A/N: Hey guys! This is a little thing I came up with as I finished episode 23 at 1am. Yes, I watch Mai-HiMe at 1am. I'm just that cool :P
This is basically Yohko's thoughts to Midori after Mai brings her in after Gakutenou was defeated by Mikoto. I don't think there is enough love for Yohko and Midori so here we go :D
I will be updating my other stories soon. Don't think I've forgotten :)
Disclaimer: I do not own Mai-HiME. Sunrise Does.
Hold Your Hand
As I see you lying on the bed, a feeling of great guilt washes over me.
I have been a bad friend.
I read your note although I knew it was for Mai-san. I'm sorry, but I had to know what was going on. The last few weeks you had changed. The cheery and often annoying Midori that I knew had disappeared. Sure, you acted like nothing was wrong, but I know you. Something was very wrong. After reading your whole thesis on the "HiMEs" my heart aches to know all the pain you are suffering. Losing the one that you love is a great price to pay, and unfortunately, I have experienced it with you.
Remember when we were in college? You were always trying to find new ways to have fun, new ways to keep our boring student lives a little more interesting. Be it drinking or karaoke, you always found a way.
I remember the time you confessed to me one night we went drinking. I didn't really pay you any attention since I thought you were just babbling on like a drunk, but you weren't. After that day, you had new-found courage that motivated you go full-on following your heart. I wish I had done the same.
I loved you Midori. I still do. That is why everyday of my life I regret what I did. I regret having rejected you for fear. I was scared of what people would think. Sounds stupid...I know. But I was just finishing college, starting a new career, and in my selfish search for success, I closed all doors for you.
You never said it, but I know you went on that trip to Egypt to get away from Japan. To get away from me. That is where you met your Doctor right? After you came back, my heart shattered into a million pieces when you told me, with a large grin spread on your face, that you had found love. The Doctor had already filled the gap I left.
Like the good friend I tried to be, I tried to be happy for you. I even congratulated you, remember? But behind that smile you saw, there where a cascade of tears waiting to flow down.
You became so engrossed with your work and research that the times I saw you were few and short. The few times we hung out you acted as if nothing had happened between us, yet it did, and it changed me forever.
After you left, I had regretted my decision so much that I decided to confess my true feelings for you upon your return, but when you brought the news of your Doctor, I just couldn't.
I am guessing that the Doctor must be dead since you were defeated, and although it might sound unorthodox, I'm a little disappointed that I'm not dead, because it means I wasn't your most important person.
I can say I expected to be, but I would be lying if I say I didn't have just a tiny spark of hope in me.
Now, seeing you vulnerable here, I wonder what's next. Will the world really end like you said in your thesis if the HiMEs fight?
Well, if it does, I just want you to know that I'd rather spend my last minutes by your side than a whole eternity alive without you. I've already suffered enough for my mistake. Every night I prayed to God that he would give me just one last chance, and it seems I've been answered. When you wake up, I will tell you. I will tell you just how much I love you and why you shouldn't be sad. I don't want a single tear to run down your porcelain cheeks that were made to smile, not cry.
Even if the world ends tonight, I will be okay if I can just hold your hand as we leave.
A/N: So what did you think? This is a one-shot, I think, but if you would like to see what Midori thinks, review and let me know :D
Arigato!