"Everyone I had ever loved, and who ever loved me — all gone."
And if I bleed, I'll bleed
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there.
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me? - Evanescence
It's strange perhaps but Mab was part of that for the greatest while I'd tried to deny myself but we were linked. I was only ever half human and when in the Land of Magick I needed the human world, yet I never really spoke of how much I needed the other world, her world. Staying a length of time in either place suffocated me not that I'd ever have let her know just how much I felt her within me. For a slip in time it was Mordred who made me feel remorse, made me feel envy. Perhaps I could have been closer to Queen Mab, perhaps our story could have had a very different ending. In my opinion words like perhaps and regret are of no use so it is best not to dwell upon them for they can not be changed that is known. In the end part of me missed magick, I was glad to have Nimue back my heart had a reason to beat again when I saw her and although I was happy to use the last of my birthright I felt once again it was the ending of a chapter of my life. I may sound mad but I miss my enemy, nostalgia can be a terrible thing and I wonder, I wonder if she is truly gone. I stood at the smithereens of the round table I watched her slowly fade to nothing as I turned my back on her. One of my three mothers. Yet sometimes when I am in the forest the wind sweeps through the trees strong enough to blow the healthiest leaf to the ground.
'Merlin...Merlin...Dont forget me.'
I hear her call to me.