Disclaimer: I do not own Grey's Anatomy. Of course I wish I did, but I don't.
A/N: Read, enjoy, review. Look into the future, 8½ months after prom. Although I loved Denny, in my story, he doesn't exist ;-)
Chapter 1: So this is life now.
'So this is life now,' I thought when I was lying in Finns arms, on the couch.
I'm pregnant now, and I'm a resident. At least, I was a resident, until yesterday. Now, I'm on maternity leave. I hate not to be at the hospital. What would my interns do without me? Are there people dying? Because I'm not there, to look after them?
"Stop worrying," Finn said al off a sudden.
"I'm not. Worrying, I mean. I'm not worrying.." I replied.
"Yes, you are. I know you. When you worry, you fiddle.."
Damn. He's right, you know..
"Hmmm.. Maybe you're right. You know me to well, it's freakin' annoying!" I said laughing.
Finn smiled at me. "Just tell me what's going on.."
"I hate being at home, doing nothing, knowing my interns are in the hospital. Alone. Without me. I cannot relax and justlie here, doingabsolutely nothing,on maternity leave.." I confessed.
Finn nodded. "You know, the chief wouldn't send you away when he knew there would be taken care of your interns.."
Why does he have to be so right and understanding?
"You're probably right. I just cannot stand the fact I'm lying here, doing nothing.. Could we do something?" I ask and I looked up to him.
Finn. McVet, who had planns.He was being a great friend. Even when I told him that I was pregnant.Especially when I added a tiny little fact, beingthe baby wasn't his, but Derek's. Derek still doesn't know. He never left Addison after Prom, so why would I tell him? It would only make things harder. But I did tell Finn, it was the least he deserved. After all, I was scary and damaged..
"Of course we can. What do you want to do? Watch a movie? Play chess? Eat something?" Finn replied while stroking my hair. He would do anything for me.
"I'm kinda hungry yeah. Let's eat something," I replied while I'm trying hard to get up. It was hard, with such a belly. Many things were hard with a swollen belly.
Finn gave me a hand and walked with me to the kitchen. I sat down, and he began to cook lunch, while I annoyingly stared at him.
'I would do anything to know what's on that girls mind,' Finn thought when he grabbed some eggs out of the fridge. She smiled at him, but her thoughts were far away, he knew.
'He is so sweet,' I thought when Finn smiled back at me. He was a real angel, especially when I told him I was pregnant and all. It was a good decision, to trust him and be honest. For once, at least.Because I had to lie to everyone else. It was extra hard to lie to Derek. And Addison. I obviously had problems to face Addison over and over again the few months.
Luckily for me, was Finn there, at home. He sort of lived there now, for more company that Izzie and George could offer me, they actually had shifts.
Deep inside, in a dark, not welcome place, I do miss Derek. I know it's not fair to Finn, and I can't make things more complicated then they are. The past few months, Derek looked at me with pain in his eyes. The first weeks after prom were the most painful looks, at least, I thought. But then, I didn't had my monthly periods anymore, and I was pregnant. After the news was out, it was almost unbearable to see him pass by. The look in his eyes, full of pain, desire, fear, regret, full of question marks..
And then there was Addison. Addison, who looked happy because she thought I was pregnant from Finn, and happy with Finn. Now she could move on with Derek. I couldn't tell her the baby was Derek's, because of you-know-what-that-would-bring, but I couldn't face her without guilt feelings either. I avoided her badly, just like I avoided Derek.
"Here you are," Finn said and placed a plate in front of me with delicious scrambled eggs. I used to hate scrambled eggs, but now I was pregnant, I loved them. I thankfully smiled at him. "Thank you Finn," I said. So this is life now..
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