Chapter 1
Tris' POV
"I love you." He said.
"I know you do." I want to say more, but I don't have the courage to say "I love you too." How hard can it be? Four words. Four little words. Like his name. Four. No. His name is Tobias. Four is the instructor. Tobias is who he is. And Tobias is kind, loving, and I am crazy about him. But I don't love him. Not that I know of.
It's been nearly a year since initiation was over. I don't think many of my friends think it's weird I'm the instructors girlfriend. Will and Christina are kind of okay with it? They just want me to be happy. I am happy. I work in the tattoo parlour with Tori but train initiates when I need to. I should leave soon, my shift starts in a bit.
"Tobias?" I whisper.
"Mmmm" he mumbles into his pillow
"I have to get to work" I Say.
"Then go to work and leave me some cake and time to sleep." He retorts. Wow. Grumpy today.
"I would but it would really help if you weren't taking up the bed and lying practically on top of me." I say.
He moved a bit. Enough for me to get up. I jumped up and got changed in the bathroom.
I stumbled into the room again as Tobias is examining his murky finger nails.
"Do you think you'll ever say it Tris?" he asks.
"Say what?" Damn, he knows.
"You know perfectly well Tris."
"I know…" I reply. He nods at me. " I don't know.. I can't say I love you Tobias because I don't know if I do or not. But I know I will one day and it should be soon, but I will tell you when I do." I explain, my voice rattling, holding back the tears that try to push through.
I feel his warm embrace fold around me, I turn in his arms and plant a soft kiss on his lips. The kiss is not deep, nor scary, but a loving and soft kiss. One that makes me feel fireworks go off in my chest and my heart is burning. That makes me think I love him. Do I? And how will I know if I do or not?