remain at least somewhat sane.

You may ask why I say I want to stay somewhat sane. I know for a fact that I am at least somewhat insane. I know for a fact that when the dark eco takes hold and I change into Dark Jak as everyone calls my darker self that I enjoy killing. I not only enjoy it but I love feeling the life drain out of my enemies. I love to see those around me scream in terror and try to run before they are next. I just love it, and no truly sane person would enjoy massacring people without a second thought.

The only other person to keep me from giving myself over to the dark eco would have to be Keira. I don't want her to see me in that state. I don't ever want to hurt her. And that is exactly what I would be doing if I just gave myself over to the dark eco. She has never seen me absorb any dark eco. She has never seen the large insane grin on my face after I feel the power going through me. She has never seen me go to extremes just to get a little bit of dark eco to satisfy my addiction to it, and she has never seen by darker side. It's all because I don't want her to.

I don't want her to know that I am addicted to the very thing that drove Gol and Maia nuts. I don't want her to know that I slide so easily into Dark Jak that it is just like taking a walk. I want her to think I can control myself. I don't want her to know that I can no longer live without it.

So yes I am addicted to Dark eco and the power it gives me. I won't however let Keira, Daxter or anyone else know about it.

PStU: R&R please.

See you later