THE LAST GOOD-BYE
Hello again, old friend. It's been a while since my last visit, but a day doesn't go by that you aren't in my heart. I miss you. I feel so empty, like a part of me is missing. I'm not whole. But I know you know that. I can feel you everywhere around me. Our love transcends all that is, all that was, and all that will be.
Moving on is the hardest part of letting go. So often I think back to when I met you and how very different I was back then. My life has changed so much because of you. I am now someone who I may never have had the chance to become if it wasn't for you. I've experienced more than I ever dared to dream with you.
In the chill night air I glance across the fire at where you once lay wondering if in some other realm things had gone differently that day. That arrow was headed directly at my heart. Why did you jump in front of me? I didn't need your help. We both knew that. For the longest time afterward I was so angry. I was angry at you, myself, hell, I was angry at the world. From the very beginning I knew our time together would have to end, as all good things do. I guess I took for granted that we would be together forever.
Life is made up of moments both good and bad. Whether it's all predestined or if we determine the course our road will take us by our own actions, the fact remains that without Life's bad moments, we could not appreciate it's good moments. It took me so long to figure that out once you were gone. I'm sorry I couldn't understand sooner.
Wherever you are, remember one thing above all else. You will forever be a part of me.
"Mother, it's time to go," calls a young girl. Her final peace said, the middle-aged woman at the altar rises from her knees. "I'll be there in a second, Xenia." Xenia darts back into the hallway of the abandoned tomb. The woman takes a final glance at the two coffins before her. She walks over to the head of one that is older by about thirty years. She blows away some dust on the engraved wooden face. She smiles,"Watch over her, Lyceus."
~FIN~
© Copyright January 13, 2001
Laura M. Garcia
Disclaimer- Xena and Gabrielle belong to Renaissance Pictures? Or Universal? Anyway, nobody's paying me any $'s for this story because it sucks.
Author's Note- I have a cold and I can't hear out of my right ear. Doesn't that suck? Anyway...A long time ago, in a gala-oops, wrong story. Circa the first time Alti showed Xena her fate on the crucifix, I wondered what if one of them really did die, what would the other do? The first draft of this didn't have the last paragraph, I added that later because people were like "I don't get it? Who's it about?"